clearing up rumors and apology statement
(this is inspired by several kinds of apologies because I have zero clue on how to make an apology, I would usually ask my friends to help but my discord is gone and my current friends also have no clue too.)
please dont take this down rentry please .. use context clues on what this rentry is actually all about ..
unironically im not 100% done with this rentry but I did add all of the main points here.
sensitive topics are mentioned. read wisely.
P.S. this takes 20 minutes to read
WIP summary
this exists if you're too tired to read all of that
- Clearing up rumors about me being a pedophile
- Supporting Israel
- Spreading Misinformation that Israel is not 100% in the wrong.
- Harassing and Insulting People for wishing death on other people
- Accepting that what I did was wrong
Rumors
False rumors about me being a pedophile
I know that I am not relevant anymore but I need to defend myself against these heinous accusations?? I have noticed that in some communities that I was once in is that people are calling me a pedophile (??) First of all I never tried to date anyone nor I am interested in dating anyone in the internet (aroace) and especially taking advantage of someone who's under 13 or an age gap. There wasn't even any edited screenshots and users took the rumors as if it was real since I wasn't there to defend myself.
I know that I am a horrible person, but making up fake rumors about me being a pedophile will not do anything and it will only make things worse.
Acknowledgement
Being a massive hypocrite about supporting Palestine
It's exactly what was written here. In the server I was all about agreeing to supporting Palestine and that Israel should be attacked/bombed for it, but deep down I was thinking "but what about the people who were born/living in Israel that didn't contribute to the war whatsoever?" I was doing "what ifs" instead of being realistic that both are in the wrong in the war, however I just boiled it down in my head that, "yeah Israel's government is the villain, not the people!" Yes despite the fact I knew zero information on politics, I went along with what was said to me, That was wrong - and I should have taken research on the topic before saying statements like that.
Harassment in general
Here's where it continues, I would rant to my 4 member rentry GC that I made for shits and giggles that I heavily disliked that sure, Israel and Palestine were both in a war together but making jokes about both countries always bugged me out - so while the people in the server would say death threats to Israelis, I would say death threats to them privately because "innocent citizens" did not deserve that. I have no idea why I said that when I am pretty sure real Israelis would not care about minors saying death threats to their country and towards them. Later on, my two old friends in the rentry GC agreed with me blindly when I should have stayed quiet.
Hours after that barrage of insults towards the server, my last old friend in the GC was so distraught that we were being two-faced, to the point that we were later on reported about our misbehavior to the server then we lost access to it. I am so glad that instead of just not siding with us blindly. If they did, I would have not known what I did was wrong. It was a great way to learn about on how consequences work.
Heads up that I already apologized to most of the people that I mentioned privately in this entire rentry. They do not need a name drop as most of them agree to move on from the situation and cut contacts with me; so I hope they are doing well. That's all you need to know.
I do not expect forgiveness, I understand 100%. This was only 3 months ago, not 3 years ago. Just because I made a public statement/apology about this does not mean everything I did back then won't be fixed. You can block me then move on with your life. I made this rentry to acknowledge my mistakes then reflect on them by reading this statement all over again, at last - this topic will finally gain closure.
Thank you for educating.
I am not going back to rentry spaces because I want my consequences to be permanent. People can change, but the consequences must stay.
To be honest my memory is so bad I can't remember 70% of what I did whilst I wrote all of these paragraphs. I probably gaslit myself by accident. My brain genuinely looks like this now.