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One

June 19, 2026

Hey there, Nas! I'm remaking your lovemail because earlier I mentioned wanting to so I'm holding up on said offer. Your old lovemail is saved... On my broken laptop, or somewhere entirely different (I actually have no idea where it may be. Oops). I'm really glad we are back to playing Roblox again, I've really missed this and I missed you. I don't know when I will date again, or if I ever will, but right now I am happy, like really really happy. It's been months since we last played and I am so sorry for that, I never want things to be like that ever again. You're my best friend in the whole wide world and I mean that! You're the Mello to my Matt, the Sae to my Shidou, and the Ranpo to my Edgar. I had a lot of fun today (and yesterday) just playing Roblox with you, as well as talking late. You're really fun to be around, I love your company, truly. With you I can be myself and I can say things that I can't with other people. You're not judgemental either, you're really chill and I like that about you. You make me feel really comfortable, yk? I'm really glad we're friends, Nas. You're, like such a big part of my life, I know that's a lot but you are! You're really cool and smart and playing Death Note with you is one of the most fun things I've ever done. I'm glad we met, and I'm glad you gave me a second chance (even though this was ALL M*KO'S FAULT). Anyways, I also liked playing DITB and VBL with you! Thanks for listening to me yap on VC, I tend to ramble a lot. Hopefully you somehow get VC back...?? I think if you're able to do Party VC you can do regular VC? Maybe the reason why Roblox ignored you was because there was no problem to fix? I have no idea. I still find that hilarious, though. Imagine getting ignored on Roblox. OMG I hated Delicate. So much. I already said some stuff in DMs but I was actually jealous of her. She was so annoying and was all like "NAS!!!!!!" bro shut up. I'm clearly better than her, right? Yeah, I am obviously! Because, why else would you unadd them?? It's because she's annoying and I'm clearly a billion percent better. Yeah no but she pissed me off a lot, I really dislike her. I HATE her.

Ummm, anyways I'm actually running out of things to say uh oh.
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Two

June 20, 2026

Hey, Nas! (I was writing this entry during work, mainly since I had nothing better to do and because I wanted to work on the second entry). This morning I was playing Death Note with CoolKid and I lowkey bribed him into backing me up (stuff you NEVER do for me because you hate me). Then, I met this guy named Light and this guy named ililililili — which, I think I told you he figured out my methods of killing (within 3 rounds of me being Kira consecutively). This only kept happening because I KEPT being Kira, and because I don't change things up. I'm going to the next time I play with you! You'll never see it coming! (Persona 5 reference, hehe). Anyways, yeah I usually Shini kill if I'm cornered or to kill for another Kira (killing with DN, then Shini kill after the first kill. You need 2 IDs, though). You and ililililili both catch onto that quickly... Mark my words, I will change. Oh, and then I shuffle IDs if I'm stuck at my id or if I can't find any that AREN'T my teammates. I might genuinely be the only person who does that, like shuffle IDs and spam Shini whenever I can. I don't usually shuffle IDs when I'm playing with you unless I'm winning or even when you're dead, but I DO Shini kill. I'm gonna change, though, like I already said. You won't suspect me one day! One day meaning TOMORROW. I will be more pro... I haven't shown it yet, but you'll see... I've been keeping it secret for so long. I'll be the best Kira and I will win against you! Yup, I'll be the best! OMG, but being Kira with you is actually so fun. I AM smart, we make a good duo since we are both smart (I'm smarter). Anyways, I can't wait to play Death Note with you all summer! Although, Monday through Friday I volunteered to... like. Babysit kids at this Bible Camp thing. I have no idea, but it's only for a few hours! I think I'm free after 1 PM? No idea, I guess we will find out this Monday. That's why tomorrow (although you're probably reading this when it is said date) I want to play a lot, but it is Father's Day so that may be tricky. Oh well.

With all that said...
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Three

June 21, 2026

Rentry deleted my work so now Felix has to redo.

