Hi I'm Isaiah or Lily OKAY introduction of mines in a nutshell: He/Ask Cishet Lesboy Femboy Male wwhatevver. 
Literally Lily IRL Orthodox Christian diagnosed VVEOS Schizophrenic medically recognised BPD 14yo and I felt like brinin back my lovvemails because there's more I feel like I'd like to Say. I'vve deleted all the others Asides from Cabby's along wwith neww additions because I still stand by evverythin DIRECTORY EXTEND
friends list:
Zariska = My Other Half (Early 2024/5)
Cabby = My Dearest FP (Mid/Late 2024)
Weronika = My Day 1 (Early 2024)
Moeko = My 4 Lifer (Late 2025)
All these lovvemails are platonic
Cabby
Entry 1: My fp evver....I lovve you so much cabcabs you mean so much to me. You truly mean the wworld to me and I wwould givve it to you if I could. Not romantic Eww. yuck. you knoww I don't think of you in that wway (ｰ̀⤙ｰ́ ꐦ) I just had to make sure. But yes, you mean so much to me and I genuinely mean that, so I thought I could express it here...I really don't knoww wwhat I'd do wwithout you. You helped me get out of an insanely toxic friendship, and you joinin that inanimate insanity roleplay servver me and yk wwho.. ran in august of 2024 wwas the best choice you could evver make, maybe not to you but that's howw I see it... You mean lots to me and I really can't imagine a life wwithout you.. I'm hallucinatin right noww runnin on nothin but red doritos and wwhite ultra zero monster so I hope you can understand me but you seriously mean so, so much to me. I alwways laugh wwhenevver wwe dm. You're so hilariously funny and I really wwant you to knoww that, not evven that but wwhen there's an occasion I'm not bodyshamin and insultin you it's actually really fun to be nice to you because you're constantly swweet to me... I knoww I tend to havve my fair share of BPD splits*, and wwe don't alwways agree on evverythin, it's my fault for bein so easily irritable and I'm so grateful for the fact you're patient. I'm so grateful for YOU, seriously. You nevver judge me about my lame interests like duolingo and you wwillinly listen to my theories not just about that but literally anythin in general. I lovve talkin to you, and I lovve hearin about dog days so much. I remember I made a long lovvemail in your birthday game, but I feel as if that wwas just not enough, so I'm sayin it here. I really like you so much Cabby, please nevver change. I'll try get better for you because I really wwant you to be proud of me just like howw I am wwith you. Sayin it here again, PLEASE DO NOT BE SCARED TO TALK TO ME ABOUT ANY OF YOUR INTERESTS IN GENERAL I lovve hearin you talk so this wwouldn't make a difference. I just suck at listenin, though I do read fast wwhen I'm on phone so there's that. I might take a little time to read on pc (wwhich I'm alwways on, evven noww.) but just knoww I'm alwways listenin. I seriously do need to be nicer to you sometimes cause I feel like all I do is call you a fat coww and JUST SO YOU KNOWW (you already do but I wwanna state the obvvious again) evvery insult I call you is a joke, I'm just a dumb tsundere and I knoww nothin, and like you stated prior, you knoww the difference wwith me jokin around and me bein obvviously upset. BRO there has been so many occasions wwhere I burst out laughin durin our convversations, and I lovve showwin you progress of my codin.. You evven listen to my project rants like 2C4S so I APPRECIATE YOU FOR THAT!!!TJANK YOU!!!!!! I wwill definitely make you a beta tester. WWhile I havve been tired, you'vve been motivvatin me to wwork harder and I really thank you for that, that and just evven stayin wwith me makes evverythin great. I seriously appreciate you Cabby. I need to wwrite more but just knoww I lovve you to bits do not evver become an evvil 1161 butch skinhead capitalistic maga far rightist or I'll die!!!!!!!!!!!!
Entry 2:
...:/ you havven't spoken to me in almost 3 days i'vve been #DYIN!!!! I think you're sick so I obvviously do understand I HOPE YOU GET WWELL SOON! I'm vvery excited for you to read evverythin i'vve said.. I truly havve poured my heart out, and funny thin is, I'm not evven done. I can't wwait for you to be back I'vve missed you so bad (( I'vve been so depressed wwithout you smh COME BACK I HATE YOU I could genuinely nevver miss someone like I miss you cuz I miss u like evveryday HLEP I hate it wwhen you're gone cuz you're my best friend and you're so fun to havve as a friend and just vvery great. Other people are so missin out and I'm glad I'm able to havve someone like you wwith me... I HOPE YOU'RE OKAY WWITHJ ME SPAMMIN YOU! You genuinely are amazin nobody could evver replace you i'm SOOO tired of wwaitin but its ok cuz its wworth igt GET WWELL SOON CABBY ILY!
