Well, it's official
We've gotten married
For our honeymoon, we decided to travel the South Pacific
My experiences are wonderful
But then I start to worry
It's subconscious at first
Then a nightmare brings it to the forefront
I catch him cheating on me with an American girl
He admits he doesn't love me anymore
Tells me he wants a divorce
I wake up in a cold sweat
Feel like crying
I tell myself it was just a bad dream
But I can't help but worry that it might come true
Will we fall out of love?
Will he stop loving me?
Sure, we seem to be healthy now
But there's no guarantee we'll stay that way
They call it a "honeymoon phase" for a reason
What will I do if he does?
He's made my life worth living these last few years
If he leaves, he might destroy me
I can't go back to a life without him
It's not long before he realizes something's wrong
"What's the matter, honey?"
Reluctantly, I tell him my fears
He wraps me in a warm, tight embrace, almost knocking the flower out of my hair
"I'd never, ever do that to you."
"I love you too much and the thought of losing you is too painful."
"When I said I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you, I meant it with all my heart."
"You're the lighthouse in the storm."
I look into his eyes and can see that he means every word
Now I feel guilty I ever doubted him
The dam bursts
I start crying and apologizing profusely
He strokes my back and murmurs comforting words in my ear
Eventually, I cry myself out
"You don't need to apologize. It's okay to worry. Just know that I'll always be here for you."
Kami, how does he always know exactly how to make me feel better?
He picks me up, princess-style, which cheers me up
The way he makes me feel small and cute will never get old
"Now, let's try to enjoy the rest of our honeymoon. We're more than halfway done with it, and I want to make most of the time we have left."
I smile
"Yes. Let's."