꒰ 2026年3月21日 ꒱
Hello!!!! This is my first entry..... I've been wanting to do something like this for a while but I didn't know what to really write about, but today I finally did some things!!! I finally got to go to the eye doctor and I'm #BLIND I luckily got to pick out some pretty cute glasses but I'm not too happy that I have to start wearing glasses like some ugly chud ໒꒰ྀི⸝⸝⸝ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ ⌑ ᵒ̴̶̷̣̥̀⸝⸝⸝꒱ྀི১ later I went to watch a movie with my dad and the movie was decent, but I only really cared about the Beatles reference they put in there....... ummmm... I also went to the bookstore after and FINALLY I HAVE A PHYSICAL COPY OF THE COMMUNIST MANIFESTO!!! I'm so excited to start annotating and writing in it!!!!! I also went to the bakery afterwards with my dad and I got some cake YUMMYYYY 🩷🩷🩷🩷 the only thing that I'm really sad about today is that I didnt get to call with my boyfriend like I planned ໒꒰ྀི⸝⸝⸝ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ ⌑ ᵒ̴̶̷̣̥̀⸝⸝⸝꒱ྀི১ at least I'll probably get to call with him tomorrow..... I miss him.... Sob sob. ... Ok goodbye kiku nation

꒰ 2026年3月22日 ꒱
Today I got to call with my boyfriend 👀👀👀 very very happy I had so much fun playing with him ohhhh I love him 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 I also got to call with a tiktok mutual for the first time and it was very awkward but I guess it was alright..... I don't like stepping out of my boundaries and calling with new people 💔. I'm right now calling with my best friend and we've been playing a golden kamuy dating sin which is really funnt we also played the Sims trying to make the gk cast and ended up goofing off PRETENDING TO BE THE CHARACTERS and messing around imcrine I HAD SO MUCH FUN TODAY. I am glitched and corrupted

꒰ 2026年3月23日 ꒱
Today really fucking sucks my dog ripped his tendon and he'll have to go into surgery later. I love my baby and I really hate to see him in so much pain right now I feel bad even leaving his side I want to be with him until he goes in for surgery, but my parents won't let me stay home and miss school. He actually looked so sad and I wish I could do something to help all I've been doing is just sitting next to him and feeding him treats to get him more comfortable, I even brought down a blanket he likes from my bedroom to let him lay with. I hope he can get the surgery soon and will be okay. Other than that I had to stay after school for band and I really hated that while also having my hair look like shit. Whatever, at least I have golden kamuy to watch later since the new episode comes out today. I also took pictures of the Ayame that grows at the front of my house, and they look really pretty

update I'm about to go to bed, and my day got better. I got to play roblox with my boyfriend for a little which I had fun with, I called with my best friend and watched the newest episode....... koito had a ton or screen time 🩷 I got to eat some cake and my dog is now upstairs sleeping on my floor. It's nice to hear him barking in his sleep since I know he's able to go sleep despite all the pain he is in. It makes me happy knowing he always goes to me whenever he's scared or lonely and that my bedroom is also his safe space. I'm happy my day got a little better 🩷

꒰ 2026年3月24日 ꒱
OK I'M ABOUT TO GO TO BED BUT TODAY WAS SO FUN I GOT TO CALL WITH MY BESTFRIEND AND THE CLIPS WE LITERALLY TOOK R SO FUNNY genuinely why r we the most funniest people on this earth genuinely the second we make these jokes OTHER PEOPLE GET TO THEM. WE r the OG THUNDER BROTHERS GO BACK TO FLIPPING PATTIES AND THROWING BURGER BUNS AROUND but holy crap I hadn't laughed so hard in ages like this it actually hurt to laugh 💔💔 also my dog seems to be doing better I had to feed one of his pills with peanut butter and I never knew he loved peanut butter that much, after he got really sleepy and he went to sleep after. My baby 🩷 I ALSO FOUND OUT THE DUDE WHO SITS NEXT TO ME IN MATH CLASS ALSO REALLY LIKES HISTORY. Hopefully I can talk to him more tomorrow but we had a good conversation about history and the issues Cuba faces today it was really fun that I finally met someone irl whose just as much as a freak as I am when it comes to history, and he knows I'm a #BASED marxist

꒰ 2026年3月25日 ꒱
I LITERALLY HAD SO MUCH FUN TODAY other than the fact the guy at my school who acts weird to me has been bothering me again, I made a new friend at school FINALLY, he also really likes history and has a lot of the same views as me 👀👀👀 very very fun I have someone new to rant to about history 🩷🩷🩷 I also had so much fun calling with my wonderful boyfriend it was funny when we had to keep switching from discord to whatsapp because discord BROKE MID CALL!!! whatever i had so much fun and I got to watch him draw and make things 🤤🤤 he's so cute I love him sososoosmuch and hopefully later I get to play with best friend. thubder brother......we posted more on our account yesterday and our videos have finally been doing good so YAY!!!