Hey, Nas. I'm writing this. Well. I fucking was until Rentry deleted my work. Ahem. I WAS fucking writing this entry while you were playing Death Note trying to clutch a Mello win that will never happen! Ahaha I am so funny haha canyoustopknowingimkirayou-
wannabelawlietslasheughnear. Anyways, earlier I said I had a notebook dedicated to beating you, so I'd like to elaborate on that because I want to. Basically, to and fro from my dad's father day dinner (and a little bit when I WAS eating), I was working on it and basically dissecting you, specifically your strategies in Death Note. I had to ask Reina (Rose), Aria (Kensie), and my brother what they've observed from playing with you and they all said that they notice you spam in chat "I'm Kira" or "I'm Misa", dumb stuff like that, but I don't really know how that helps or draws you back, so I'm a bit lost and confused as to how that's all they have deduced. I thought of a lot more strategies as well as what you normally do when you're Kira (even though what they all said wasn't a strategy. You're just being stupid). Anywho, I also asked my mother for help (so now my entire family knows I'm trying to beat this girl named Nas) on how to become less of a suspect and win, ans she actually gave me really good advice. You better watch out, I might surpass you really soon and win against you. Anyways, playing Death Note with you today was really fun! I think tomorrow after VBS I'm gonna unadd Okay and CoolKid because they're both fucking annoying. I hope you know that the only reason I'm nice to others is for my benefit alone in hopes they may believe I am not Kira. Although, sometimes I'm mean and make enemies. Oh, but! I like you not for my own benefit but because you're my rival slash best friend slash enemy. You're someone I can rely on and trust but also go against. That's what makes you interesting from all the others, and you're a lot better than me at Death Note, but together we form a really good team. You're unlike the rest of them and I'm happy that you're my best friend. Slash rival nemesis. ANYWHO, I can't wait to play Death Note after VBS. I think the only thing that will get me through all that shit is knowing I can play with you as soon as I get home. I only live 5 mins away so I can play around 12:30 (I say 30M after because I gotta get changed and etc).

Anyways, time to compliment you because apparently I don't do it enough. Like I said before, you're really good at Death Note. I'm not gonna praise you on figuring me out, though, only because we've known each other for a while now and you have me all mapped out (unfortunately when you're Kira I am not the most observant because you're usually NOT Kira, so when you are I don't expect it and tag along with you), but I will tell you this: You are REALLY good at deducting things, be it me or anyone else, you're just really good at it. I know this is just a game but you're very observant and intelligent, more than EOK and Teru. The only reason me and CoolKid voted you out when you were Kira today was simply because I just felt it and CoolKid just has it out for you. I don't even know. You're so good at Kira and not being suspicious I almost thought you weren't Kira. But since I knew it I wasn't gonna get persuaded by lies or whatever so, yeah I got you out. That's beside the point, though. Bottom line is, I just think you're very smart and clever, and I know and want to beat you and win against you. I will do whatever because you're better than me so I wanna be better than you! It will happen. Trust...

Alright, that's all you're getting just because I'm terrified Rentry might delete this again. I won't even proofread this, if there is mistakes just tell me, yeah?

Nas being nice to Felix caught in 4K
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Four

June 22, 2026

I don't know what to write in this today because I'm mad and annoyed.

Why am I inferior to you.

↓ Lie. I'll get better one day, I just don't
↓ know when or how.
I'm going to beat you today in Death Note and there is nothing you can do to stop me. Anyways.
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Five

June 23, 2026

Hey, Ness. Sorry for my lame ass entry yesterday, I was feeling down. About not being able to beat you. I was actually considering to either quit the bet or quit the game. Earlier, I was joking about that which seemingly was a bad joke, I'm still sorry for that. I'm never going to quit! I don't back down from this sort of thing. Today was actually a horrible day, VBS was boring, one of my friends doesn't want to be friends with me, and well someone reclaimed /lover AND /miko. Whoever did that, count your days (I probably wouldn't have won, anyways). Anywho, today was a weird day and I feel awful + weird, I don't really know. I feel so ill yet there isn't any signs of illness. Oh well. Felix will just die, gomen... BTW, thanks for playing DN and ADM with me! I hate Curtis! #Love

Sorry that this is short, tomorrows might be longer.
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Six

