ok i rlly dont have the capacity to make this all pretty and shit BUT I NEED a proper extended so this is all ure gettinf for now. but ill decorate this soon for real
quick overview hi i am eliška or best known as lizzy or wish if we know each other longer, im a woke but unwoke 16 year old slavic cisgirl and use she/her prns yeah!
and a little note, i use an adblocker ALWAYS and so should you especially while viewing rentry sites thank u! i havent given a single dime to rentry owners and no i cannot go to fluffle because the owner is also a zio and it even leaks ur data! shit ass site! no i cannot go to nottie either!! the owner is weird! i will move on once a good markdown pastebin site with metadata surfaces, okay? Okayy?
sorry i wrote this extended when i was mad asfk and focused mainly on pointing out shit that pisses me off LMFAOOOO um. better page soon or whatever. (hopefully)
i have basically no dni, idgaf abt who shortly ints with me because trying to control that is stupid and a lost cause! i will, however, not befriend weirdos aka anyone u expect to be in standard dni criteria Ok?
age groups interact based on ur own boundaries #i cant think for myself or whatever. btw im turning 17 on the 9th of december
my humor is pretty flexible so if you remain respectful and serious when the situation and topic calls for it then were Good.
i also dont care about what youre into so long its not like all about being problematic (tcoaal to name one example) idgaf. im into outlast and still enjoy msi's music if that tells you anything
i listen to msi thru youtube reuploads calm down
ex friends or partners dont hmu i dont gaf about what u guys have to say lowk I Dont exactly believe in second chances. i can hear u out maybe if we ended on semi good terms or im curious but if we ended on bad terms then dont even bother Okay? i hold grudges!
btw pls. Communicate if there is smt u dont like revolving us or anything like that... like tell me asap instead of bottling it up for a while and letting it get worse and worseeee bruuuh! okay!??? i wont b offended (kinda.. highkey.... mainly directed at this one person who isnt in my life anymore #thankgod #freedom #butwedidnthavetoendinsuchaway #ifonlyutalkedtomesooner #nobodyhere)
i dont really like having tension with people so if we ever like come across some issue between us or anything then i literally just prefer to still talk casually and remain nice and shitttt not that im unserious but i just dont like feeling tense I GUESS?? IF THAT MAKES SENSE? i like to keep the mood light since i feel like thats relieving for both parties >.< doing my best to approach all of u as nicely as possible bcoz gentle treatment is on TOPPP
i speak czech and english and understand slovak and a bit of polish, i prefer speaking english over czech because its easier to express myself if u gaf but either is fine (in fact i usually switch it up based on what i wanna say)
im a maladaptive daydreamer and you can read my full mdd experience here if u gaf but in short, mdd is an informally recognized condition that i have which makes me really prone to disappearing mid conversation if i wanna daydream Sorry. if i stop talking or dont reply for a while then its not because i want you dead its because i wanna daydream alrite? u get me?
mdd also makes me unable to sit still and do something for even just an hour straight which means that getting me to play a game tgt or being in vc or whatever is Kinda uncommon unless we r good friends, ill always be hesitant to do something together in the back of my mind because ill lose the freedom to daydream when i want but its neveeeerr personal! just know that if im willing to play smt with u or watch a movie for longer than an hour then i like you a lot :-3
dont let this discourage you from asking me to hang out though LMFAO shout out to my goatest qppie oat with who i play fisch like almost daily... if its a game we both like playing then ill have no issue hopping on prolly! and shout out to tiff my goat too... with who i hop on hyperbeam a lot... (watch movies with me NOW NOW NOW i cant usually sit through an entire movie without breaks unless im with people so its a win for me)
i have social anxiety but im also super friendly AND if im around my friends then you prolly wont even be able to tell because i jump all around and feel the need to hold hands with everyone if they dont intimidate me that much but im really not as great at talking to people as you might think. i avoid certain games if theyre forced multiplayer, im scared of playing my music in front of friends, im terrified of being wrong or failing in front of others and so on. Please dont force me to do shit because exposure therapy does not work on me, i will crash out and cry
unfortunately i am not good at engaging with new friends so you will have to be the one who reaches out first for a bit if u wanna become closer friends but after that ill start seeking you out too because ill get comfortable yay! i can hold conversations and shit i am just scared of starting them most of the time if idk you that well oke dont give up on me...
also even though my humor is flexible i am not good with nonchalant people. or too formal people. i wanna be chalant and talk about bullshit! talk to me about anything if we r good friends, nothing is tmi or triggering for me
vent to me anyone and always, dont ask and just hop into my dms whether you simply want to rant or are looking for advice. also it doesnt matter if we know each other well or not, u could be a stranger and id still go out of my way to comfort you becoz i care about u people, u lot matter to me and if i can help then i will, im one text away ♡
i have attachment issues on top of getting somewhat possessive of my close friends sometimes Sorry. "what does this mean lizzinka!!" it means i am usually going to be super uncomfortable around friends of friends (if im close with my friend in question) or even hold irrational grudges sorry!!!!!!! either that or i will crash out and shut down around you for some time until i settle down yup! "thats so insecure and toxic of you" Mhm bingo. sorry i cant help it lol i myself want to get rid of this habit super bad but ive been hurt be4 and getting over it is Notttt easy at all!
also by attachment issues i mean that i get attached to people too quickly if we spend a lot of time together Srry Lol. (platonically not romantically) i do my best to prevent this though whatever
pls for the love of fucking god dont talkl to me about how another person is sooo special to you and how amazing they are if we are close friends. sorry i cant stand it, it ALWAYS sends me into a spiral and im sick of feeling this way okay? okay! sorry that its so selfish of me to ask, my attachment just got fucked up reaaal bad in prev relationships that makes me feel like this Okay? please understand Me. be nice.
once my attachment to someone is crushed it takes a bit for me to latch back on sorry. if ever honestly...!
^ the only exception to all of my crash outs above is marshall idk how or why but i fw marshall's friends. HELP!!
kinda relevant to the info above, i dont usually meet up two of my friends together... cos i dont wanna become the loner in a trio or more again Lol... dont ask to meet my friend or get their socials through me, just reach out urself i guess but im not gonna play cupid Sorry. this is also taken as kinda a precaution in case shit goes down in the future or whatever. if u get it then u get it
im kinda a hypocrite and will prolly be influenced by your opinions on things a little but im not gonna elaborate on this any further LMFAO
oh yeah also i use the f slur and call everyone and everything fat (not directly to anyone's body though) but all is affectionate and friendly fire so Just tell me if this bothers you. i have friends like that and we work just fine yay!
hhhh yea. this is all for now i guess idfk. im too lazy to add anything else here Sorry. will prolly be rewritten soon or something because i sound mean as hell in some parts