my name is maiyah. i also go by stella, belle, and endira. use any or all of them, i do not mind what you call me. other names i go by can be viewed here. i am sixteen. i am blasian (viet + blk), and i have smaller ethnic ties to italy and greece. i speak english, french, italian, and greek fluently. i am learning vietnamese and japanese. i am also a conlang creator; i create completely original languages in my spare time. my most proud conlang is salima. i am in a relationship. i adore my husband, he is literally my soulmate. my humor involves flirting at times, always as a joke. my pronouns are she/they. i am also okay with the neopronouns hy/hymn and ae/aem. i prefer feminine or gender neutral terms. never use masculine terms on me unless you wish to be blocked. i generally identify as femnonbinary. i also identify with this label, this one, and this one as well. i am straight and demisexual. sometimes, i do not view myself as someone with a gender. i just exist as a being who views gender with apathy, or with neutrality.
i am the host of a dissociative system. i am diagnosed with OSDD. i speak freely about this and i enjoy educating others about this disorder. when speaking to me, or the body if the fronter is unknown, use gender neutral or feminine terms. if an alter specifies their identity, use their preferred terms. i use the terms 'i/we' interchangeably when talking about myself or my system. sometimes i have.. chats with them in rentry notes.. ignore them kenny brings out the worst in me. i suffer from GAD, PPD, and cPTSD, all of which are diagnosed. I suspect I have autism and ASPD, but these are unclear.
i am deeply attached to my interests, and i do not get into new media regularly. some of my interests include lifesteal smp, five feet apart, wemmbu, the unstable universe, greek mythology, the group chat, waligug, quicksilver, rodelicc, itssuda, lil darkie, cosmetology, fictional writing, baking, and worldbuilding. i also like decorating rentries, or rather, infodumping on them.
i am very apathetic, which sometimes affects the way i interact with others, especially if we are not close. i can become highly paranoid and anxious; this may happen once or several times a day. i grow agitated quickly, which may cause me to ignore messages. dont take my silence to heart, i most likely saw your message, and forgot about it. my symptoms do not show outwardly, and i am told to be a very funny, albeit sarcastic person. i use the slurs that i can reclaim. i do not use tone tags, but i will if asked. i make kys/kms jokes and i speak my mind freely. i am deeply attached to wemmbu, rodelicc, and lil darkie. i do not gatekeep any of them, nor do i care if you believe you like any of them more than me, because lets be real.. youre wrong. i have had over 100k hours of lil darkie every year for the past 5 years and dont get me started on the other two.. i feel weird being all territorial so uh. yeah anyway.
i do not have a fit dni so this is very loose as i block freely and frequently, but regardless, this is the guideline; those who fit the basic dni criteria. those under 16 years old, unless we are friends already. anti yume/fujo. queer people who ostracize cis/hets. heavily religious and political accounts who push their ideals onto others. syscourse heavy, problematic individuals. pro comship. endogenic systems. people who overuse fonts or special characters for aesthetic purposes. fetishize poc/asian cultures and populations (looking at you, ex boyfriend!). fully fledged relationship seekers are also not welcome here. once again, i love my husband.
hi also i feel like people are going to bash my head in because of this but please limit or refrain interacting with me in general if you are an undiagnosed fictive heavy system. or if you are an undiagnosed minor with over 50 headmates who all have fully documented likes dislikes identity info etc. or if you are polyfrag + introject heavy. or if your introjects outnumber nonsourced headmates 3 to 1. "introject heavy systems exist and are valid!" youre right. im not saying you or anyone who fits that criteria is invalid. just dont talk to me, thanks!