June 24, 2026

Hi, Nas. I'm writing this while waiting for you as well as before I go to sleep (I will likely fall asleep around 1 again unless you text me throughout all that time). Today was a lot of fun! Sorry your day was so busy, it sounded pretty bad from what you were telling me. While you were gone, I played with Aisuru, Alfie, Aria and Light. I like them (besides Aria), they're pretty cool. I bet you'd like them too if you got to know them! I like you better than them, obviously, but they were funny (you're funnier). Anywho, right now I'm pissed off as shit and broke my desk chair out of pure anger. Aria didn't get off the computer when I wanted her too, and yes I told her she could have it, and yes I've had it for hours on end, but it's my only electronic besides my tablet (can't play roblox, laggy) and my switch (can't play roblox, not compatiable). So, yeah I was mad and went to my room then broke my chair. After 10 minutes I was allowed to have it but I was furious, still. DN was pissing me off too since I wasn't Kira and then when I WAS part of Kira team my teammate sold (X-Kira, I was Takada). To top it off, my dad told me to get off the computer and I malevolently declined which resulted in him saying "then you'll lose time tomorrow," I never got off the computer so quickly. I was petty and immature, my reasoning for being upset doesn't align with what I should've done and reacted with. Oh well. I'm cooled off by now but I've got a headache. Anyways, I feel a lot better now after chatting it up with you, you always find a way to make me happy. Again, sorry if I was rude earlier. I wasn't being considerate and I was selfish, so, sorry for that. Thanks for listening to me rant and vent multiple times today, I can always rely on you. You're my best friend ever! I'm glad I got to meet you back in December and I'm glad we've worked things out over these past few months. Speaking of—I would never say this in chat since I'm bad at asking to vent or rant so I'll just do this here—sorry for ignoring you at times throughout the last few months up until just 2 weeks ago. My ex girlfriend would get mad if I talked to other people, mentioned someone else, etc. I had to focus on her. It was so wrong of me to even indulge in such a relationship. I can't put into words how happy I am to no longer be dating anyone. I'm really happy with you and my other friends, I want it to always be like this. I don't ever want to date someone and not be able to talk to you, it was a horrible life. I'm so relieved, like honestly. If you ask about this in DMs I can yap, but I won't say any more on a public site, so. ANYWAYS, I've been meaning to apologise... Although never granted the chance.

On another note, during VBS I was writing stuff I could do in DN. Today was a weird day so I didn't really play seriously. Soon, I will.

That's all I got.
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Seven

June 25, 2026

Hi there, Ness! I don't know what to write about in particular, but I'd like to express how much I enjoyed playing Roblox with you today. Adopt Me and VBL and DN was a lot of fun, thank you for my gift! And thank you for making me Shidou in my room!!! He looks adorable, I really love him, AND he's from you! I love my Neon Rainbow Fish in Adopt Me, that fish is actually my favorite pet hehe. I hope you liked the gifts I gave you, too. I'm excited for tomorrow since by then I'm done with VBS, yaaay! Let's play DN all week. I do have another vacation, though but it's only for 3 days. We'll be able to text still but IDK if we can play Roblox (depends if my dad gives me my shit back like he said he would). I'm glad we're friends, Nas. I don't ever wanna not talk to you again, you're my bestest friend in the whole world. I might be repeating myself but who gaf I'm bring nice (0.000000067% of happening BTW). Omg, I'm still furious about DN today, Kitty and Cinna you're DEAD. Not you, Nas, because KN shuffled and I was free from you scanning me (TY GOD). But, Cinna and Kitty are dying tonight. Oh, Aria got sick so that means more computer time! Even though I literally use it all day. I love playing Roblox all day I'm so chronically robloxpilled. I'm Robloxmaxxing. I'm DNmaxxing. I'm Adopt Memaxxing. I'm getting sleepy, zzz... Sorry this entry is short.

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Nas I love you omg. My best friend made me this. Look at this.

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Eight

June 26, 2026

Hello to my bff in the whole entire world! I had a lot of fun today, truly. I really like me, you and Atlus' gc! We are the cutest family ever (except for the fact that you both bully me). 67 Horror was so much fun. THANKS...for making me do all the work. Smh. Adopt Me was also sm fun, I love my Dire Wolf. I have a present for you tomorrow. Also, sorry for killing you in DN, won't (will) happen again, trust! Anyways. Playing with you is just fun in general, we could play like. IDEK, some stupid ass game, and I'd be having the time of my life.

