rant

tbh idk where tf ts all started like i js transferred schools last year bc i wanted to start jhs all single and high grades!!!!!! no. i fucking fell inlove w my seatmate like BDAKBFKANFMS WHY HIMMMM OF ALL PEOPLE. yk why? bc he is HUNG UP WITH OUR CLASS PRES AND CANNOT MOVE ON. so liking him is a fucking death wish <3.

frankly i didnt even look at the guy in that light ever until he held (????) my hand DURRIRNNGGGGG class. LIKE. FUCKERRR

im an easy target ok. js words or touch can make me inlove w u. i domt like that factor of myself and he lit js did that wihtour even realising.

he spent 2 hours. I REPEAT 2 FUCKIGN HOURS. of holding my hand. without ever letting go! its because i asked for a high fibe but he never took his arm away ans i was too awkward to bring it up so i let him but then i realised he was HOLDING HOLDINGGGG my hand. like the thumbd thing. yk. ans hkw can i be so sure he doesnt like me? IRS BECAUSE THE FUCKER KEEPS TRYING TO ASK OUR CLASS PRES OUT AND FHINKS OF ME AS A FRIEND HE IS JS CLOSE WITH. oh my GOD. but tjis was abt last year, ok!

fast forward this year, 2025! it shouls be okay right since like im not that hung up over him right? wrong.

the first day of school, he approched me, hugged me, and literally asked me if i wanted to go w him to the mall. OFC I COUDLTN BC I HAD AFTER SCHOOL CLASSES BUT IF I DIDNT I WOULDVEEEEE. it was a date. in my pov. anyways dhrimg the day we would js chat and whatever we're not seatmayes amymkre but our seats are fairly close so he can still talk to me

but like idfk why my seatmate does this thing where she makes it so croomf is sitting next to me all the time! basivally croomf is at the 3rd row next to the window, im at the 2md row nsxt to the windkw, so hes behimd me bjt js om the left, and oomfs friends are on the 3rd row so she makes croomf sit on her seat while she is om the 3rd roe with her friends. BTS ME AND OOMF ARE SEATMATES SO SHES LIT BRINGINF ME AMD HIM TG.

i hate it bc whemever he sits im her sit he js hands out his hand eith a smirk because he KNOSS im touch starved amd will hold it. I HATE HIM. I DOTM EVEN KMOW WHY I LIKE HIM!!! HES STILL HUNG OVER BY OUR EX CLASS PRES LAST YEARRRR