Selling this @Jaelee on Atabook

Moved here I don't support Rentry

I'll make this pretty soon UYUN LOOK AWAY
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You make me so undeniably happy, even if it means chudding on genshin a lot. These little moments and us playing together makes me happy by a LANDSLIDE and it genuienly does help ease my depression a bit. I know when school starts we will both be extremely busy but so far these moments with you will never fade out of my mind. You're the best and you're the Columbina to my Sandrone. I'm not one who expresses my love or adoration to someone in text because I've lost that skill overtime but I do mean this.

Uploading some screenshots from the last couple of days, then I'll start jotting down the dates for these entries.

7月9日 We played genshin today with Keibi, and I was giggling like the entire time we all were on. I just enjoy playing with you so much.. thank you for spending time with me :( I know it's the bare minimum but multiple of my exes or friends couldn't even do that for me. Everytime I see a "Uyun" has requested to join your world I always let you in.

I heart you

7月11日
Seven Eleven Get Your Slushies Anyways here are more screenshots :)

7月12日
It's been so fun knowing you and being your friend. Our one month is in 8 days!!! It def did not feel like one month of knowing you, time passed by so quickly when you have fun with someone it's crazy.




I had no idea you posted screenshots from the week we met, it feels nice knowing you care as much as I do and find these moments funny as well :)

AHHH I'M SORRY I HAVEB'T BEEN WRITING I'LL UPDATE RVERYTHING TMRW I PROMISE I was busy the entire day today and I'm tired and I miss yoy.

7月15日
Your favorite duo is back


















I MISS KEIBI OUR DIVO

7月16日
I am in the Airport rn... I miss tou and I'll make sure to upload screenshots soon I'm so sleepy

7月21日 China has been so fun so far, and I know you're not doing well right now but I really hope you're gonna be okay. I can't upload any screenshots bc the wifi here is ass but I gen love you so much that I simply cannot put it into words. I love you and Keibi so so so much, and I cannot wait for us to play again. I'll def show you this one day so I can express my love and gratitude for all the things you've done for me without writing a paragraph about it. Uyun, you're like my bestest friend at the moment and I hope you know how much I enjoy talking to you about anything. You're someone I can always be myself around and look forward to asking for advice/comfort. You're the best person ever and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I miss youbso MUCH LETS TROLL ON GENSHIN AGAIN ONCE I GET HOME ALRIGHT? Much love and hugs.
Knowing you're in the hospital from a near OD kinda triggers me since I remember that was the exact reason I went to the hospital last year. You're worth it, and ending your life so early is a terrible decision. I know the internet is a horrible ass place but without it I wouldn't have met you and so many of my bestest friends. I miss you every hour when I want to talk to someone, and I think missing people will be the end of me someday. I do want to cry everytime I think about you, but in a good way. All the fun and memories we had, and the times I accidentally split on you and you still treated me with love and care and patience makes me so grateful. I can never express my gratitude for all the things you do...

7月26日 Uploading old screenshots since I miss you a lot right now :frowny_face:

IM MISSING THESE TIMES SO MUCH AND THESE WERE LIKE A MONTH AGO TOO

7月27日
I drew us today and it was super fun it took a while and it sucks bc I don'f have my brushes that I have on my home tablet. I'M GONNA DRAW POLYCULE / WPGC / WOLFPACK GC NEXT ALRIFHT i promise also i'll upload screenshots on /wpgc soon once I'm not lazy

7月28日
Wolf Pack GC/Polycule NY BABIES also we did the genshin trend thingy today IT WAS SO FUN I SWEAR I HAD TO THINK SO HARD ABT IT AND THE FACT THAT YOU CLIPPED MY LYING ON TIKTOK MAKES ME WANT TO PUNCH YOU SO BAD Also Uyun found this URL now that you know it exists, I'll try to write more if I don't forget

7月30日 MORE SCREENSHOTS



UYUN HACKED ME
also check out /wpgc

7月31日

8月02日 I'm currently here at like the hospital for a wellness check since I have ovulation issues but I'm sitting here bored so I guess I'll write about you because I finally have time! I haven't read my AP summer book in three days and I really need to get back to work but I'm so lazy and I miss you a lot. I cannot wait for our timezones to go back to normal when I go back to the US, sometimes I wish we all just had the same timezone. I hope you're at least having some fun during your trip, even if it didn't sound so fun when you texted me about it. I started thinking of that time where you were telling me about how your friend blocked you and deactivated their account because of a racist on genshin. That was around the same time I stopped being friends with you know who. Anyways in that moment, I felt like it was the only moment where it felt there was only us two alone. I remember this feeling when my ex's friend of years suddenly blocked him and ran to me for comfort at the same time when my ex friend and I weren't on good terms either. In these moments, I felt a surge of protectiveness and the need to comfort you the best I can. Of course I didn't want you blaming yourself, you're one of the best things that's ever happened to me and you def didn't do anything wrong. So I just wanna say that I'll always take your side no matter what, because you're my best friend. I love you and Keibi so much, and I'm forever grateful you decided to make a bmf video that day and I commented after seeing like no comments because I knew you practically couldn't ignore me 🙄💗