You just make me really happy, you know? In a way nobody else does. I guess it's just your cool, nonchalant aura, I have no idea. You're like everyone else but you're also not, you're just different. I can't describe it. You're cooler than everyone else, in fact I place you above anyone else. Nobody could ever be better friend to me than you are. You're sweet in such a quiet (?) way, you're really likeable. You're really the only person I can truly be myself with, I've said it before, but I feel like I can say anything around you differently if it were anyone else. With you it's just laughs and no judgememt, sure we have our moments (VERY rarely, I will specify, and it's usually because I say something dumb. Just know I'm always sorry, please). You're just so chill, and cool, and just really fun to be around. Whether we are teaming up, or rivaling each other, or just yapping in general, everything is better with you. You're irreplaceable to me. You mean the absolute world to me. You're not just my best friend—but my favorite person, and my other half.

Playing with you is one of my favorite things to do—especially with you, I will highlight. I love our little rivalry in Death Note. It's stupid, I know, but it makes me feel giddy. It's like the actual Death Note except Kira is a little stupid and L is suddenly a better Kira than Kira actually is. Anyways, even when you're destroying me or figuring me out instantly, it's still so much fun. You're so smart and observant, you're really impressive in all your abilities and skills. I'm over here taking notes like a nerd—trying to beat you one day—but deep down, I'm really just proud of how good you are. It's a game but Felix takes this stuff SERIOUSLY. Whether we're winning together or going against each other, we make a great duo.

Thanks, again, for always letting me be myself around you. I could ramble for hours, vent about dumb stuff, or be a total mess and you would never judge me. You're so comforting, it's one of my favorite things about you. Even when I'm jealous of random people or in a bad mood, you listen and somehow make me so much feel better when normally other people don't help. You have this way of being really sweet and supportive that not everyone has. It means more to me than I can explain. You're such a huge part of my life, Nas. I don't say it enough, but I'm really grateful we met and that you gave me a second chance. You're my bestest friend in the whole entire world and I love you very much, okay? Please also note that you can lean/rely on me the same way that I lean/rely on you.

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Nine

June 27, 2026

I had a lot of fun today, Nas! Guys, today Nas got a cool Takada avatar in roblox, and I am Mikami in roblox. So, technically... we are literally Mikada... Sometimes in X-Kira's game, I'm X-Kira and Nas is Takada, so now it's basically true and canon! I love Nas, they're my best friend in the whole wide world I could write 100 reasons on why he's the best! (Heh, good idea, Felix...). ANYWAYS, today at work I brought my notebook and was writing more stuff on how I could beat you in Death Note... It will happen... Trust me. I actually seriously doubt it will happen.

Remember when you said, and I quote, "while you improve, I'm also rapidly improving, too"? Then, I replied with, " no, you're not. it isn't possible". Then, finally you asked, "and why's that"? And I never gave you an answer? Well, I will now. The reason why you improving isn't possible is because you're already too good at the game. You can change your methods but you're not improving in the same way I am, you're just playing it smart. You aren't usually Kira and when you are I'm never too sure. It's because you know what you're doing and you're being too smart about it. If you already know what you're doing and how you are always going to carry it out, what is there to improve? Surely flawed methods and strategies, yeah, but you implying that while I improve you, too, are improving isn't all that true. I improve by coming up with different ways to fool you, you 'improve' by allowing yourself not to get a second glance from me. You are slick, you're good at the game, while I'm clumsy and fall back into old habits. You can adapt and change to other ways while I usually go back if I deem necessary. That's why we aren't the same and why I think I'll never beat you. You're too good at Kira and when I look at both of us when we are Kira, I hardly suspect you—yet you always know when it's me. You're not only good at the Kira role, but also the L role, too, even when you're innocent. I know you use everything at your disposal to find out who Kira could possibly be, whether it's looking through the space in the doors or the windows in the school, zooming your camera all the way to see in the other room or just simply figuring it out based on who's not in your range of sight. You're intelligent, unlike most people in those lobbies. That's what makes you a good opponent. Nobody else is a good rival, just you!!! Not even KN, who is the top L ranking, monthly time as well as the 3rd Kira ranking, monthly time. I bested him plently, I'm pretty sure I threw him under the bus, too. Not even Erebus (we played with him ONE time, he is on one of the leaderboards) said that it was me, unless maybe the fucker was AFK. Oh well, you understand my point, yeah? You're the most funnest DN player out there, and you're also my best friend! Wonderful combo! You're my rival on Death Note but then off it you're my best friend. I like it! I find it exciting, you know?

