757 days left ME AND ALI'S SHARED INTRO

• also leave a messagw PLEASE IM DESPERATE https://alterspring.org/@fan

irloomf called me a nerd when i was showing my new glasses BRITTANY REFERENCE

Guten tag I am Isaiah (IRL name)―Albeit I have a plethora of other names such as Brittanyˏ 9574ˏ Popyˏ Ivoˏ Blade or umm whatever your heart desires. U can also call me brikittany if we cool like that Lol. I'm a hetero monogamous cisgender femboy man and I'm white please I promise I'm not as basic as you assume. I use also default male or any pronouns I am also #orthodox #christian ☦️ I am trying to be a better version of myself also. / / GMT+0

I have unhealthy coping mechanisms like smokingˏ vaping and drinking (only when i fail a tryout)ˏ if this bothers youˏ block me.

• Typology: XNFP 9w5 SO/SP ChaoticNeutral Melsang. I also have disorders the ones most apperant in my behaviour being Schizophrenia (Diagnosed)ˏ Borderline Personality Disorder (Medically recognisedˏ unable to get a formal diagnosis as I'm 13)
  • I am unmedicated for both of this and have now just realised I've been in a long-term psychotic episode for 3 years now hence why I thought I had DID/OSDD sorry guys I'm not really a system I'm just schizo this is not for display it genuinely affect s my behaviour and the way I act.

Also healing compulsive liar Lol I've came clean about all my lies and I'm actively changing sorry to others I hurt in the past eheh Hahahah............... the only medication I take are multivitamins and THOSE AREN'T EVEN MEDS THEY'RE SUPPLEMENTS. I drink monster as it also contains vitamins (if you didn't know that monster energy has vitamins/other things good to the bodyˏ you do now) Also anxious attachment style

• I have a very deep connection with Isabel DVCˏ I am not a 'simp' neither am I her '#1 fan' or a 'fictionkin'ˏ I both genuinely and full-heartedly believe I'm her in real life as we have tons of things in commonˏ the exact same mentality and mindset as well as the fact I've been a fan for almost one whole year + have a body pillow (NOT FOR SEXUAL REASONS)ˏ a blanket of herˏ my irl name is isaiah + im christian I'm literally her as a teenager if she was a man and used to have a shrine before taking it down. I resonate with her very very deeply. Nobody gets or kins her like I do. When I see her on screen it feels like I'm looking in a mirror. I even sound like her (also pointed out by friends). I am even considering changing my last name to Carboni... Should I?
  • (Not delusion)
  • (Just because I have memories doesn't mean you "remember me")

I'm nonchalant at first but if you mention PCF I'll go crazy. I consider myself annoying and far too talkative for others to handle and that might just be something I have to accept so if you can't handle my yap TELL MEE! I'm homeschooled and I don't have friends outside of my computer cause the two people I hadˏ one of them recently sexually abused me so I'm recovering and the other sided with them sooo I'm pretty lonely now. I don't really go out and socialise as yk I have a bad stutter sooo I use online as my way to yap away WHICH IS WHY YOU MIGHT SEE ME TYPE FAST OR TALK TOO MUCH so Yea. If you can handle that we're gang

I have terrible memory loss and issues as a wholeˏ I used to even think I had amnesia. I'm still not 100% sure about what it isˏ but I will not self diagnose; so just keep this in mind — If you are going to confront me about something I did before June 2025 please provide screenshots as my brain blocks out a ton of stuff before that time. I cannot help my memoryˏ be patient Ok?

I'm recovering from an overdose attemptˏ and I've been really suicidal recently (ironic how it's mens mental health month when i've attempted 5+ times this month) so please even if you want to start up drama with me at least be a bit kinder than usual about it as I will CRY.

• DNI LIST HERE
  • Disclaimerˏ don't lie and act like somebody you're not just for me to like you. I like you for who you are and either way regardless if you won't reach out to me let this be a lesson that you shouldn't change for anybody unless it's for yourself. Easily influenced people are not on my to friend list just be yourself. I feel you because I used to be easily influenced but I am now setting up boundaries and you should do the same because you come first always
• I block freely. If you aren't my lovely gf alison (<33) or if not The Secret Clubˏ don't care who you are. I've stopped using the people in my computer as a lifeline. Get over it lol. #free from attachment issues.
  Anyway looking past this I HAVE SO MANY INTERESTS LISTED HERE. My main ones are mcsmˏ MTˏ ddlcˏ gurlz night Ummmm Idk Oh object shows too I HAVE /osc /ii /inanimateinsanity. Also a heads up I am nowhere NEAR gatekeep-y with my interestsˏ I WILL be overjoyed if you get into themˏ regardless if we're opps or not (^∇^)
• Venting
• Tonetags
• FRQ　 (Ask is more preferred)
• Pet names 　(unless you're my DADDIES)
• Joke nickname's　(unless its offensive)
• Normal nickname's

Don't reach out to me tho cus i don't want any new friemnds unless i reach out ill block u Ok? OK!

this is why kissing is SOOOO complicated.

Ivo is me Okay? thats a dude btw