9/3/25
a lot of awful things have happened in such a short time span , but i'm not ready to give up yet . being able to support people makes me happy , and if i'm not happy i never know what to do . now that im moving to home - schooling , i think i will spend more time outside and drawing . maybe if i build an online community i can make more friends and that way i wont have to bother individual people so much . it's kind of hard to say what might be the right move , and if there even is one . love makes you do crazy and stupid things , all the time , and i never know how to stop it . i never did really tell you that i know one of your secrets , and i don't think i will tell you for some time . maybe because i feel that if you know that i know , the fun will end , something like that . i don't know why im so damn happy for , i keep going crazy and getting upset , but then i just smile again , even though you aren't always with me , and i can always appreciate the times you were . i get so angry and frustrated with myself from other years , i don't know why i respond the way i do , or what changed me to be who i am now . maybe some things are better left unsaid , maybe you'll let me see you in a few months . thankfully ive gotten more accustomed to hearing the word "no" and not immediately assuming that ive been rejected as a person .
everything is so strange but it always feels so quiet when you are nice to me
ok anyways for those that are here for teruteru hanamura continue below also yesterday was his birthday say happy birthday to him
i got into an argument with someone about teruteru's free time events recently SIGH ! long story short , it was about the last event , the one where teruteru ( skull ) drugs ( skull ) hajime ( skull ) it's heavily implied that it happened , though TECHNICALLY not proved . that being said , i still 100% think he did do that , it's just in his nature and he also has a history of drugging people ... whether for gross ( kill me ) shit or for the latter TO MAKE HIS FOOD TASTE BETTER . TO MAKE PEOPLE ADDICTED TO HIS COOKING SO HE HAS PURPOSE AND THEY COME BACK FOR MORE . my personal opinion is that because he has an interest in hajime and wants him to come back . but what was said by the other person was " erm actually he just wanted to assault him your fave is a pedophile btw " which was lowkey out of pocket because he canonically hates pedophiles " im a villain , not a monster ahhh ! " first of all , if hanamura wanted to , he's shown he just will ( soup scene ) (( kill me ..! )) and it's never seen that he touches hajime or anything just that he feels strange . im not gonna lie . teruteru is still really fucking weird and i want him to be hung but yeah thats my opinion on the last free time event , thanks guys
9/5/25
alright guys im back i wanted to talk about uhm.... remnant teruteru today.... (THE CROWD BOOS) ((there is no crowd i am quite literally speaking to me myself and i) but anyways i was thinking about how uhm idk some concept with him and kazuichi where like kazuichi slaughters people and brings body bags to teruteru. okay no listen it makes sense just give me a moment to explain. OK so teruteru has like a butcher shop you know where they like hang the meat up and shit okay well teruteru has that but like.... its people! um..! so yeah anyways hes really fucking deranged and he really likes dissecting corpses (gg) and he lowkey tries to kill kazuichi in his sleep but kazuichi just beats the shit out of him because he would nevah let that happen XD RAWR what okay im onto nothing im onto nothing it makes more sense when im explaining it to someone and not rentry dot com i have remnant brainrot right now and talent swap brainrot and uh and i have uh SHIUT TH EFUCK UP ROB yes rob i will