Ari's⠀⠀Diary♡♡
a war inside my heart ! 
until ??? do us part !
ꔫ ᘏᘏ November 17th, ⠀2025
- Today was SOOOO amazing. Like I'm so overjoyed of everything today. I reunited w/ a really good oomf of mines, I went to Walmart and saw Christmas decors! Getting me tooooo far into the spirit. Pleaseeee wait!! My birthday hasn't even passed yet! December 13th baby. I'm so ready. My mom told me I'm having a big party,,, SPEAKING OF MY MAMA, WE SAW A CHICKEN IN WALMART AND SHE SAID THAT VEXUS WOULD LOVE IT. BFF MENTIONED. && I hope I get penguins at my party. ALSO! I went to burger king, and had an AMAZING TIME. I took a crown home!!! I tried to get my mom to take one too, but my mamaw said " No trash in the car! " AY BRO. Crowns aren't even trash. && I've been thinking about Kai all day. Before I even went to BK, I was working on rentry! My collars pink and I serve drinks. BACK TO WALMART, I'm like a big candle fan. I smell candles everywhere I go- && drag my mama into it. WE SMELLED SO MANY GOOD ONES. Some reminded me of presents && nice fires, and I was genuinely so happy. Happier than I've been since July. I just love the winter! It boosts my mood by miles. Pizza, presents, family time. IT'S THE MOST WONDERFUL TIMEEEEE OF THE YEAR! My fav season. SEASONS MENTIONED. LANDER OUGH. anyways! That's all I have for today! I'll see you next time I write an entry!⠀❤︎
ꔫ ᘏᘏ December 9th, ⠀2025
- It's been a while.. December is genuinely my most busy month.. Kind of hard to keep up with rentry,, yk? I have some bit of motivation for rentry, but it's my most busy // happy month of the year! I'm thinking sm about my party after being ragebaited by my 2 fav people in the world? My mom said that she's excited for me to open my presents. LIKE DANG GIRL CHILL. IT'S IN 4 DAYS LEAVE ME ALONEEE.. //POS. I also really love my boyfriend.. I feel like I'm not being fair to him by not paying much attention to him.. Due to our timezones; and me being so busy. Dime, if you're reading this, I'm really sorry for how distant I've been lately, and that I do really love you. I apologize if I've made you feel like I don't love you - or I'm not giving my all. I really am trying to give my all to you,and get things in my 'Daily December Dilemma' complete.. Anyways! I do hope you forgive me, and that I do love you. You're the Yul to my Kai forever.. //SRS. Also, I'm too excited for my party, overly! I'm going to have a sleepover, let me add, GRINCH THEMED SLEEPOVER with my best friend in the world, Michael! We both love the grinch, and I already got his Christmas presents! I'm so excited for him to see them! And some of my other friends I recently got close with are going to be at the party, too! I miss you Cami.. And I feel bad for not socializing much, because my communication skills fall so down in person.. But, she's super funny and kind. My I think lesbian queen.. Heyyy girl.. I think that's all I need to cover! Until next time, stay safe my precious diary!
ꔫ ᘏᘏ January 6th, ⠀2026
- Happy 2026! I feel.. meh. I got a girlfriend after breaking up w/ my ex. But, I am now 16! It feels amazing! My birthday party consisted of my own pink carnival! That's also how I introduced it to my friends at the party by the way.. It was so fun. One of my best days in 2025 <3 //srs. It's almost my one year anniversary with Name it Sprout. My heart. I love all of you. Thank you for staying with me. Despite our differences,⠀we're the strongest GC ever.⠀
Also,⠀I got a new iPhone 16 for my birthday last month! It's in the pink shade. It's so pretty, and it doesn't die in a literal hour like my iPhone 12 did.. I am so grateful for it. I literally opened it at my party,⠀and when I did,⠀I said⠀" you didn't.. " , and started crying, and my mom just nodded, and hugged me. SHE IS SO SWEET I DON'T DESERVE HER AS MY MOM. 
I love everything I got for Christmas too. I got a brand new Xbox! My old one was 16 YEARS OLD.⠀MY AGE BRIO. I love my new one. I also got a pink controller to go with it! It's so smooth and pretty! I CAN PLAY MY DANGANRONPA GAMES WITHOUT STICKY KEYS ANYMORE. Bro trust me, I don't know what happened. //srs.. I also got to episode 5 in THH.. I love all the the remaining ultimates. CELESTIA DONE CLOCKED HIFUMI'S FAT SELF. No I'm not even sorry when I say him cursing was the most corny thing I've ever seen in my life. He was SO GROSS. I'm also scared of people who yumeship with him //srs //nbr.. He is actually probably smells like onions and sweat.
