23.10.20 | Others | Info about me
making an instagram for him lol.

I want to fall forever with you. I'd be too far gone then anyways. Watching the stars from our window and smoking the final cigarette we kept for this very scenario. It'll be scary, I think. I mean, what comes after falling to your death? At least our bodies would be mangled together and we'd be with each other until the end of time- Time never runs out, which is nice. Romantic, isn't it? I love that idea of us just being together until days end. Do you think people would know it was us? To be honest, I'd like to assume we'd be unidentifiable because of how badly we fell. Lol, but then I think- Oh but they won't know we were so in love. What a shame I can't lie. You know I love you so much, don't you? We are like destined soulmates, I can't imagine it any other way. I'm kinda scared of losing you though, well I always have been- You know that. I can't do anything to warrent losing you, but sometimes I feel paranoid about the world around us. Things can take you from me and all sorts, am I just weird? Maybe. I wonder if people would put missing posters up for us or they'd just know? Like. Missing; Spamtenna ijbol. That's kinda funny I can't lie. I wonder what'd they say about us? We were like so in love obviously. 'To the last moments they were together' some shit like that. God, Yeah no. They'd never really understand the extent to how much I love you genuinely. It's like unexplainable- I can't even really put it into words because there's words for my love that haven't even been invented. The way this is written makes my eyes hurt, but continue I must.

I think we are good together. Well no one is perfect, but I mean 5 years says a shit ton about us as a relationship. I mean for fuck sake I live with you lol. We are an actual, real life, relationship, crazy right? Maybe I'm a little mental in the head, but at least you get me. You understand me like no one else really has. It's safe to say I'm more than just madly in love- What I find hilarious is that when people use to say back in school.. "they'll never last" it like added years onto our relationship. Lol, I never liked those people in school anyways. Bunch of weirdos. But you? You were cute. A lot different about you. Jesus Christ like it was fate we met, I'm being serious. It literally all fell into place so amazingly and the years and times just added up so smoothly. I can't describe it, but the way it all adds up?? The way we met was like it was planned out in an artists head for OCs lmfao. I love you so much like genuinely. I can't even imagine a world without such a beautiful thing like you in it.

I always imagine us getting old together, having kids, having a good life and just being happy. Goddd fuck, 5 years. 14 years old to now 20 years old??? Like holy fuck is that not the perfect love story or is that NOT the perfect love story??? Literally just feels like we are the perfect couple of the century. I always think about you, I always look at you when I get the chance. It's literally like I can't do anything but have my mind filled with YOU. I love the fact that we are so understanding, so caring of another. You're so amazing to me holy fuck. Everyone else is just jealous I think, we are perfect beyond belief. I haven't had a single issue with you, we've always been understanding of each others boundaries and everything like wow you're more than perfect?? I am literally crazy as FUCK about you oh my god. My words don't even do much because when I'm with you, a simple "I love you" is enough. OH MY GOD... I might be a little insane lol. You, your system, your presence- MAYBE I NEED HELP.. Aah help for loving my boyfriend too much! My beautiful superstar, my starshine, my TV Cathode, I can't live without you honey. I love you so fucking much.