i still have access to dis url don't try to reclaim it, i will be very sad.

The E4 conservation represses envy and is not aware of the impulse that leads him to compare himself with others or of the feeling of lack. Not even the feeling of sadness is allowed, so present in this enneatype as an existential climax. He locks his emotions in an inner world that has no expression, to the point that it can be difficult to recognize him as an emotional character. We could say that the feelings connected to the experience of being lacking have reactively become the ability to be people who know how to contain and sustain the sacrifice, suffering and effort that life entails. The capacities to know how to suffer and strive are constituted as traits of an identity necessary to live. In order to understand how effort has been constituted and the role it plays in the intrapsychic and intersubjective structure of subjects, it is necessary to take into account in the first place the biographical conditions of people with these characteristic traits and also consider the way to interact with other elements.
Different authors confirm, in the clinic, a deficit in the adequate development of the subject corresponding to this subtype in an unpleasant atmosphere, and the existence of one or both parents with the same type of character, a condition that cannot be generalized but that calls attention for your presence in the working group
Bribring speaks of a depressive feeling in childhood as the basis for later depressions, related to a childhood traumatic feeling of helplessness, which is the result of the frustration that the child gets from the signals that he emits, with the consequent loss of vitality and self-esteem and inability to provide himself with what he called "narcissistic substitutes." As one E4 conservation patient puts it: “Whatever I did, nothing was ever right. My mother criticized me a lot, she told me that I was very selfish.””