𓈒ᣟ݂ ݂ Latest entry : 25/03/26 ۫ᣟ݂ ݄♩
𓐇˚ִִ𓈒煉 ۫ ּ Entry Ⓘ ּ⑅݂ — ꒷꒦
Today i woke up feeling abit disoriented. Yesterday seemed to cancel out like some kind of distant memory, i mean, it was fun though. I got to spend time with friends from school, something i don't normally do because of my mom's restrictions. It was pretty fun actually -- the event was to celebrate breaking our fast before the 2 week break until March 30th. I ate some carbonara and drank lychee tea and overall it was pretty great. But now, everything seemed boring. I can't find anything fun to do. I mean yeah i could read, draw, watch youtube, etc.. but it feels like a waste of time. It feels like i lost passion for everything. I've decided to take a break from discord and avoid messaging anyone as of now excluding family to get my mind off of things. The day before the entire event some.. drama between me and my partner that i wouldn't like to disclose, but one thing's for sure; it truly fucked me in the ass. I can't bring myself to face her or any online friends i know as of now, it just feels numb. I don't really care to be honest, most things don't bother me but it aggitated me how everything just spiralled down even though i had tried not to let that exact thing happen. I can't overexplain much or pour out personal details of our relationship.. so i'll end it off on here. See you and God bless you †
𓐇˚ִִ𓈒煉 ۫ ּ Entry ② ּ⑅݂ — ꒷꒦
Recently joined this epic rp server and honestly i feel very welcomed. i mean, yeah the server has 2020-ish humor (cough, 'UwU') but i met someone who likes Ctimene like me so i'll take it as a win. Oh and yeah, recently i came back to discord after an 8 day break :/ me and my gf have came to terms now and we're good now. Anyway said Ctimene dude rlly matched my energy... he supporta my yumes so thats good giggles. OH AND today at like 8 AM my grandma left abit for some errands and i was home alone, for some reason i kept hearing glass and plates clinking and the rice cooker getting turned off??? i was in my room btw.. so i lowkey just prayed 2 Jesus and began watchinf/listening to youtube/music ro drown out my fear cuz i was scared shitless. Eventually grandma returned so yeah. I just ate ice cream btw it was good omlll i love ice cream.. ALSO SCHOOL STARTS IN 5 DAYS AND APRIL IS COMING UP WHICH MEANS NATIONAL EXAM AND MORE EXAMS AND THEN GRADUATION (for Grade 9.. Indonesia is diff) WTFFFF I AM NOT READDDYYYY. Mostly 4 exams but eh, idgaf abt graduating.... anyway bye. #ILOVEPEISISTRATUS