what i'm currently listening to:
DNI: if you Aren't apart of the Slaughterhouse (17+) Um what R u doing Bruv, SHTWT/EDTWT BITCHES Y'ALL GOTTA DIE IMMEDIATELY, byler fans OH MY GOD SHUT YOUR ASSES UP PLEAAAAASE LET WILL DATE LITERALLY ANYBODY ELSE NOT THAT BUM, murray fans ESPECIALLY Y'ALL. WHY IS HE STILL ALIVE??? GENUINELY HE GOTTA GO. RUN THE SEASON AGAIN WE FUCKED UP AND GOTTA START OVER BECAUSE WHY IS HE STILL WITH US. omg i'm just gonna Pretend he Accidentially threw the Bomb on himself Instead of The helicopter and Fucking blew up Into Smithereens. out of sight Out of mind Ho.
UPDATE: tcoaal, okegom, zero day/"tcc". you guys are annoying!
01/01/2026
on a Brighter note, here's my newborn:
guy went up To my Mom outside holding this Angel and he said he'd Been going Around the neighborhood Asking if They were Anyones kitty. nobody Knew shit. so Obviously my mom took Them in and now they're staying in my Room! their back Legs are Apparently paralyzed and they can Only crawl. 😞 i named Them nightwing (from majority vote, it was either that or Grayson) They are slowly Warming up to me I love Them very much. 😙 now i have THREE babies. 😇 mouse, skip, and nightwing Woooaaahhh this lineup goes craaazy!! 🙂↕️ happy new year i'm glad I Started it off with This little critter. i Hope my second son Skip Skip isn't Jealous. i Still love you ok...Kisses and Hugs my boy 💕💕💕
^ stole this off a Rentry with some Html stuff and It's Kind of lit
Anyway. special Nightwing Update! SHE'S A GIRL!!!! i knew it. i Could tell because she's More cautious Just like my other Girl cats. but she's also Very affectionate and Always wants attention. i love Her. my Girl 🥹 my Daughter. 💕
woke up To my mom Handing me a tiny Box of crab cream cheese Rangoons and i almost Nutted while half Asleep. 🚬 i fucking Love cream Cheese rangoons. every-time I see them I Fight back the urge to Hump the box. if You've never had Cream Cheese rangoons before YOU'RE MISSING OUT!! GET THAT SHIT ASAP!!! NO ROCKY!!!!!! anyway join Slaughterhouse today for Murderous adventures and Boyfriend ASMR marathons. only Join if you're 17+ or We will Kill you on sight. ok Bless. and Don't join if you're a Weirdo, anti rangel (ronin x angel), fan of the stranger things finale, murray fan, fed, or You're not a serial killer. NON-KILLERS KEEP OUT!! 🗯 CAN'T YOU READ THE SIGN!?!?
oh yeah While you're Here reading this and/Or stalking me, send Me questions or cutesy Hatemail on my atabook. if Ure gonna send me hatemail At least state your (ACTUAL) Name or i will Ignore your Request. ok? 🧸 don't be A pussy. #MuchLove 🎀🎀🎀
01/02/2026
currently eating Wendy's (who's shocked? Nobody)...yesterday I went Down a rabbit hole of Urls with Ronin & my Wife and we found so many TCOAAL & okegom themed urls It was insane. Someone had an entire 900+ url hoard with The worst urls known to man Under their NSFW section. i Slept a lot yesterday because Allergies and Cold weather made me Sick but i Feel better today Yay! Winter break is almost Over ;( which Means school Again but its Fine i gotta get back on The grind so i Can see gf this summer!!!! <3 ok thats It For right now bye Love u
01/03/2026
i overslept and I Woke up at 3pm Today bro. omg. Anyway when i wokr up Bf aaid i could buy Myself some food today so i Deed and i Bought my ma Some food too. Now i'm full. Yay! we get Food atamps on the 11th i Think which Thank God. anywya im On call with my Boyfriend right now After watching Pierce play Hotline Miami like the autist that He is. lets see what Today brings me....Ok!
update: Bf read this and Said i worded it Like he starve me Everyday And i cant Stop laughing. Y'all He does NOT starve me. he Just gavr me food money. blinks twice
Boyfriend here! HE'S FINE I JUST GIVE HIM MONEY FOR FOOD SOMETIMES ^p^....