꒰ 2026年3月26日 ꒱
Today went pretty okay I was able to get a lot of stuff done and I got a 81 on my math test which I'm happy about since I usually don't make good grades in math but wtv it's something I don't even like and I don't plan to pursue in something that requires crazy advanced math💔... Anyways I spent a lot of time texting my boyfriend and my mom got me a slice of cheesecake..... Yummy 👀👀👀 I also got a new layout for my discord and FINALLY changed my banner color.... Rip pink💔💔💔 but me and boyfriend are still #matching and he picked one of my favorite photos to match with... YAY!!! also I suddenly just got really overwhelmed out of nowhere for no reason idek what happened I just feel really drained and I can't even listen to music without it stressing me out like crazy. My sister left the light on in the hallways and I can see it though my doorway and it's really bothering me I can't actually ohmygod and I don't feel like talking to anyone anymore but my friend wants to call so💔.... Whatever I'm gonna have to suck it up but it's genuinely driving me insane

꒰ 2026年3月27日 ꒱
I am at. My band performance. Judges are grading us and I've been sitting in the theater room watching the other bands preform. Literally my class is so immature and everyone is so loud and being disrespectful to the people preforming also the fact that one of the players (I know it's one of the trumpet players OF COURSE.) SCREAMING OUR TEACHERS NAME WHEN SHE WENT UP WITH THE FRESHMEN BAND?? PLS SHUT UP OH MY GODDD WE ARE GONNA GET YELLED AT LATER. I'm already so tired and exhausted and we haven't even played and idk if any of my family came because I know my mom didn't wanna drive all the way to this high school and my dad just never really goes and idk if my grandma is actually going😿😿😿 whatever my boyfriend is here in spirit.... I can't wait to play my favorite piece I really love the seal lullaby I'll write more later after our performance 🩷.
OHHH I CAME OUT HAPPY TO LOOK LIKE A MESS. MY MASCARA GOT INTO MY EYES. AND I HAD to wIPE IT OFF WITH MY HANDS BECAUSE IT WAS STINGING AND MAKING MY EYES TEAR UP. I lowkey messed up like CRAZY during the sight reading portion but I did okay on our main pieces.... Lets hope we get all superior... 🩷 also why tf are we leaving at 9:50 IN THE EVENING. I LEFT AT 5PM AND NOW IT'S GONNA BE 30 minutes BACK TO OUR HIGH SCHOOL.

꒰ 2026年3月28日 ꒱
Today was decent I finally got my new bed in but I was forced to wake up so early after being exhausted from yesterday, feeling kinda like poop right now but hopefully my day will go on to be better I'll probably update this before I go to bed
Actually no today has been shit I hate everyone

꒰ 2026年3月29日 ꒱
I woke up decently I'm happy with my new bed, yesterday did end up getting better so YAY! I got to call with my bestfriend and we were dialectically materialisming everything which was resllyeeffoc HE EVEN DREW ME A FACE FOR MY KOITO COSPLAY;!! SO I'm happy with that. Right now I'm kinda waiting again today to call with my boyfriend and I asked like 2-3ish hours ago but I'm assuming he forgot again but wtv I need to learn how to stop getting so butt hurt over small things. I just wish my time was cared for more, because it's like this with everyone I always have to change my schedule for everyone else but it feels like no one does the same for me 💔💔💔 that's what I get for being a people pleaser LOL ok anyways I might try and clean up my room so my room looks really pretty again 😴😴😴 maybe I'll ask for some robux later to upload the koito face so I can wear it soon!!!! ALSO SPRING BREAK IS OFFICIALLY A WEEK FROM NOW SO ONCE I'M DONE WITH THIS WEEK I'M FREE!!!!!!!! YAYYYY
Um whatever ig I hate feeling like I'm some chore to others I really hate feeling like a dog and im just supposed to be ok with everything laughing emoji #yolo #blessed why has the past two days been evil on me sweats I wish I was taken seriously for once
Today was really eventful ummmm..m.m I had fun calling with my best friend he made me feel better after I felt like poop all day, we met new golden kamuy fans on roblox so YAY!!!! I'm grateful for my best friend and hopefully I'll be able to send that package to him before his 18th birthday 🩷 my big brother for life anyways lets hope tomorrow is a better day