I dunno, I sound kinda stupid—but having you just in my life and present and here, just makes me happy. Real, genuine happiness. Sorry, I'm being sappy now. You mean a lot to me, Nas. I've never felt this type of genuine connection with anyone else. If I'm gonna be honest, I'm not really sure what the word 'friend' means to me. I know we are friends, yes, but I prefer you being the label 'counterpart', you're my other half, you really are. I couldn't imagine my life without you, I need you in my life. Remember when we weren't together back in February? I always felt like a part of me was missing, I was sad and upset at the time, which is unlike me. When I say unlike me, I mean for the fact I have no sympathy for any situation regarding if a friend cuts contact with me. I have sympathy for others, yes, I do—but for situations regarding if I lose a friend or not, I have no sympathy for. It's simply because having that sympathy would mean for myself and I do not have a lot of sympathy or empathy for someone as such as myself. Although, when it was you who cut those ties with me, I felt hurt. You were a part of me, you are a part of me. I don't want this just to be an online temporary friendship, eventually when we are older, I want to be good friends IRL. I want to hang out and watch movies with you, head to the arcade and then go to a bookstore to look at manga. I want to do a lot of things with you in the future. I want us to stay together forever. It's weird, Nas, really weird. With other friends I'll ignore them for various periods of times, including my IRL friends who I've known for years. I think it's just that my social battery runs out quickly with them, but it's never the case with you. I wonder a lot why that is, I don't know the answer. Yeah, you're interesting to me—but I've known a lot of people that I found interesting just to get disinterested in a few days. I've never once gotten bored with you or purposefully ignored you. It's just odd that I expierience those feelings with others and not you. You truly are my other half, Ness. You're always going to be, no matter what. Maybe it's different because you're genuine than most, maybe all. I don't know how you're so different but I'm happy that it's you. We're so different sometimes, but then, at the exact same time, we are also the same. I think you know it and feel the same way, and that just makes it more genuine because this is real. I have a hard time processing what is real such as romantic relationships, I literally found all of my partners boring and it's not their fault, but mine. I don't even process real connections I have with the people I know. I don't know why I just get so disinterested. That's why, when I met you and I didn't feel that feeling anymore, I knew you were something special and I wanted to stay with you no matter the circumstance. I still do, I want everything that I wanted back in January, and that feeling won't ever go away. You mean so much to me, Nas. I think more than you even already know. I find it cringe to ever say these words about another person yet here I am (I cringe because of me, NOT because of you), writing letters everyday to you.

I'm just really happy that I got to meet you. You're the one for me, Nas. You're my one and only true friend that I will ever feel such a connection with. You're important and you're loved, and I love you a lot. I'm happy with you, I want to feel like this forever, Ness.

(5:50 AM: I want to clarify the sympathy part. I have a lot of sympathy for others. What I do not have sympathy for is me, so when someone doesn't want to be my friend I don't care because it's my fault and since it's my fault I don't want to give sympathy to the situation. When it was you, it was weird since you are a part of me, a different, unique part of me. When you cut ties I felt sort of betrayed, like, by my own self? And I did feel sympathy for the situation. It's just, really odd. Not even I know how to articulate such feelings into words.)

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Ten

June 28, 2026

I miss you.

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Eleven

July 1, 2026

In all honesty, I don't really understand myself or my feelings either. I think I wanted you to care and that's why I was making it awkward, I think I felt guilty and I wanted you to give me attention for it. I don't know or understand, I was just being immature and stupid. Of course you don't care about them, you dismissed it all so quickly. I get upset when you ignore my messages sometimes, and I get upset when— after— I don't know what to say to you. I feel awful about getting you banned, I feel awful for not listening and I blame myself for it, because, well, it is entirely my fault. You don't care, but maybe if I just listened to you instead of being so immature and stupid then that wouldn't have happened. I'm really dumb sometimes and like childish, I'm starting to hate myself for it. Not to mention, the following few hours I just vented to you like it was nothing, as if you didn't already have enough on your plate. I don't know why I'm making things awkward. Don't hate me, I'm just scared or something. If I keep making you uncomfortable, you'll leave me, won't you? Atlas, Ryu, Slowcake, more, what if you leave me because of my stupidity? You tell me you're uncomfortable with something and then I do it. You tell me you don't like, well. Inpure things, and what do I do? Send you a link of LawLight goin' at it. And it's just okay? I don't know if you care but I just overthink sometimes and man I don't know if I deserve you. I feel awful about some things sometimes and make things awkward just because I don't know how else to elaborate on my feelings let alone mention them. I find it easier to be indirect which is why I'm writing it here, but I doubt you'll look or anything. I'm sorry. I'm ruining everything all over again but I don't mean to.