^ don't Listen to him He's starving me he's starving me he's Starving me help Help help He won't Let me out of the Basement Please Help.
01/09/2026 🍰
disclaimer: emetophobia mentions
a well needed update! hi! is currently 4am on a friday. i woke up in the middle of my sleep swallowing back some vomit?
i have no clue why that happened but...i've been feeling kind of sick since yesterday. i probably ate something bad. probably the publix chicken my mama got me. but anyway...^p^ besides that, i had a decent day yesterday. i watched some lps lipstick w/ suanie after we finished lps popular. currently obsessed @_@ then i went to the store to buy some iron beer for me and my mama cuz we love iron beer. cant remember much else TT dissociation and memory loss combo sucks. oh and i rearranged my room like two days ago!? its a bit more spacious now and comfortable.
oh yeah, and nightwing update: she's well! we're taking her to the hospital in the morning, thank goodness. i've decided to make her official name tallulah~ it's cute and i think it fits her vibe really well. she'll have two personas...her vigilante persona being called nightwing. lol. get it?
anyway. suanie & i watched pierce-boy play some more hotline miami...that's all we've been doing these past few days. just watching this guy play hotline miami. we'd voice act the characters too. it's rlly fun. i love that pierce is spending more time with us! ^w^ we're almost done with the second game...im scared cuz pierce said its gonna be devastating or something. >< uh oh.
i hear my step dad awake already...@-@ omg. i forget he wakes up super early every day for work. contemplating whether i should just pull an all-nighter or get some more rest b4 we take tally to the hospital...urrrrrrrr........idk i think ill sleep for a bit longer. maybe. oki.
thats all for now! i think!!!!! maybe ill be back later. who nose. bye <3
01/19/2026 💾
Sorry for the long break...
Here are my updates summed up:
- Host got a bit mental last week for whatever reason, and BPDed out a lot. He's gone for the winter now, for his own good. The rest of us are pretty decent in terms of sanity.
- On a brighter note, I'm no longer rotting as much and being depressed over my insecurities (IN-SYS). Koen sincerely apologized to me for some things, which got me going a bit better.
- I've been watching The Boys a lot with my girlfriend. It's my favorite show as of right now. My favorite characters are the gang...y'know, The Boys: Frenchie, Kimiko, Butcher, Hughie, MM...+ I like Starlight, Becca, A-Train and Victoria. I like Homelander but in the I fucking hate him way. He's genuinely so horrible in the funniest way possible. I fucking HATE The Deep and Stormfront with a passion. Fuck that ugly fish fucker (who nobody actually likes) and that ugly nazi bitch with the fuckass lesbian haircut. We're starting S3 tomorrow. Scared.
Currently, I'm on call with Pierce and Sally, playing DGRV3 while voice acting the characters. I love them. This is so fun.
There's one more day left until Albana officially comes back, and the war continues...Pray for Alek because those dice rolls do NOT look happy. Kio's safe, hopefully...he rolled higher than the zombies, so.
I think that's all for now.
Oh, yeah, I got new URLs recently! The ones I like the most are: J-Fashion (FLEXING ON MY HATERS), Whir, Wendys, Choric, Unethical, Superpower, Curtesy, FakeID, Conformity...and more. A bunch of dubs lately. #ILOVETRADING!