8月05日 I know you're asleep right now and not in a good mood, but I'm writing this down while my cramps are attacking me badly because my hormones are making me feel emotional again. You said you unsent some messages this morning because you had a freak out, and now I feel terrible for not being there and knowing what had happened because I was asleep. I'm not good at comforting like I used to be, but I promise I'm here to listen to anything whether it's how much you love Scara or Lohen, your stupid random tiktoks that you send me, or just genuine life updates. I'm really bad with replying sometimes and often leave stuff on read but I promise talking with you makes me feel so much better. I'm so sad I can't do anything to help you with the way you feel at the moment, your time is behind mine, I'm still somewhat depressed, I'm always outside half the time and having no internet, and along with so many other things. I know once I come back I'll barely have any time before school starts due to me needing to finish my summer assignment work and hanging out with irls, but I promise we'll spend time together before school starts this year because I know we'll have no time at all for each other then and the thought of that makes me more sad than anything, even more than when neu broke up with me. It's not that you're my only friend I talk to and play with, you're one of two people who supports my delusions about Xiaovein and listen to some mentally unwell dude send crash out voice messages about them, but also my other friends are all busy as well. I don't play Genshin with anyone else, what makes this worse is that once I go back Keibi will be ahead of us again. I feel so trapped and scared and alone even when I have around 3 more weeks in China. I miss you a lot, and I really hope you're okay. I only ever feel okay when you are. Enough with the venting, we matched pfps on Tiktok 🦊🐰!!!!

8月16日I KNOW I HAVEN'T UPDATED TJIS IN A WHILE BUT I SWEAR HERE LOOK AT MORE SCREENSHOTS


I MSISED TALKING TO YOU A LOT BC IK URE GETTING MORE BUSY SINCE SCHOOL IS STARTING SOON AND I WONT BE ABLE TO TALK ALOT WITH MY DRIENDS ONCE RHE SCHOOL YEAR STARTS AGAIN sighssigh but anyways Did you know I love you for supporting my Xiaovein delusions and my loce for my selfship slash yumeship except I don't wanna be called a yumeshipper?? Like yes I love Karmayuan I loce Ayuan I love Uyun
I'm talking to you rn and typing on this Hello

8月28日 I wasn't gonna make this an entry, but considering how this is a lovemail about you, why not put the both the happy and the sad parts in as well? I know we can't talk much right now, but what is there to say? My heart is feeling torn apart knowing you're not okay right now and I know I listen to your problems but I feel like a piece of shit not knowing how to comfort anyone anymore. You're the only person I enjoy yapping about Link Click to and hearing about how you're having such a difficult time kills me to know. I don't really care how badly you are attached to me at all, even if I don't show it much, I am attached to you too. Just not in the same way I am to my past fps since I'm more cautious about getting hirt again. I will never be tired of you, or annoyed of you. Everybody else I've met has been nowhere as interesting and funny as you; I only ever want you as my best friend. Maybe I do call a lot of people my best friends, but you're like in the tippy top, does not even make sense?? I know life gets hard so many times, and it feels like things won't get better anytime soon, but I want you to keep pushing. We both are mentally unwell, but being with you, I feel like I forget about my personality disorders and can actually really exist when I'm around you. I don't know when you're coming back fully again, but I'll wait. I've been waiting for almost everyone my entire life and even if it takes weeks or months to talk to you actively again, I'll do it. I still don't know if you read these entries anymore, but I hope you're okay. All of the time.

9月7日 I felt horrible the entire day yesterday, even when I was with my irls I didn't feel well. I miss you so much, and I'm still in shock of everything you had to say yesterday. I love you so much. I don't know if it's desperately, platonically, or just in an attached way, but I do love you. I'm glad you understand where I'm coming from. It's a huge thing for me to take in because I really thought the three of us were getting along well, but I guess not. I don't really know when I'll be ready to talk to you again, but I hope you read this with hope and reach out too.

9月12日 I guess I really miss you a lot right now. I'm not sure what to write in this entry, because I know I've already been too honest to you. Uyun 😞😞😞😞😞 I miss you. I've been drawinf a lot lately again and I really want to draw Vodette for you. It's been like a week since we stopped talking?? Or maybe less? It's been feeling like the longest week without you here, at least that's how it feels to me. Not a day goes by without me wanting to text you to talk about anything again. But then I realize I can't anymore, not after everything that went down. I know the last time we talked, it didn't go well at all. And I know I'll have to make up for everything I've done wrong. I can't promise I won't hurt you again, but at least I can tell you I would never hurt you intentionally. I really love you, and I just want us to go back to, well, us again. I've been trying to talk to new friends, but none of them feel like you. I don't get excited to talk to people anymore, because most of the time it's them venting to me. Me and Sam are both busy with school and life, and I can only talk to Sel twice a day because of our timezones.

