Entry Log 1. 1961.
I received a letter in the mail today from someone I thought I could trust. I took myself away from my studies and decided to open the letter in barely disguised excitement seeing the stamp from the factory on the envelope. However, from the first line, I felt a sense of anger rise up in my throat. I couldn’t tell if it was anger, I couldn’t understand what emotion it was but it was as if I had eaten something hard to swallow. The letter read like the one man I trusted had found disgust in me, that I was nothing but an emotionless computer who couldn’t feel anything for anybody. No sense of humility, it said. Not up to his standards, it read. Nothing but a failed attempt at conditioning me into being his little toy. I knew I was right, I was intelligent enough to understand that he wasn’t going to save me, he wasn’t going to understand and I was a fool to believe he would. I tore the letter, I don’t regret it. He wasn’t worth my time anymore and I was always right. Soft, a coward. He doesn’t understand experimentation the way I do, he’s weak and the weak burn with the others in hell.
I should have never have trusted him with my words and my intelligence. He was only using me for the bright ideas I created before anybody could. He told me I was going places, that I was the smartest in the program but it was all lies. Lies so he could keep me quiet from the secrets of that place. A true traitor, he was nothing but a disgusting animal and I’ll never forgive him for the way he treated me. He deserves to live in Hell, looking at Heaven, knowing I control everything and will always find ways to outsmart him. I am the smartest person that controls the science field, I will forever be at the top and no matter what he says to me, I will forever remain better than anybody who decides to cross me.