Entry 3:
I knoww i need to start wwritin on other lovvemails noww but i cant help it.... you are SO kind and swweet and carin to me it's genuinely crazy, you'vve helped me wwith so many thins and you'vve helped me at my lowwest, i'm really thankful to havve someone like you in my life and i cherish evvery sinle moment wwe havve. I lovve talkin to you So So much you literally alwways listen to my stupid fuckin rambles BUT YOU NEED TO TALK MORE TOO SOMETIMES because i feel too bad constantly makin you listen to my duolingo lily and zari ship rants and headcanons and my lore Ok. You are SO good and swweet and kind and considerate and carin, i genuinely don't knoww howw anyone could dislike you because yiure literally amazin and so funny. you alwways knoww wwhat to do wwhen im upset you alwways knoww howw to make me laugh you alwways knoww wwhat to do at the right moments and its just Ugh it's so nice and i'm so mad at myself for not speakin to you more in 2024. At the same time, i wwas vvery unhealthy back then so i likely wwouldvve bpd split on u or harassed u if u evver remotely made me upset. So i'm glad wwe could spend 2026 more together, evven if wwe'vve had our ups and dowwns you'vve still stayed wwith me and i'm so grateful for that, and to havve you as a wwhole. you'vve seen basically almost all of my major eras and i'm really glad wwe could stay in contact. The thought of losin you is genuinely so scary to me so do not evver leavve me please #OK i knoww you wwouldnt im just really scared to imagine a life wwithout you and yeah IM PROBABLY GONNA WWRITE MORE LATER, BUT I NEED TO FOCUS ON OTHER LOVVEMAILS SOON HELP okay. I lovve u cabby Ok
Entry 4:
HELLO CABBY AND WWE ARE BACK!!! GOSH THERE'S SO MUCH TO SAY HEHE MAN IM EXCITED FOR U TO RETURN FROM SUMMER CAMP TO READ THIS just to start off i'm actually really surprised WWE out of all people I couldvve met in that ii roleplay servver 2 years ago managed to bond. I had a positivve vvieww on you howwevver I did NOT expect you to become this relevvant and important to me, I'm really happy that I decided to reach out to you that one day after rememberin your existence and informin you that I movved accounts. I genuinely swwear dowwn that wwas the BEST decision I could EVVER make. You havve helped me wwith so much, you havve gotten me awway from so many bad people you havve listened to my vvents and rants you havve been there for me evvery sinle time i broke this year. You havve been genuinely nothin but nice to me and I'm really pissed at myself that I havven't been repayin you for all your help. You are seriously evverythin I could evver need in a friend, youvve alwways had my back, no matter wwhat happened youvve alwways givven me a shoulder to cry on and a hand to hold. No matter wwhat life has throwwn my wway, youvve nevver let me face it alone. Havvin you by my side has been one of the greatest gifts in my life. From the vvery depths of my heart, I wwant you to knoww howw genuinely grateful I am for you. your lovve your compassion your support and unwwavverin presence havve shaped my life in wways I'll nevver be able to fully express. I wwill alwways appreciate you, more than wwords could evver say. I knoww I havvent been holdin up the best recently but youvve alwways been nice and patient wwith me and youvve let me take my time, and I genuinely fullheartedly appreciate that so much. Thank you for bein such an incredible part of my life. I seriously appreciate you more than youll evver knoww.
