I wish I could be as nice as you are...
You radiate so much warmth and such kindness that it feels insane to even think I could compare to you or your other friends. When such a warm person has friends, they certainly don't attract weak-minded people like me. Especially not me. Why would such a kind soul want to spare scum like me even a moment of their time?
I know you're not into me, I know you'll never be into me, but the love you give me right now, these feelings you awaken in me, it all feels so real. I want it to be real.
I wish to heal as soon as possible, to get over everything that's bothering me and to just exist in your life without feeling guilty for everything I went through that made me into who I am.
You mean so much to me. Your love and support, your kind voice and sweet laugh, it's all so important to me. It's almost addicting. I would do anything to protect you.
I know I'm not good yet. That I was wrecked and messed up, but I'll get better soon. I'll become healthy for you so that if you feel the same, I can be good for you. It's all for you.