꒰ 2026年3月30日 ꒱
YOOO it's barely even this day and I can't FRICKING SLEEP 😂😂😂 YOOO WHO PRAYING ON MT DOWNFALL STOP 😂😂😂 CHILL 😂😂😂😂😂 do I finally give in and cut or will I just ruin my skin and have ugly scars for the rest of my life ummmmmm idk man idk I've went through every emotion possible since 12am, wtf is happening bro God bless SWEATS yoyoyo I think I'm gonna do it I like pain anyways #masochist 😂
Ok today is absolutely crazy ummm I'm happy to say it ended off decent, I got to talk to my boyfriend and he helped make me feel better after all of that ummmm I lovr my boyfriend I'm so thankful he's there to comfort me when I need it🩷🩷 I also got to watch the new gk episode with my bestfriend and it was SOOO GOOD WILK LITERALLY USED THE QUOTE CHE GUEVARA SAID????? HOLY POOP?? I love all the revolutionary stuff in this anime PLUS while also being about the time period iLOVE!!!!

꒰ 2026年3月31日 ꒱
Today was so much better, I finally got news about my glasses and I'll be able to get them on Thursday!! I'll finally be able to see again without hurting my eyes so much and I'm so excited!!!!! I also got to text my boyfriend a good amount today and I made a tumblr account... My boyfriend made cute little drawings of gunma and florence... Awwww our babies florma canon🩷 ummmm I just really love him and later I called with my bestfriend and his BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW!!!!!!! YAY!!!!! We also made a new friend (we already had them added on roblox but we started properly talking to them) and they seem really nice.... Today was really good 🩷🩷🩷 the only thing I had bad was that the cuts from before still sting i feel so stupid for even doing that and I hope nobody like irl knows about it because I'll genuinely cry but I'm happy today overall has been nice🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

꒰ 2026年4月02日 ꒱
TODAY WAS AMAZING kinda I GOT MY. GLASSES!!! I CAN SEE!!! I never really realized how blurry everything was even up close so finally have glasses is a BLESSING!! I also did TWO RENTRY TRADES TODAY?? I for like 2k robux but I gave the other gift card to my best friend as a birthday gift.... He still has more. gift.......but after we played a new game on roblox and it was SO FUNN I finally played with the GC again and everyone so nice even though I barely talk I only message like once a month and disappear but so fun🩷 only part of today I hate was crying in the car because my dad was stressing me out with his dumb bs about how water and food is not a human right and I'm "pro slavery" for believing everyone deserves the basic necessities to survive.... Ummmm.... Hopefully tomorrow I can call longer with my boyfriend because unfortunately MY DAD MADE ME STAY OUT FOREVER and made it where I only could call for an hour with him😿😿 at least he won't have school tomorrow and after tomorrow for me I AM ON BREAK!!! YAYYYA anyway ya yayayayay ALSOOO MY DOG GETS HIS SURGERY ON THE 20TH!!! or maybe even the 13th if we get lucky enough but I'm happy my baby will get his leg fixed and he won't be in any more pain🩷🩷🩷

꒰ 2026年4月04日 ꒱
I hate how cold my dad is now to me it's been like 2 days since I cried in the car after that incident and I think he finally hates me lmfao, it's not like he genuinely cared about me anywahs because he never said anything about the noose I purposefully left out and I was always just called a crybaby nobody in my house eben knows about my suicide attempts nor about me ever sh myself. I know I hated my dad because of his political views but I like him when he talks about music or watches movies with me and now he basically avoids me and I know he purposefully talks loud so I can hear him joking and playing around with my older sister. Ok I wanna leave this house k don't think I can take this longer of feeling like a stranger in my own home
ok I feel better after crying for a good bit, I talked with my boyfriend 😴😴😴 I love my boyfriend yesterday when we called we finally did that couple drawing all about us thing and it was SO FUN I also played a ton with my best friend and we gonna call in a bit 😴😴 LALALALALALALLA yesterday was so fun but I stayed up until 1 calling so I was too lazy to make an entry yesterday #TSURUMIDRHOTDOG