Felix yap since I'm a lousy piece of shit. Hi all.

July 12: I've said this in multiple rentries, but I despise making friends above all things. I hate, and I mean hate interacting with people. I can only stand chatting with Ness— and occasionally Resi/Jayjay. I have a hard time giving a damn about other people and it's really because I don't care about others that I don't like or have an interest in. It is hard for me to make friends because I get uninterested quickly. I like the few friends I have now— and yes, I deeply care about them. I am not heartless towards them— I am apathetic to everyone else. I have a hard time being empathetic but I very much show sympathy. Leaving people and ignoring people is no hard task for me simply because I hate interacting with everyone. The only person that I'll ever consider a "best-friend" is Nas. If I have ever called anyone else the term "best-friend", then I lied . Sorry! I can't make myself like people, either. Believe me, I have tried so many times but I get so drained and I just block people so freely. It doesn't even concern me, either. With others, I can only handle short and quick conversations (Not with these people, though). I genuinely despise people that cannot take a hint or those that expect more from me. I give what I give to others. Basically, if you can't take it or like it— I'm sorry, but I cannot change myself for someone that means nothing to me. I will never, never like someone more than I like Ness. —

I've known Nas since 2025, December. Ever since then, I have been more happier. I've never laughed with someone so much. Ness means everything to me. I couldn't ever imagine my life without him. He's really amazing, and he's my best friend. I love him more than anything, and cherish him more than everything in this entire world. Nobody is better than Nas, Nas is the bestest!!! Peep the lovemail.

— Anyways. I also despise relationships, romantic ones to be specific. I find it hard to devote myself to a romantic partner and tend to lose feelings and say nothing— sucking it up. I am waiting for the right person, and the right person will never be someome who forces themselves upon me lest of all beg for my attention (Those people really annoy me). I hate dating, I hate relationships. I'll fuck around but I never mean any of my flirts, I just really hate everyone. I guess that's the memo of today's yap. Ok, bye. I'm gonna go back to reading erotic RyuSae.