5/28/26 ~ Happy birthday, Elias!

First of all. and I think this is funny that I'm starting my second letter of this sort to you (at least this year) the same way as i did previously (for valentines day i mean), but I'm really angry at carrd. I had a whole cute website made and now I have to hop on rentry and redo it all. But whatEVER! it's worth it. Anything would be worth it for you; if anything I feel I haven't done enough, in my mind you deserve the world and I am only giving you the crumbs of it (or love, or anything of the like) that I have the capacity to give. Or capability in this sense. Cough cough carrd censoring my site even though it didnt have anything inappropriate on it.

I'm not sure where even to begin this because it just. feels like there's so much I want to say or could say but I need this to stay coherent. The most imporant thing I want to express is how proud of you I am for making it so far. Saying that sounds kinda terrible reading it back now but I am deeply proud of you for managing to stay alive and living despite how challenging the past year has been; I want nothing less for you than for you to stay alive and keep living, hence what I wrote on the first page. I want you to enjoy life as well, and most importantly enjoy your birthday. I know you told me earlier that you don't place a whole lot of importance on your birthday because you have stopped expecting things for it but, if you'd let me, I'd like to help alter that or at least give you the goodness you deserve on your birthday. I really want you to be happy not just today but for the next coming years as well, and if there's anything I can do or anything you want please tell me. Except me tied up in ribbons. Unfortunately that wish can't come true. At least not yet.

Past considering whatever physical gifts I have or could have for you, I am again just so proud of how far you've come since your last birthday I spent with you. Not that that was any less pleasent, but (as we all do, especially now) you've grown and changed and I'm deeply proud. That sounds redundant I just said that I'm sorry. Anyways. I mean it very deeply and rawly when I say you're the most pleasent person I know to be around by far and I'm certain all those around you feel the same; you're kind and helpful and sweet and handsome and Perfect and you deserve to be celebrated for it. I think maybe the best way for me to do that besides treat you to physical gifts that you kinda tell me you don't want anyways is to tell you to enjoy yourself today and the next day and the next day and the next. And something like that sounds kinda stupid. I think I've said before that I'm no poet, but I hope the test of time and time spent together or your time spent alone enjoying life itself can fulfill more of your happiness than anything I write could. I hope (and if I hope enough, it'll come true!) for a beautiful and joyful and liberating future for you, and I'm certain you'll make it.

Love, Ozzie ♡