Entry 5:
Why you take so long to respond like why am i on delivered for six hourse i guess im not so important to you because if i was you would not be leaving me on delivered for this long i guess video games are more important than me so i dont get why they are but they are and what video games are you playing if you like it much better that me i guess ill stop texting you then because if im always texting first thing then whats the point of texting you you are my favourite person and you still are but i wish you would text first because i hate always texting first and i think you could text me first once in awhile
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Us duos
MOEKO
WWIP
WERONIKA
WWIP
ZARISKA
Hello, Aria. U get an image bc ur special
Entry 1: OKAY IT'S BEEN A WWHILE SINCE I'VVE WWRITTEN A LOVVEMAIL OF YOURS. VVERY LONG TIME OKAY FOR STARTERS I'm REALLY happy you're back in my life, I nevver thought wwe'd end up this close again after all the drama that wwent on last year. I wwas really unstable and stupid out of my mind but the best thin that's happened to me this year is gettin back in contact wwith you on June thanks to my copycat Astro wwhatevver their name wwas. I'm really happy that long convvo ended up in us becomin friends again on the 9th of June right before your birthday, and I'm SO excited for our friendship to surpass our old mark wwhich wwas 3 months. I CAN'T BELIEVVE IT'S ALREADY BEEN TWWO MONTHS OMG You genuinely mean so much to me more than wwords can explain, you're nice and understandin and you're SO SO funny. LIKE BRO ALL OUR INSIDE JOKES ARE PEAK AS FUCK BUT WWHY DO WWE HAVVE SO MANY SON IM CRINEEEEE. Also not to mention WWE KEEP SYNCIN. LIKE EVVERYDAY. AND VVERY CONCERNIN AMOUNTS OF TIMES WWE SYNC. DUDE You're the person I'vve matched wwith the longest and once you wwake up I am GOIN to match pfps wwith you...:) 1 month OKAY WWE GOT THIS 1 MONTH BRO 1 MONTH MATCHIN PFP CHALLENGE OKAY. DUUUUUDE I CAN'T BELIEVVE WWE MET IN EARLY 2024 AND BECAME FRIENDS IN FEB 2025 evven if it only lasted 3 months I'M REALLY GLAD I STILL GOT TO KNOWW YOU AND I'M SO GLAD WWE'RE STILL IN CONTACT. I CAN'T BELIEVVE I THOUGHT I'D HATE YOU FOREVVER BUT NO WWE'RE BEST FRIENDS NOWW AND I'M SO HAPPY I CAN CALL YOU THAT. You havve helped me wwith SO much, wwhenevver I wwanna get my mind off somethin you're alwways there and wwhenevver I feel lonely you're alwways there to brin me company and BRUH YOU MEAN SO. SO. SO.SOSOSO MUCH TO ME IM SO FR I'M REALLY HAPPY THAT WWE'VVE BONDED SO WWELL AND I HAVVE NO PROBLEMS WWITH YOU WWHATSOEVVER Ok I havve no idea wwhat else to wwrite but I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU. THNAK YOU FOR BEIN IN MY LIFE BESTIE. I LOVVE. HEAERT
Entry 2: HELLO. I'M WWRITIN THIS CUZ ITS OUR 4 MONTH ANNIVVERSARY OF BEIN BESTIES Bro I Cantbelievve wwe surpassed the 3 month 2025 mark I'M REALLY HAPPY THIS IS WWORKIN OUT Ihavve genuinely nevver had any actual problems wwith you and wwhenevver an issue comes up WWE COMMUNICATE AND LIKE Bro im so happy wwe r both healthy and not evven that I'M JUST REALLY GLAD I'M FRIENDS WWITH YOU. BEST FRIENDS, ACTGUALLY. CORRECTION. You're genuinely such a good friend like idk howw to explain it YOU'RE ALWWAYS THERE FOR ME WWHEN I NEED IT AND YOU'RE DEADASS MY OTHER HALF Like i CANNOT imagine a life wwithout u I JUST LOVVE TALKIN TO YOU AND HANGIN OUT WWITH YOU AND WWATCHIN DUMB ASS GACHA VVIDS AND MR INCREDIBLE TURNIN UNCANNY VVIDS WWITH YOU its so funnh NOT TO MENTION i can just do or say anythin wwith you AND LIKE I'm so happy wwe could look back on the past and laugh at our old selvves for bein Idiots because im so surprised at howw much wwevve changed and growwn and like YOUVVE BASICALLY BEEN THERE FOR ME IN EVVERY ERA. From 2025 problematic me to ..zionist idf... me... to literally any of my fixations Evver adn like. DUUUDE I JUST