01/23/2026 🐿️
day something-something of keeping my peace...i gotta say it tho Fuck dat gc in particular. just full of h8rz & weirdos it was like omg hello can we breathe guys. Guys can we take a sec to think abt our life choices. ok. anyway. on that note i hate when ppl think Stuff is abt them like if it was abt u i would just say it. this is so random But im just thinking abt past stuff and that gc in particular and is just making me ponder. who remembers back in the day When u'd get vagueposted by ur friend in a discord vent channel...Memories
anywayyyyy today i played Roblox and i talked to my gf bc i love her very much. i forgot waht else i did #Lowkey
none of what was ranted abt here was targeted. Besides that gc. i think im nearing the anniversary of when i Left it LOL. holy. anyway. just felt like letting this out bc ive been feeling Pretty hateful and i started thinking abt that damn gc and It made me more hateful then i Thought abt moments of ppl copying me which made me more hateful. ok.
makes me miss toram online tho.
also contemplating redownloading idv but tbh ill save myself the Self harm no thanks.
okkkkk Peace josu ouuuutttt ^w^!
also i rlly miss kj i hope he will be Ok.
01/23/2026 🐿️
hello
i look latino asf w this hat on #WhereMaTinosAt
anyway dis the dub of the day:
yummers...anyway my gf keeps beating me and it make me very happy ^w^ i love getting beaten by my gf wow. Punch punch punch. anyway we finish s3 of the boys today. dk what 2 expect for s4 errrr very super scared guys... also big news tallulah has started like? using her back legs to stand properly. Not like human stand i mean like how cats stand yk. on their four legs. yea. idk how she does it i assume shes just putting her strength into it but this is very good news! she is learning! yay! also she has a little bed at rhe window now cuz she loves the window very much. they call her the watcher. proof:
ok dats all i think. byeeeeee ( ★ ∂ . < ) ♪
random extra note but i just realized how much i use the word anyway. Anyway anyway anyway... clearly i have a fave word.
01/24/2026 🐿️
last night i had the craziest laughing fit bc some rentrycordian told me to shut up after i made a joke and brought up the fact i had a 67 ref in my server banner. like i wasnt even offended whatsoever it was so funny to me cause WHAT DID I DO. then my oomfie ronin and my oomf-in-law (ronin's oomf) stepped in to reply to the person with six seven. I Love My Friends. #keepingmypeace4ever haters will never get to me LIVELAUGHLOVE its all cool tho i just found that shit so funny BC WHY BRING UP THE SIX SEVEN JOKE IN MY BANNER HELP. OUT OF EVERYTHING ELSE.
.#NoHateOnlyLove im laughing just thinking abt it again holy. there were genuine tears in my eyes from it i couldnt even be mad or hate back bc i was just met with immediate whimsy from their message. if ure reading this Thank you for making my night.
anyway might take a nap bc allergies r killing me Blah. UPDATE: not taking a nap and might play DoL for the first time instead. i jsut rlly wanna customize my character cuz i luv character customization. dk if ill actually play the game beyond that but we'll see! UPDATE: my gf is making me nap bc im sick. sigh. DoL can wait ig.
01/25/2026 — 2:30A.M 📜
It's late, isn't it? If you're up and reading this at this hour—whoever you are—I hope you're doing well. Personally, I'm doing quite decently. I'm always in a neutral state, anyway. I hardly feel heavy emotions.
At times, I like to look back at the years that I've been apart of this system. A lot has changed—for better, or for worse. I've witnessed every little thing one could ever imagine. I've had to put out so many fires in this system—and the flame itself? A different part, each time. Their emotions grow, and grow, and grow until they burst into flames, and often times nobody else is mentally available enough to assist in putting out that flame. So, of course I have to step in. Does it bother me? Not one bit. One flame after the other, and I still stand tall. Mentally. Physically. Emotionally. They're like family to me, and this family in particular has never been any sort of burden to me. For however long I may be here, I'll continue to put out those flames. I'll soothe, I'll reassure, and I'll wipe those tears. One day, all will be well. I know that; I'm certain.
Why?
