cal or callie | 17 (dec. 31, 2008)
he/him (queer) w̄ ADHD + bipolar (ii)
i love my internet girlfriend.

i really like rentry. my interests, my main
oh, and talking! i love talking
i use a lot of words where they may not be needed.
i never intend to be pretentious in this way.
...but i obviously see how i could come off otherwise.

art by @sushiisiu

fandom wise, if you don't wanna read my interest list, i am a pretty big fan of:

BEFORE YOU FOLLOW
i am a fictkinnie but doubles are awesome so its not very relevant
– dirk strider (sorry)
– jonathan sims (sorry)

i don't follow everybody who follows me, because i like answering actual questions!
– if you send a lot of all asks and i never respond, it doesn't mean i don't like you. i read all of them.

if you change your theme a lot, i may not recognize you easily.
– it's never anything personal. in fact, i forget the names of my loved ones quite often...

if you do not like me—and more importantly, do not want me to interact with you, please block me!
– otherwise, i'd accidentally follow for sure.
– i have nothing against people who don't like me following me. um, of course i probs wouldn't know, but i'm telling you so you know it's ok.

ACTIVITY
– whenever

DO NOT INTERACT (short version)
– super public proshippers, "[///]-con"ers ("bro-con", "loli-con", etc)
– minors who post NSFW
– under 14
* sometimes i follow 13 year olds. if i do, and their age is public, i am aware of this, and obviously am not worried.

DO NOT INTERACT (actual)
– um...i am not very fond of the ANTI CENSORSHIP pervert catboy doggirl types. i just feel like those sorts of labels are maybe better kept private?

– while i have many thoughts on proshipping, generally, people who use the label "proship" tend to be a bit annoying to me, but that isn't to say i am against what the definition of "proship" stands for.
– i'd just never use the label. using the label carries a vastly different meaning than just shipping complex stuff, and not supporting cyberbullying.
–– (though, for the record, a lot of the cyberbullying i see is pretty...(puts hands up defensively). there just...i can't really...when you talk about some of the stuff that proshippers do, without consideration, a conversation sometimes...just doesn't do.)
– i certainly disagree with the notion that fiction does not affect reality, and am of the opinion that spreading certain coping mechanisms does more harm than good.
– this being said, of course nuance is important, and great, especially in fiction. but does that mean we need to be romanticizing it, publicly? eehhh...

– it's pretty hard to ensure kids don't talk to you on these sites. i will always try to respect the views and thoughts of everybody, age aside. nonetheless, of course i'd prefer to talk to people my own age. why wouldn't i. would be kind of weird to TRULY not care if i'm talking to people in like...elementary school. but! i can't judge. i was on the internet young, lying about my age too.
– it's almost like this isn't a big problem if you're not an insane freak adding people on discord all the time. jesus christ

i lied it's not complicated at all. i just like explaining things. i'm so sorry. i will Never lie Again.

"are you @streamer"

– yes. Yes that is me That was my @ I went by Sleet for a long time (you're still free to call me that if you want)

"grooming social experiment"

– OK i will go over it all again right here for clarity purposes. generally speaking, i don't think this defines me, but when it comes to knowing people on the internet, of course it is acceptable and understandable to define people by this sort of drama surrounding them. nonetheless, i'd like to clarify what happened and my thoughts on it—despite not thinking this is very relevant today.

– my friend made an account where he jokingly accused me of "grooming" another friend of mine. said friend doctored screenshots of me saying things like "yes we erp" (in a server of mine), "and also we proship" (in server, again). umm honestly it was sort of funny, because me and all people involved are the same age, and that is the sort of thing that's kinda funny...in a group chat with your friends. obviously the funny part is not the idea that this sort of account would take away from real issues. it was really just for the people involved to giggle at.

– obviously i don't think grooming is funny, and i think the idea that i was doing an actual social experiment just 'cuz a fake callout was made is Ridiculous, and i don't particularly care to talk about it any more.

– what more is there to say! i do find that sort of joke a bit less funny these days, but thats just 'cuz i'm a bit funnier now, and um...can do better...than that...unfortunately for me, i love talking, and to a lot of people, the more you talk the more guilty you are! internet drama and stuff.

– STILL unfortunately for me, if anyone STILL! has stuff to say about this! despite it being about a year and a half ago (jan. 2025), i'll listen, and talk, or whatever...it just feels like a bit of a waste of time. yes it was funny to get called a dictator for "kinning" kokichi ouma. why am i even still talking right now! well, because i love talking to people. a flaw!

– i will say, over the years, there are more and more deplorable people, who's history come to light on these websites. i certainly wouldn't joke about that sort of thing these days, as it WOULD take away from the constant, real information being spread. i am really sorry to the many victims to these sorts of people. horrible horrible stuff, man.

"failed callout"

– most of you won't know what this is referring to (let alone the aforementioned....situation). uhhh. hm. i said it wasn't a call-out like 50 times so i'm not sure what else to say. i don't actually have the document this is referring to anymore, but i was just hating, as i said in the doc itself. is this that important. i don't think i'd...do the same thing again though, 'cuz um...i have some better stuff to be doing.