Eri⠀ ⠀⠀ +⠀⠀ ⠀ Xu 𝟬 𝟱 – 𝟬 𝟱 – 𝟮 𝟬 𝟮 𝟱
Its so crazy how we got introduced by an ex in like 2023 and now Were IN LOVE, PART 2!!! You're so perfect to me I couldn't even explain it in just these words. You know how much I truly love you. How I badly yearn for you like a lost dog (Ironic). You're so dear to me. You bring me that sun and delight I've been missing for forever. Finally knocked my senses back. I feel like me again when we're together. Even before you confessed like I originally did in our past-time It felt right being platonic. I didn't want it to be platonic but sometimes life isn't fair (Look at us now though). You may not have been my first love, nor I yours, but you are the first to teach my heart its native language. With you, love stopped being an idea and became something I could feel in my bones, something sacred, something true. I don't have to bottle up emotions when I'm with you. I can speak truthfully. And even if I do seem slightly upset or I lie about not you see right through me. I like that about you, E. It really is a good charm about you. I'm glad you see me for me. You don't care how jealous I am. You rather understand me and dont demonize me like how plenty of others possibly would. I love that about you. So so so fucking much. I can't help but feel sorry for you and how others treated you in the past. I wish I could've sheltered you away. I wish our possible long-term didn't get ruined by you know who joining the picture. My gut was always right about them. I'll forever trust my gut after that. I don't wanna lose you, (Byler reference sort of. Lol). But truthfully If I lost you again I wouldn't know what place I'd be in. I'd feel lost like how I did after getting cheated on those months ago. After we found each other again life felt more generous to me, like if I found my purpose again. I started to feel less upset, the hatred I secretly kept from others I never had for you. Not even once. Im so glad I never did have true hatred for you, if I actually did it definitely stemmed from someone else's shitty self. Nothing can make me hate you because you're the whole reason why I'm here now, I secretly kept on going because of your existence. You're a beauty and hopefully my future husband. -X 6/23/25
this may or may not be depressing but Hi i lvoeyou so much UGHGGJFHFF IM SORRY THIS SEEMS SO INFORMAL okay. genuinely when we Actually started dating i was like ??? bevause to me you're perfect n pretty and im Dying and stupid. i didnt think anyone would wanna genuinely date someone thats gonna die in a decade or so.. 😢😢 i think about dying a lot. the fact i could just drop dead right as im writing this and id never get to speak to you again. if i was Noticeably dying id rather text you one last time than get help. i don't care how stupid that is.. i don't want to ever stop talking to you. i loveyou so much i think my heart would fail itself if we ever ever EVER distanced. i dont know how you tolerate me at all.. 😓😓 i feel like i dont give enough back to you but ive genuinely never put this much love into a relationship. maybe im just weird like that but nobody else has ever lovedme like this and ive never been able to be genuinely attracted to anyone and for once i finally feel like i'm worth something. ive spent years dehumanising myself because i couldn't feel anything for the people that claimed to love me but. i think soulmates are genuinely are thing.. i think we were born to be together because What the hell i've never felt anything like this in my entire life till we met. even when we were broken up i had a feeling it wasnt gonna stay that way.. we are problematic toxic yaoi i do Not fear #yaoiboysex Than kyou for everything you've ever taught me about i love hearing you yap about anything to me I'm ADDICTED TO YOU!! im also. Sorry. for being mad these past couple days i dont know ill Try to fix it (Hello ihave other problems im hinting at and you're helping idont know if you know that) 😢😢😢 ilove you SO much I love youiloveyoi I love you -E 23.06.25
"more than anything i was relieved that in my unfamiliar babbling-and-wanting-to-talk state i'd stopped myself from blurting the thing id never said, even though it was something we both knew well enough without me saying out loud to him in the street - which was, of course,
I love you." -Page 353 of The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt. I'll forever be glad you took those three words out of my mouth because I was too scared to let them out. I love you so much and I'll forever appreciate your existsance. You turned me into a poet, My wise. I can't even explain in words how badly I just want to love you forever. Even if the love wasnt mutual I'd be yearning for you, like a shed away knight. It will forever occur to me that you are the one perfect for me. Despite that my emotions and words sometimes make me sound more miserable when I miss you. I can't stop with my jealousy thoughts. I just wish I could be normal and healthy for you. Even if it "Gives me character" I feel so so bad for it. You always give me the benifit of the doubt, it's sweet really.. I don't deserve you. I'm so stoked to possibly meet you next year.. I know I'll cry and probably hurl from fear of not being the expectation for you. Even being in your exact pressence seems so?????? It seems so scary but also like a daydream. I hope we can hold hands, bake, kiss, go to the mall and everything else YOU wanna do too together. I want to be the happiest with you until we can finally move out. Thank you for making me the happiest boy already, I really really love you and your green eyes. My wise, Thank you. -X 6/30/25