ꔫ ᘏᘏ January 16th, ⠀2026
- Sooo.. I started cheering about having a girlfriend too soon. I lost her faster than I gained her. Also losing some of my closest friends. What a crazy way to start off 2026. I spent too much time with you, Aspen. I tore myself apart mentally for you. I stayed up with you. I called you everytime you wanted to hang out. I stayed on sleep calls with you. How dare you treat me this way. I was OVERLY SWEET TO YOU. YOU DIDN'T DESERVE MY UPMOST ATTENTION YOU IDIOT. YOU SAID I MISTREATED YOU? YOU LED ME ON TO THINKING I WAS DOING A GOOD JOB. THEN YOU'RE GOING TO BLOCK ME. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?! But, Kirk squad ily guys sm. You guys are so fun to be around, and comforts me about the situation. Also, I love Nagito Komaeda. I also wanna rewatch Assassination Classroom. I can get far in it again. I miss it, && Stars Align. I also fell back inlove with MLP. I played a game with my mom, and we haven't beat it yet. But!!! I hope we will soon! Because we unlocked all of the ponies.! That's all I can really think about right now.. But thank you for listening!
ꔫ ᘏᘏ February 1st, ⠀2026
- Oh my god. I literally hate my life. I know this really sweet guy IRL.. He makes me laugh, and apparently I was blushing around him too. I don't even know if he likes me actually. I've known him for years on years. I don't believe he would break me this bad.. He was being overly sweet to me.. And he calls me pretty, and jokes with me. He tried to kick snow at me, and it went in his shoe instead.. What a loser. I'm gushing over him now.. I miss him. So bad. He's back in his town today, and we haven't messaged much. He asked me out yesterday too. I might be going insane just a little. But, as I'm typing this, I'm rejecting another guy. Can this dude leave me alone? Your name is Brad for the love of everything. I don't want you. We just met, and your name rubs me in the wrong way. Brad always has seemed like a manipulative name; especially after 7th grade. I fumbled a guy named Brayden if that even matters. It's close enough to Brad. I feel very empty and lovesick for no reason. Maybe I just want him to come back to my town... I don't know when he will come back though I'm flowkirkenuinely so upset.
ꔫ ᘏᘏ February 3rd, ⠀2026
- MY HEART IS ACHING SO BAD. I FEEL SO SICK. I WANT TO DISAPPEAR BRUH .Help me
ꔫ ᘏᘏ February 8th, ⠀2026
- Bro he's my boyfriend now. Shocked emoji. I asked him to be my Valentine and he said YES!
ꔫ ᘏᘏ April 6th, ⠀2026
- So. A lot has changed since I got on here and talked about my feelings. I lost that 'Valentine' I had. He was too busy for me. He went & complained to my friend about losing me. So screw him. My homegirl told me she'd beat him up for me; since they're cousins. I lost so much during this time period too. I lost my faith in love, alongside some of my closest friends. I don't care much anymore; since I have better friends. I also took one of the pricks main urls. Screw her. If you read this, just know I hate your guts so bad it hurts my heart to say your names. /srs. I've also become more mentally ill. I thought my depression would start to slip this year, but no. It has actually intensified so bad. I can't stop negatively thinking about the future, and it hurts so bad. I have gotten more posessive over my fav characters. Now I feel like a jerk so bad. I hate it I hate it. I also might a crush on someone but I'm losing it faster than I gained it. I can't physically do love. I'm not lovable. It's hard being me, I can't keep a relationship because I'm not lovable, like at all. I lost my ex from December since our timezones were really bad and I couldn't do it anymore. He got petty after that, and made me spiral all over again. I found out quite a bit about my past friends too. It's disgusting that I had no clue I was dating a 10yr at 14. I feel gross; and I feel like I need to inhale soap. I feel like the guy I liked a few weeks ago hates me, so I lost those feelings too. He doesn't really talk to me much anymore, and I feel like I'm annoying him. I feel like I'm annoying everyone on that note. Even my own mother. I lost my airpods, and I've been sobbing to her over it. I'm so stressed lately it's making me spiral so hard. It's like I can't stand being alone for under an hour as of recent. I feel like I will start going insane without attention for that time.