James⠀⠀he/him⠀⠀17yo⠀⠀syshost ⠀
helloo, I am James. Syshost², introject of him. NPD holder & empathy deficiency. ⠀⠀⠀⠀
I try to be nice so let me know if i come off otherwise. not the most enthusiastic sorry. avoidant and shameless (more or less). easily prone to every npd episodes. Yes, every single one. triggered easily. sorry if i come off as uninterested: i carry memories, not emotional bonds. i cherry pick when choosing who to speak to, but i will reply if engaged with first. extremely petulant and straightforward ⠀
im drawn to all things related to the mind and soul: psychology, philosophy, the ache of autonomy, and the intoxication of control. i indulge myself in the victorian era, the sight of winter, the holy and the damned. heaven, hell, and everything in between. i find comfort in the dark: nightfall, peaceful mornings just before the sunrise, and that deep blue the sky turns just before it breaks. i adore dostoevsky, ouji fashion, and the rare few ive chosen to call friends.