trying 2 make an actual extended w actial info instead of bullshit ok ok

HIHIHIHIII i ' m charlie or willard , or other names . . :shh: i use a plethora of labels bc i personally think trying 2 make ppl conform 2 a specific set of labels is stupid && my identity is so complex && confusing that idek what i am ! ! my main labels r genderfaun ( i like saying genderfawn or fawnboy tho , they all mean the same thing when i say them ) , almondsexual , aroaceflux , && known unknown . . psst read more abt my labels here . . i also identify as nonhuman , i am extremely aware of my humanity && the fact that despite what my brain tells me , i am made of flesh && bones js as much as the next person ! ! my humanity 2 me is weird tho ( hashtag neurodivergent && was treated as less than human 4 most of my life ) && i tend 2 not recognize myself in the mirror ( partially a result of my dissociation i speculate ) , in my brain i am but a hunk of meat that gained sentience && decided it wanted 2 live like humans do . . i am also a plethora of other things ok . . i js don ' t resonate w them as strongly . . .
i am a big fan of so many things waow i hold a lot of love 4 all media ever actually i think media is incredible && the power 2 make smth that can entertain && reach ppl is so beautiful , my main huperfixations atm r outlast , call of duty , willard , the promise of hope , && shadows house ! ! i hold a lot of love 4 all my interests so pls b kind 2 me . . i am but a little steak who is easily entertained . .
i am weird in my mental illness bc i don ' t believe it affects me so strongly but it clearly does pls b kind && take in2 account how my mental illness can impact my behaviors . . i have long stretchs of time where i don ' t feel safe newhere && i speculate ppl r secretly conspiring against me or hate me in sum weird way #paranoia , but they never get 2 severe ! ! along that route , i experience bouts of depression where i don ' t feel like i can speak 2 ne1 without getting exhausted , i will never ever purposefully ignore ppl bc i lauv every1 && ik how it feels 2 b ignored but i gen can ' t hold long conversations while in this state , i also experience bouts where i feel nothing but love && as a result it seems i end up lovebombing ppl THIS IS NEVER ON PURPOSE && I AM WORKING ON IT I SWEAR everything i say in these states r tru 2 me , but they ' re more extreme than i intend them 2 b && i apologize if i have ever done this 2 u . . i also have sum sort of memory disorder ( likely my dissociative disorder once more ) , pls b patient w me && remind me of things if u feel they ' re important , despite these memory issues i will always take in2 account ur boundaries . . that is the number 1 thing i try 2 think abt ok . . . i have severe ( docial ) anxiety paired w what both i , as well as my friends && fsmily , speculate is dpd which makes me extremely nervous talking 2 ppl && makes me fear upsetting those around me which kinda makes me a doormat , i will b aware if ur taking advantage of this && despite everything i will cut u off don ' t play w me bru . . i try 2 b extremely friendly , but occasionally that extends 2 far && i shove aside my own discomfort 4 others , ok ? js pls b kind 2 me && keep in mind not all of my opinions i voice r exactly my own ( #fear #workingonthis ) , don ' t b afraid 2 talk 2 me if u think an opinion i ' m voicing sounds weird or unusual 4 me ^_^ also i have adhd , specifically of the inattentive type ok ? i rlly struggle w my focus && find it difficult 2 get tasks done unless pushed over && over again 2 . . pls don ' t b afraid 2 bully me in2 doing smth i ' m so srs OH i also speculate i have moral ocd , pr @ least the symptoms of it DO NOT MAKE PEDOPHILIA , ZOOPHILIA , NECROPHILIA , RACIST , GROOMING , OR NETHING SIMILAR JOKES AROUND ME ESP IF THEY R ABT ME even when ur mocking others 2 an extent it gives me paranoia that i am actually a bad person w these thoughts ( using this against me on pirpose won ' t work , find another way 2 ruin my life )
i am also 19 years old , if u r under 16 i have legit no business w u let alone do i want 2 b ur friend leave me alone ok ? ok . . no disrespect && this isn ' t me saying ur generally immature , but ppl younger than that do not have a fully developed brain && despite what u say u r not mature enough 4 a lot of the topics i enjoy talking 2 ppl abt , as well as the types of games i enjoy playing . . like outlast . . focus on staying safe && healthy in qll forms , there ' s 9 billion different ppl out there in the world , js like there ' s millions of other games u can get in2 . . pls js focus on urself above everything . . do not try 2 grow up faster than u already r bc , && ik this is corny asf , u will look back on ur time && regret trying 2 grow up so fast instead of enjoying being a kid , ok ? if u r under 18 do not push 2 have nsfw convos w me , i should not have 2 say this but this includes asking me abt my fetishes && paras ok ?