I feel so horrible. I don't get anything going on in English and I know I'm gonna do terrible on my upcoming exam because I'm sick. I'm telling myself to study the entire day tomorrow. I just miss you a lot, but at least I'm not crying over it until my eyes are swollen again. I guess you can say that I cry over every close online friend of mine because I struggle with friendships so much. I really hope I take this time to heal because I can't stand being apart from people. In times like this, only Xiaovein and friends can make me happy. While I'm happy that Xiaovein is getting so many scenes this season, I still feel like my heart is missing a piece. But I still do love you, and I think I'll always do.

9月21日 I was gonna make an entry yesterday but it deleted everything I wrote accidentally. Whatever, I can just try to remember what I wrote. Yesterday was our 3 months. It's insane to think about how it's already been 3 months already because I met you in June. I still feel really sad since most of my day I don't have anyone to talk to.. I did play IDV and VC with a friend but even now I still feel empty. School hasn't been helping either I genuienly feel like shit thinking about going back to school for consecutive weeks before a break. At least Halloween's around the corner. I'm thinking of being basic and buying a red tie to be Gerard Way. Nobody in my lame ass town would know but I'm just there for the candy anyway. Anyways I've been trying to find other things to do such as decorating my fluffle urls. I'm thinking of moving our lovemail onto fluffle because the creator of this website is a Zionist. I'll tell you when I do that because I'm so lazy and MDD is coming back to get me AGAIN. I've also been thinking about how our friendship isn't something normal, of course you're my best friend but it definitely expands into a QPP in the most unromantic ways. But then again I suck at labels, and I know qpp is a term used in the Aroace communities so in a way I do consider you as my Qpp. Hopefully reading this will give you some ideas into my life these last couple of days :)

9月24日 I lost my 50/50 and got Mizuki, which isn't bad but it feels like a terrible loss to me. I know I was lucky enough to win my last three 50/50s but I really do want Vodyanista. I feel terrible about it and it hurts so much :(. I really need her, I don't care if she's bad I just want to be Vodette with you. This obessesion with Vodette is slowly starting to make me go crazy. Idk how I'll be able to save up and try to get her because my luck sucks and I always hit hard pity but I really do want her. I thought about you a lot today, which didn't bring me sadness for the first time in a while. I haven't been obsessed with a wlw ship since like forever, maybe the last one being Qiaoxi. I see us in them so much and it's starting to become a really bad attachment to the ship. I NEED to draw them. I want to see more content. I really hope I'll be able to get her or spend money maybe, this lose sucks so much but I at least got Nilou for free. I don't CARE ABT META I WANT TO BE HAPPY UGHUHH I guess I just really miss you. I don't know what else I can try to tell you besides from the fact I feel so strongly about you not in a romantic way but not in the most "casual" thing ever way either. I guess this is just queerplatonic stuff

9月28日 I'm glad we talked yesterday and made everything more clear because I was super happy with the time we spent together today, even if it was for a short period of time. I'm not gonna lie, I'm happy my previous relationships and friendships didn't work out, so that I can meet you. I love spending time with you. Do you know how much?? more than I love doing all of the things I have to do every day... so basically just Genshin and talking to my friends, but i love talking to my friends a LOT. so thats saying a lot!!!!! Sometimes you ask me if i want to play genshin, and my answer is always "yes" or "of course" AND I MEAN IT!!! even if we're just sitting there talking or exploring my world, it makes me super happy and I think it's very fun.I really love being able to talk to you daily and I wouldn't want to do it with anyone else so thats why I don't. simply. I don't even play with any of my other friends besides you and my sister. I only play games with you because even though i like to spend time with my friends I definitely love doing it with you more. You were right to say our friendship/queerplatonic relationship doesn't need a label, but my love for you is pure and whole-hearted and I've never been happier with anyone before. Before I met you, I never thought I'd have this kind of connection with anyone else. not after I was cheated on twice and broke up with my ex on bad terms. I thought that at that point, I'd never be in love with someone again, to have someone who understands me and get my jokes without becoming sensitive and splitting because of them. I never thought I'd be more in love with someone than they are in love with me. To be equally loved to the same extent, to the same words and humor, always felt like so unrequited until I met you. Eveything other than you kinda gets shut down in my mind when i spend even the smallest amount of time with you. Every small comment, sweet or not, puts a genuine, happy smile on my face. I've never felt this kind of joy talking to someone online. it showed me that I don't need to know them, or face them in real life to actually feel this happy toward someone. Just mere words can change anything. :( I guess this is really corny and cringey I hate saying this to your face so I'll say it here. Also I'm gonna move our lovemail here because Rentry supports Israel.