If I look at the enviroment around me, I see a constellation of stars. Bright, shining stars. Each star represents an outside individual: Our lover and her system, Pierce and his system, Ronin, Yumi, Victim, Crisis, Jay, Crowbar, Dandi, Albana members, and even those we rarely talk to anymore. Every person in our life contributes to our joy, our journey in healing, and our growth. Although I'm rarely out here, I know for certain that who we've surrounded ourselves with as of late have done nothing but cause us a great amount of comfort and happiness. It's not everyday that I see the people in this system happy, and it feels like it's been forever since I've witnessed them express an ounce of joy. So, this? It could almost make an old man cry. I'm not one to get overjoyed, but, lately I've been getting close to feeling that way for the first time. Hopefully one day I'll get to experience it: the laughter, the jokes, the freedom.
01/26/2026 💾
^ God damn, old geezer. Didn't think you were capable of expressing anything outside of your nonchalantness. We as a society are truly moving and getting somewhere.
My first win of the day. Got this URL for free. I am joyous. Now I wait for more today...hopefully. Lottie was working on her extended and had to do an entire 306 question test to figure out her enneagram. Plus a few other tests for her ~dere types. She's truly dedicated. Wow. Anyway. She also finished the information section to our resource Rentry which is great.
Didn't do much yesterday besides hang out with baby, go out to eat and talk to girlfriend. Pretty decent day.
Me? I did nothing but fight demons.
It worked out though. I kicked their asses pretty hard. So I guess it still counts as a dub.
Anyway. My friend Yumi made her own coke rant diary like this. Check it out!
I think that's all. My girlfriend went to bed so now I have nothing to do.
Lol. Nothing to do.
Lol.
Okay.
Ending note:
Okay I'm back. I lowkey think this world is miserable. And I'm not saying that to sound depressing or like I hate my life. No. I love my life. Maybe I'll have some downs here and there, but overall I'm happy where I am. With my girlfriend, friends, those in my everyday. It's just this world in general: people can be so miserable and waste their life on the dumbest, littlest things that truly don't matter. Not that we can't make mistakes—of course we can; we all do, every single day. But, there's a line where it becomes something outside of a mistake. People commit these actions on purpose, not as happy little accidents. What's it for? Attention, amusement, paranoia? Or to shield oneself from getting hurt, so they have to hurt others first? How miserable can someone be to go out and take it out on others? If you're not being met with genuine harm, then why bother? What good do you get out of it? Any of it? I think people like this lack a lot of love and peace in themselves.
Ending note (which is kind of unrelated, but just a thought): Forget about the past and move on. We've all done it, I've done it—so can you. Stop holding onto something nobody cares about except for yourself. All you're doing is causing a toll on your own self and making things look worse than they actually are. Seek peace, seek true comfort in yourself and those around you, seek self-love and confidence.
Thanks for coming to my incoherent coke rant.
None of this is targeted towards any group or individual in particular. I am ranting generally! Shower thoughts.
Second win of the day:
Thank you Rentry Gods (Sarah)
Third (and probably final until tomorrow) win of the day:
Yeeeeah! Hello I just woke up from a little nap.
01/27/2026 💾
Again, and again, and again...It's always me. Are you sick of me yet!? I'd assume so...At the dead of night, 2-3AM, I sat in my lover's DMs going into detail about how I want them to cut me open in a slow, gruesome way as a means to express their love for me in a form I think is above all else. Being bloody and bruised only matters to me if it's by the hands of my lover. I almost cried just thinking about how badly I craved their physical touch. If they carved open my body and took out my heart, it'd still beat at a rapid pace for them. Nothing will ever get in the way of my love and devotion to them. They are everything to me, and I'm only theirs. Not a soul on this Earth could ever come close to the undying love I have for them in my heart. It feels like my heart could just explode at any second from how overwhelming my love for them becomes. But that won't stop me from loving. I'll keep loving until the day that I die—and by God let it be my lover holding the blade.
NOTE (which I copied from my extended): If the way I talk about my lover bothers you: stick it up your ass, take it out again, get a good whiff and then let me know if I give a fuck yet.
On a more normal note...I decorated /Parenthesis to become a watchlist for films & shows I plan to watch—plus my reviews for each. Check it out, maybe? Okay. It's 4AM, and I think my girlfriend passed out...Goodnight to whoever is reading this. I'll probably be back later today...
