Blogging at the end of each month till my bday! 3/6
My name is Marcy or Yu.. either is fine. I usually don't do much for my bday,, so this time, I want to make a small blog until then <3 As I said, bimonthly, ok? Ok. Actually, I'll update it whenever i want, but the standard is at least once a month. format is month/date/year. I won't censor anything, read at your own risk.
6/24/25
It's like the middle of the year but wtv. #better late than never.. This month I didn't do much, tried bantu knots for the first time heh. Also school ended like on the 9th.. I also named this kabsa because I love kabsa. can you tell I'm running out things to say? Hm. I love my bsf. Like, lots ok. I DON'T care Tora never made me feel like I'm annoying not even once and i don't think anything can stop us from being friends.. we also have a shared rentry (he made it but the url is mine ok) check it out.. heh.
I'm not close to a lot of people.. so i value my friends alot!! Ignore the fact that I'm in her dni we still fw each other #heh.. my discord is sashasfoodshow26 if u happen to stumble upon this blog and want to chat. No, my other entries won't be this long, but who cares? It's once a month and I want to document as much shit as possible for my bday.
back in the day I wanted to be like them w my mom.. mama kasa was so goals to me. i love my mom! i love her so much. i love her so much i kinda hate her.. like, we're close enough for me to tell her that AugustTheDuck is kinda fine but not close to tell her im suicidal.. she yaps to me sometimes, vents even, but I never do she'll fucking kill me. she splits on me like once every 2 business days ok. I used to know a girl in grade 6 who was also into aot, she saved my elementary school career bc she was always w me even tho the popular girls wanted her in their groups.. i feel bad i feel suicidal, I can't remember her name. She's palestinian, used to have this pfp 
on zoom && whatsapp.. I hope she's ok, i miss her terribly
this post made me want to learn crochet and sewing. My finances are in the same condition as my pussy, tight paws at you paws at youu
OHMYOGD LOOK AT BOYFRIEND IGNORE THE FAG.. oh my god mine mine alone i lobe u so much of my god. this isnt a kazutora blog but its hard not to.. my page for talking abt her is this
6/25/25
Are you fucking retarded laptops r not like phones or tablets they need to be charged at all times you dumb fuck. whyre u conditioning me on how to use MY own charger?? I hope you fucking die I dont like u anymore i wish that pregnancy killed you
this right here I'll never have it im done im sick i actually want to die. in another world i have a nice mom and im good enough for her. um, i hope i dont have 5 siblings in another life too. dont make me the oldest, please.
6/26/25
I've been tracking my symptoms for a bit and talking to a lot of ppl w bpd since. I don't have access to a psychiatrist or a diagnosis rn so. Ik the whole argument of "aha ur like 16 its js hormones" SYBAUAUAUAUAU
6/28/25
today karma alnst thingy was out and ?? idk hwo to feel abt it. i saw it when it was uploaded 9 mins ago and i was like ok js fucking kill me. I LOVE MIZISUA. can i die. i dont know how to explain how i feed but it feels weird, im not going to give a whole yap session in here since idk how to say it in the first place ok? sigh
7/5/25
ok which one of you retards claimed /ness
sigh be honest is our friendship one sided I always feel like I'm doing more
things I want done by the end of the year:
- good enough to do comms
- know jp enough to read manga
- close friends only yumeship server
- kazutora plushies!!!
- make actual friends who gaf
- commission artists
- switch from igcse to sat
- out do Mato
-more to be added-