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Twelve

July 2, 2026

Hie! I revamped your lovemail. I'll make a full lovemail later probably BUT for now I will add the images. Also! I will delete the SS with Atlas that are on here if you so desire.

July 5, 2026: I infact did not update this. Sorry Nas LOL. I'll get on schedule soon, trust...

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Thirteen

July 3, 2026

Hi there, Nas. I'm writing this on July 5th. I forgot what I wanted to write for this date so go look at these photos :3

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Fourteen

July 5, 2026

Finally updated this to date! It feels nice to be organized. I don't really know what to write today. I'll just yap. I appreciate what you wrote in your lovemail. I will reply to it in full later, given that you're okay with it. I wanna send it as a voicemessage because I'm too lazy to type anything especially with the contents it's about. Right now, though, I guess I will list the duos I like and see us as!

So, first, obviously: Reo and Nagi! You're Reo and I'm obviously Nagi!

I'll list it from here, you first and me second:

1. Ranpo & Edgar
2. Atsushi & Akutagawa
3. Sigma & Nikolai
4. Sigma & Dazai
5. Chuuya & Dazai
6. Yusuke & Futaba
7. Akechi & Joker
8. Sumi & Joker
9. Misa & Light
10. Mikami & Light
11. L & Light
12. Mello & Matt
13. Mello & Misa
14. Yona & Hak
15. Reze & Denji
16. Lumine & Ajax
17. Ness & Kaiser
18. Sae & Kaiser
19. Isagi & Kaiser
20. Sae & Shidou
21. Otoya & Kasaru
22. Kurona & Jin
23. Yuji & Megumi
24. Choso & Yuki
25. Hikaru & Yoshiki
26. Lu Guang & Cheng Xiaoshi
27. Shin & Sou
28. Kanna & Shin
29. Ranmaru & Sara
30. Shinjiro & Kotone
31. Angel & Aki

+ A lot, lot more!

The duos/ ships listed above are all in our pinterest board of matching pfps I don't know if you care too much about it but in my freetime I look for pfps hehehe. I found more Kainess Let's match soon maybe if you like... I want to spite Cas, I dislike her a lot. I don't understand why you still indulge in her stupidity. She's an indolent and ignorant piece of crap that can't read between the lines and I don't even know her personally. I'm saying this out of my own feelings and not to sway any decision making that you decide to make. Anyways, that's all I have to share. I will update this daily starting tomorrow!

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Fifteen

July 6, 2026

You're so sweet, I want you to know how much your kind words mean to me, Nas!! They mean a lot, more than you can imagine. I started umm crying- the emotional dumb bich I am. You're everything to me, and I mean it. I don't just say these things to everyone and mean it the same way I mean it with you. You're literally everything to me. You bring out the good in me, I feel like. You really just feel like home. I don't know how to describe it. Meeting you, Nas, felt like a miracle— still does. I can't believe how lucky I am to have met you. You're such a blessing in my life, and I, too, wouldn't trade you for anything. Well, maybe for robux. Kidding. Obviously.

I want us to be friends forever, best friends. I'm serious about turning this online friendship into an IRL friendship and I hope you're willing, too! Everything is fun with you, like, everything. Even talking with no actual conversation is just fun. I don't feel like I could ever get bored of you lest of all annoyed. I've said it before but you're so different from the rest. I don't know how but that's why I need you in my life because I feel like we understand and get each other, like in a different way from everyone else? I don't know. You're not just an online friend— you're literally everything. I mean it!!

I love you a trillion billion million. You're my best friend forever, no matter what. You're the only friend I need.

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Sixteen

July 7, 2026

Hi, Nas! Before I begin to yap, I'd like to apologise once more for this morning. Er, afternoon. I know you said to drop it and you probably don't care but I said some rude things. I didn't mean any of it, and I know you didn't mean anything you said in reply, too— I was blinded by sadness and betrayal (before realising it wasn't even about me). Regardless, it was wrong of me and I think I said too much in regards of it. For that, I'm sorry. I'm also sorry for worrying you. I would never, ever leave you, and I hope you won't as well. You're really my best friend and my comfort person. You're a joy to be with. You're my favorite friend ever!