01/28/2026 🍯
He never came back....that LIAR!
Hi world...(=^▽^)σ MaeMae here...THE Mae. Everyone: Bro who is this #LOSER 🤣?? Siiiigh. Ok...ok. OK! So. Here's the plan for today: (not in order)
- Go out to the store to buy milk for my mom
- Go to Wendy's (DUH)
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Start my laundryHave to do it tomorrow instead... - Talk to girlfriend & Pierce
- Watch 12 Suicidal Teens (hopefully with GF?)
- FEEL BETTER!
Ok so here's what's happening...We're getting off of Discord for a few days until Albana comes back...so, NOT THAT LONG! But hopefully enough. We're off our meds until Feb 11 and have already been off them for a few days.......so we're not doing that great in terms of our depression. Discord just gets too overwhelming during this time, and we'd really rather talk to just Kore & Pierce since they're closest to us. Today we've decided to stop calling KJ our main host due to...reasons, mostly because he's way too mental to be a host and all he does is cause harm to the body. So, for now we don't really have a singular host, just a bunch of hosts...cohosts? I dunno. Find their profiles here...KJ's probably going to hate the idea since he's so stuck on being host and we've been masking as him for years so he always assumes it won't be an easy of a change...He'll understand tho. He knows it's for the better, he just has to learn to accept it and finally take the time that he needs. IMO I'd say our current "host"-host would be Kain since he's usually fronting the most lately. He's gone for a little bit tho because of our little mental break thing. Anyway~~ Maybe that's all!?!? I DON'T KNOW!!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!!! Oh yeah I updated my rentry because I hated how it was formatted before. Ok. Ok? Ok! I'll probs be back later to either check my list of things to do or to yap some more...or both! YAY!
OH YEAH CHECK OUT MY BOARD FAM😳😳😳...AND MY playlist...maybe!? Yay! YAY!!!!
These two W's I got for free just now. #ILOVERENTRYCORD (sometimes).....The free URLs every now and then is just amazinf. Maybe Rentrycord isn't all that bad chat.
THE AMOUNT OF DUBS I'VE BEEN GETTING LATELY IS INSANE HOLY. Just won this URL in a raffle.
Hello Genshin Impact Barbara
01/29/2026 🍯
Say hi to my girlfriend and my boyfriend, ok??? 08.20 + 01.29 <3
Our greed sickens me.
Ok I be back later nyaaaa~
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Hello. Today was another regular day—well, so far, that is. I have just obtained this URL for free.
We have been receiving a lot of URLs lately. We're also doing a raffle to downsize on URLs we do not want anymore...but that's happening in a server.
I suppose that's all for now. I will most likely be back soon.
To my precious doll, Lucia: I adore you in ways I cannot express with just a few words. I wish to feel your touch someday—somehow.
And to my strange subject, Pierce: Get back to work, you lazy slag. Since all you want to do is play Marvel Rivals and Hotline Miami while on the job, I'll be cutting your pay to 2 cents an hour. Good luck paying your bills, my dear boy. I love you.
01/31/2026 🌀
hello! it is lin... i am here to share how our day went. iudex went to the store and then to buy pizza, for our mother... then decorated a rentry, and that was all he did. when i fronted, i failed at decorating my rentry for a while since i am not the greatest... but i got it, and then i watched my sweet boy and my unusual woman play outlast trials together... it was an interesting game. a bit disturbing,but i am just an easily queasy man...
i then went to sleep pretty early,and unfortunately woke up a while ago... i got to speak with my lovely vero and she gifted me hangyodon stickers on LINE! so joyous...i love it a lot. he is like me!
i think that is all for now... i must go back to sleep soon as i am going to my cousins house in the morning. good-night! much love...
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here to say i got these two urls a little bit ago
/alias for /headmate (rip i miss u already but i love /alias more) and /sparring for free. joyous, joyous day!
Hello. Lucia here! I love Kain! ♥︎ <~ Kain sent a kiss!