Before U interact
i say this on most of my rentries anyway but i am not a naturally talkative person i have a chronic fear of everyone and everything i have the anxiety of someone being hunted for sport at all times. IAM NOT GOOD AT TALKING I AM ESPECIALLY BAD IN GROUPS I HAVE BIG BIG AUTISM. if i dont reply to you for over a day you can bump or i never will because i feel awkward responding too late. i am very scared of sounding too blunt so i overcompensate a lot. pleaseeeueeudfh dont engage me in conversation EVERunless it is about tje like. four things that rotate in shifts in my brain eberyday because I DO NOTVCARE. i am not aware of a lot of social rules and i have a lot of made up ones that only i follow sorry

ALSO i will call people Girl or Bro, i use both for Any Gender it is Completely separated from gender how i use it, but i completely understand if it makes anyone uncomfortable && i will not do it if someone tells me not to ♡ #LMK....

my opinions on things for those who care to know. obviously no one gotta read all this but i will put it on here for transparency

SHIP DISCOURSE NEENAW NEENAW i do not consider myself proship because despite all appearances i wish one day to ascend neethood and become a functioning member of society who does not know what these words mean, and for most of the discourse i see i believe it's more nuanced and case by case and Man i think it depends than either side does. i do however believe completely in anti censorship and i believe most antiship arguments are quite hypocritical for the most part. this is most likely because they come from the belief that all proshippers are are people that want to jerk off to little kids being raped by their parents and do not really have any position beyond that. this is probably like 90% true of the very online proshippers who just enjoy being edgelords and shipping incest for the sake of shock value, and because they are the ones that actually actively contribute to the discourse, so i understand why they get that impression but i will personally stand by "proship" or "profic" just meaning exactly what it says regardless of however muddled its perception may become online. i dont think theres really anything morally wrong with jerking off to fictional incest if you are able to recognise it is wrong in real life; which pretty much everyone can unless you are GENUINELY severely mentally / cognitively impaired, in which case you shouldnt be allowed on social media. the reason i think most antiship arguments are hypocritical is because they exclusively refer to the fictional tropes they find icky and they very rarely extend to Anything that can be considered immoral in the real world. like for example, the idea of yumeshipping with any killer in a slasher movie being fine as long as they have not explicitly on screen committed sex crimes. besides the fact that murder (at least in the first degree) is literally just as bad as rape (i dont know if this is a controversial thing to say but if you disagree with that i fear were not going to agree on anything), most slasher movies are inherently misogynistic so when they kill women they do it in a very sexual coded way, which means the slasher has (to varying extents) committed an act of at least implicit sexual violence. just because they don't show it on screen doesn't mean it's not there. like i see a lot of people yumeship with leatherface in a moralfag way but it does not take a genius feminist theorist to come to the conclusion that pushing a fucking chainsaw up against a womans crotch area is at least a little rapey.
side tangent although i do think in general anyone who claims to be antiship (or would be opposed to yumeshipping with a character it would be illegal / immoral in real life to date) and yumeships with leatherface (or at least the leatherface from the original / 2nd movie & tc3d because i havent seen all of them #LARP and cant speak to their characters really) areeeee hypocrites. like you can tell yourself whatever you want but that man cannot consent !!!! i dont think its ableist to say this i think its just true. i think i would probably respect it more if they acknowleged this and they were like openly into the fantasy of grooming a severely mentally disabled man but all i see is the kind of "i can fix himmm " thing which is kind of absurd to me. it feels such an egregious misreading of his character. which AS WE KNOW is the real crime.
i can elaborate further on this but im not going to right now. the reason i wrote so much about yumeshipping when no one gaf is because i used to have such guilt over yumeshipping with otis driftwood and i have no idea why in retrospect.

i am also pro all good faith identities. im aware that means basically nothing but to me it just means i am a big fan of contradictory labels and such because people should have to right to express themselves however they want. it's not for me but if hyper specific micro labels that make no sense to anyone but you work for you, i completely support that. i do not support the idea of "transids" however - i do not like anyone who identifies with them

i am VERY politically inclined and i consider myself a communist / marxist leninist. i hateeee leftist discourse so i do not use microlabels further than that. i also consider myself a feminist who is radical in my feminism but not a radical feminist, mostly because of the implications. or a marxist feminist. probably a marxist feminist but most people dont really know what that means so its whatever. i hate liberals and i hate centrists and i hate anyone who refuses to openly denounce fascism by aligning with anti fascist / anti status quo / anti capitalist ideologies. yes i say all this and im a fan of taylor swift - i do not support her evil billionaire capitalist ways. its quite easy to not blindly support everything your fav does. i do enjoy making marxlor jokes and i do genuinely think she is not as evil as a lot of other billionaires given that she makes her money mostly through music and will give her team bonuses and all that shit but at the end of the day i do not support the system she is so reliant on so obviously i do not support this aspect of her. however i will not entertain any bullshit about her being a nazi; that is utter nonsense made up to support her smear campaign. SHE IS AS LIBSHIT AS THEY COME. im not a fan of that, i do oppose liberalism but i dont expect any better from such a mainstream celebrity so it is what it is.

there is no real reason to put this on here because i have it on all my urls anyway but i am very in favour of rpf. i wrotd a thread about it on twitter already so ill just link it here andlike. do i think that rpf yumeing is parasocial? yes! but that is not a crime. very normal to have crushes on celebrities. possibly the most common human experience across all cultures. having a crush in general is really just rpf yumeing. it doesnt hurt anyone, unless as i said before you are like severely mentally disturbed and youre going to become a stalker about it. obviously that is wrong but thats not what rpf yumeing is.

i believe i can and do say faggot tranny and retard. i understand the arguments against this but i have been called all 3 of them in my life many times and i will reclaim them how i see fit. i obviously will not say them to anyone who does not like it. i do also believe bitch / cunt is a slur and i do not think cisgender men should be saying them.

i am very opposed to functioning labels which i think most people are atp but i am also opposed to "high / low support needs autism" and the autism "levels". autism is a spectrum lol and it is not a linear one; i do not believe it could be categorised in this way. i will side eye anyone who identifies actively with any autism level. we are all autistic at the end of the day and we all have different support needs. (we as in US. ME and YOU reading this. YOU are autistic)

i am opposed to all religions, mostly abrahamic religions, but all of them. i think they are all tools of oppression & misogynistic. i was raised by a hardcore antitheist reddit atheist so i have never believed in any of that shit and it is ridiculous to me that anyone else does. i have sympathy for all those who were brainwashed in their upbringing into believing in this shit, especially girls / people raised as girls but i would not be friends with a man who subscribes to any of the three major religions (as in christianity islam judaism). other than that i will not bring it up but i DO and always will think that people who sincerely believe in a god as an adult have some sort of mental deficit. and i feel sorry for them.

you are welcome to question / argue with me about any of this on my atabook. if any of this doesnt make sense its because i wrote it on 0 hours sleep at 6am