With that out of the way, today was a lot of fun! Besides from the time I upset you, (don't feel like you have to do certain things for my attention, if you want something say it. I will literally stop talking in that server if you want to talk, okay?) I was being kind of retarded and insensitive, I think without realising it. I don't know if any of this matters to you anymore but I hope you know I'm awfully sorry when I make a mistake and I'll do my best to make it up to you.

It was really fun calling you! We should do it more often! Guys— Me and Nas called for TWO hours. TWO!!! New Nas and Felix call record time, woah!!! I love the spotify playlist, I added some songs I liked there, too! I'll listen to the playlist whenever I can YAY!!! I usually listen to music when I'm on my PC, but once I get my phone back I will listen to it, like— ALL the time.

Anyways! That's all my yap for today. Oh— btw, I want to make it clear that I do not, and will not EVER like anyone from the DN server unless you like them as well. I don't know if this is weird to state, but you know I don't like anyone that's not you. I wanna make it known that just because I act nice and friendly with someone doesn't mean I actually like someone. I don't care about people the same way I care about you. We've developed a bond so deep that I really just don't like anyone that ISN'T you. I know that sounds over the top and kinda odd, but I just want to make it clear that I really don't like people that's not like, you, my IRL friends and obviously my family. You're more special to me than anyone else!!!

Okay. I yapped more, oops. I'm tired now. I might scroll pinterest or do rentry before I sleep. Byebye!

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Seventeen

July 9, 2026

Hie.

I just want you to know you can talk to me bout anything.

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Eighteen

July 10, 2026

If you think I'm mad at you, I'm not. I'm not upset you called me a bottom, I'm just feeling upset and weird all over in general. I feel like I mistepped somewhere or misspoke someplace. It was wrong of me to accuse you again, especially when you said it once. Sorry for pushing boundaries when I wasn't supposed to. That's over now, I believe you now. I was just hesitant because I don't trust people easily, it just took me a second. When it comes to my brain gets all jetlagged, I can't process things quickly and my brain doesn't register things normally. Whatever, the shittalking deal is done, so I won't bring it up again.

As for right now I wish I knew what was going on. Not to offend you but I think I thought distancing myself would prevent me from getting hurt but I'm upset right now since I miss you. I don't know what to do. I don't want you to leave me nor do I want to leave you. You're my favorite person and my best friend— I think we will get through this but I wanna talk on better terms when we both don't feel icky. I'm writing this at 1:45 A.M. If you see this before you sleep just message me if you wanna talk. DNI never applies to you even if I reinforce it in my status again, I wanna message you but I don't know. I have no idea what I'm doing. If you're seeing this the following day, hit me up all the same. So basically, whenever you're seeing this. Just hit me up if you feel up to it.

So, no. I'm not mad at you, I just feel icky interacting and I don't want to overstep again or say somethig to make you leave me. I'm scared you'll find someone better and just leave. You told Aaron he'd be the first to know your new account. So now I'm scared. I just don't want you to hate me, find someone better and leave me. I'd never do that to you. You're the one person I actually enjoy being around, and that's me saying this. Not someone else. I love you a lot.

4 AM: Hie! You're asleep right now, so I guess I'll yap. Thanks for being patient with me and for the comfort. Nas, you're my best friend. I mean it, you're like my other half. We're so different yet we are also the same. I feel like we just fit perfectly. I've never devoted so much time and effort into one friendship, literally never. I've never even said this much to a friend, let alone literally write it as if it's mail. You're my best friend in the whole wide world. You mean so much to me and I love you for who you are. Don't be afraid to show me all the different sides of you. I think you're amazing and you're YOU and you're my friend, my BEST friend! No matter what, we are gonna stay together. You're the closest person to me, in fact— You're the only person I've ever let get this close. I can be myself with you, I can say stuff with no shame and you like me all the same. You're really someone I wanna be with for the rest of my life. You're my best friend forever and ever! In every universe, we are best friends! Nothing you do or say could ever make me hate you, only like you even more. (I mean these words from the bottom of my heart. ALL PLATONIC. Plus I'm lesbian so it should be a given smh.)

Guys me and Ness called for 2 hours. TWO!!!

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