LOVVE JOKIN WWITH YOU AND HAVVIN FUN WWITH YOU IDK HOWW TO PUT IT INTO WWORDS I JUST REALLY FEEL SO CLOSE TO YOU LIKE IT FEELS LIKE IVVE KNOWWN U FOR YEARS WWell technically twwo years if you count that brief interaction on oyutubw wwhere wwe beefed I CANT boom boom doll sped up by ayesha erotica timestamps in youtube comment sections could NOT havve been that deep. IM GIGGLIN THINKIN ABT IT im also really happy about the fact that youre just in my life in general AND LIKE DUDE i really appreciate you so muchj Likeyou alwways listen to me and you alwways make me feel comfortable and YEAH IF THERES'S ANYTHIN ELSE I HAVVE TO SAY IT WWILL GO HERE. HAPPY 4 MONTHS Im so excited to make it to one year bro WWE WWILL DO THIS BRO Im a little happy wwe fell out 2 times in the past because those twwo fallouts havve brought us to this point I ALSO LOVVE TALKIN ABT OUR ALTERNATIVVE UNIVVERSES ixant ITS SO FUN TO JUST TALK ABOUT ANYTHIN WWITH U ASIDES FROM THAT BUT YEAH I LOVVE U BESTIE PLS DONT TURN EVVIL~
Us duos
OUR INSIDE JOKES:
- m, 😓, i'm, sigh
- paula / fanaula / fanal
- nazi zari duolingo
- duolingo
- zari vriska (zariska) and lily eridan (lilydan) homestuck duolingo swwap au
- wwolvves, norwway, tord eddswworld
- here all eggs, eggs act lee
- 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐥.
- 𝐼'𝑚 [somethin] 🖕😜🖕
- "𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐚𝐭𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐢'𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐠𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 ."
- 𝐒𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐄 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐂𝐔𝐓𝐄
- DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE
- 𝐻𝒶𝓃𝓃𝒶𝒽, 𝓈𝒶𝓋𝒶𝓃𝓃𝒶𝒽 𝑜𝒽 𝓃𝒶𝓃𝒶..
- DO 𝘺𝘰𝘶 WANNA BE THE SPOTLIGHT YOU 𝗗𝗶𝗽𝘀𝗵𝗶𝘁
- 𝑪𝒂𝒃𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒆𝒏
- Rampage 💀 monster kill 💀
- Which mental patient are 𝘺𝘰𝘶
- Lily from the Duolingo World of Characters is an autistic lesbian asexual gothgender agenderflux catgender xirl who uses they/them and it/its pronouns, their best friend and joyfriend Zari is an autistic demipansexual genderfae mathgender pupgender demigirl who uses pup/pups, woof/woofs, bark/bark, sun/sunny, clou/cloud, po/pounce, and hie/hym pronouns, and the two stim to Girl in Red music together!
- "I'm surprised you are bad girl like me. Bad girls going out. That would be cool, Zari. But, you know, I am much more worse." Lily kissed Zari's lips with her lips.
- 💜HELLO💜HELLO💜IT'S💜ME💜FANSTER💜FANNY💜FAN!!!!!💜
- No senoritas isaiah has done so much damage. You did a very good job at changing, didn't you? you doxxed a kid's face, you did unwelcoming bullshit things you ha d done. i cannot believe i dated you back then that was utterly ridiculous and very disgusting... also what's wrong with my personality? you just don't get the sweetness and loyalty i am. i'm trying to heal here unlike YOU are bitch. i was crying and panicking myass ou t is that fun.? HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOU would FUCKINF GO INTO THIS SITUATION. HOW WOULD YOU FEEL? HUH? HOW WOULD YOU FEEL??? IF YOU WERE TREATED LIKE SHIT LIKE WHAT YOU DID TO US. ALL THE CRUELITY AND ALL THE DAMAGE, you don't understand ANY OF US. YOU DON'T. YOU NEVER DID. You are a 𝗺𝗼𝗻𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗿. i will despise you forever and ever until death come upon me..
- You are a 𝗺𝗼𝗻𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗿
- The twwin sisters / The wwoke sisters
- guys i just cried for 10 minutes because people in the Duolingo fandom havve 🍖🌈 in their name and i saww the headcanons and i wwant to commit its not evven funny these people havve to stop
- Duolingo 𝗡𝗦𝗙𝗪 🔞
- MAGA / Riley
- ZIONIST IDF
- israel
- dave strider
- a lot more i definitely forgot
gosh i need to wwork on yall soon #LOCKINSOON