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Main. Stabook - Some stuff I would like to link this. The tick counter bc I saw other people doing this and i'm lowkey easily influenced so I made it as well
This page is #dedicated to Sol/Seren aka the best person in the world #peaceandlove in planet earth
Basic english lesson
She's = she is
He's = he is
Me = Emotionless
Aura.
Called me a foid
I remembered about my genshin alt account
oh hello nefer what are you doing here even
- S
So stupid
i like the umbrella...
- S
Sometimes, juuuust sometimes of course, I think about deleting discord... Well there's not many places I would go to to be fair but sometimes discord is so annoying and makes me want to kill myself from time to time. Or well? I guess I could say it's the places I usually frequent, I have been on Discord for some good 6 years now and all I have gotten was shitty relationships with my ex-friends and my fair share amount of stress over small things. I just don't delete it because I want to talk with you here and I think it would be a nuisance to change to either:
A) Whatsapp
B) Instagram, which for example is the worst as I don't actually check it
C) Telegram, horrible
D) Twitter (?)
Out of all these options Whatsapp is the better one but to be fair, it's quite annoying to change and I wouldn't get so used to using these to communicate with you, so you may or may not be the reason I'm currently still on Discord. Ignore my last phrase youn are definitely the only reason I'm still on Discord, it feels like cancer. Like imagine you are just living your life but you have a tumor on your head telling you to use Discord but I can't say anything because the most special person to me is in Discord and does not actually use the other apps to communicate as often as Discord jesus christ I'm so miserable with this app sometimes. You are like the only person I would take a picture with your name on my thigh and use it as my banner, don't you see how romantic this is?? Changing topics a bit I think I am gonna go to the bakery right now.. As.. Uh, well, embarrassing as it might be for me currently with my super bad situation of "I don't care enough about my glasses to the point they broke" and I don't wanna look like a complete dipshit who is blind whilst buying bread and some unhealthy stuff to eat
discord is hardly worth it, but because it's one of the most active communication apps i doubt i bring myself to leave
i've been on the app for years and it wouldn't feel the same to switch to something else either
i hope the effect of those events can diminish overtime... i know how terrible your ex-friends are, it's unfortunate you have to deal with this stuff
maybe you using it solely because of me might create a positive association mentally at some point? let's pray
i can try switching to another app if you'd like, i don't mind that if it makes you more comfortable! i may forget from time to time though since it'll take some time getting used to
that's yandere code... so romantic
- S
That art I made for you was kind of a woahh I.. I actually pretty much liked it. I don't think you'd see it how I saw it in my eyes but to be fair?? I think like uhhh I think that I never really did this for everyone else.. Like uh, well, full on with colors and cool pose and whatever.. I kind of feel like I'm supperrr in love with life right now and will do my best to do some stuff, sorry for not sending you lots of messages though!! I kind of am in a small limbo where I want to message you but I know I will be oh so sad that you're gonna take a little bit to reply because of your vacation, which I technically have to thug out because I would wait an eternity for you either way. A shoutout to you for staying wityh me for this long without getting weirded out, although I do have my share fair of friends that also don't consider me a weirdo (Navy, Yampák, Finn, and my sibling Honk), I should make a tierlist maybe.. It would be cool to tierlist the people you know and I would also definitely do them with my "enemies".
I'm also very thankful for you to be handling my super uncool moodswings you probably didn't notice these few days but I'm very thankful for you distracting me from whatever happened in that server.. I still can't believe in that SOB
our perspectives on your art tend to be different yes
i know you haven't! it's beautiful, you put so much effort into it
no worries at all if you don't send lots of messages! i'm sorry about my reply times, it's sadly a given because i'm not at home
why would i get weirded out? you're a normal person, anyone who thinks you're "weird" is exaggerating, and anyone who doesn't has my respect
i don't know if a friend tierlist would be the best idea unless it stays private because it could make someone insecure and/or offended by their ranking, enemies would be funny though
your mood swings aren't uncool! i have mood swings too, it's nothing unusual, and the mood swings are reasonable anyway given they're typically a logically expected response to a negative event (which i'm glad i could help distract from)
- S
am gonna say it here because i worry i'll bother you...
i hope i'm not acting too different today or annoying you because of it/something else... i doubt i would annoy you (and it's perfectly fine if you hypothetically were) and i haven't been given any reason to believe you are, but i think i have been acting different! i don't know what's up with me! please accept my sincerest apologies, i enjoy talking to you very much despite my strange behaviors
i also don't plan to make it a habit to over-apologize or ask for reassurance, i'd hate to do something toward you that's commonly seen as irritating among other reasons, but i expected to feel worried about being a bit of a nuisance at some point when i got self-conscious
would also like to apologize that your responses to the fetish list got deleted because i forgot to include them in the edit
- S
^ As I mentioned before, you don't actually bother me or I wouldn't dream of you bothering me, I just say soemtimes you're quite annoying and the worst person ever because in reality you are the opposite.. You are very dear and the best person ever for me and I just think every time I also mention you as something bad it's either a joke or you will hear me talking about how good you are and I'm gonna be seen like I'm praising you quite a lot but I just enjoy praising you.. I might add this to my fetish list instead, the good ones, obviously < Also don't worry!! Despite you not being a nuisance you sometimes obviously get on my nerves but that's not even related... Also that's so mean of you to delete my responses youre taking my autonomy, besides. I don't think you would bother me that much and saying again but you would never bother me, per contra; you actually make my day insanely better and I never wished to stay by the side of someone so bad in my entire life, I even learnt how to pray kind of?w So i could pray for your health and to have a good life in the future and that I'm in said future if I manage that despite not being that religious. I jsut think we are past the bothers and we just act like the ultimate married couple sometimes. I just think it's silly of you to think you would bother me because most of the time I don't even would notice if you did. Technically because I got romanced by you without well, the romanced part but it's just that I'm technically somewhat?? blind?? to what you do to me and generally I don't even care, besides I think we already do lots of thing that is commonly well, seen as irritating among others but that's what makes it us.. If you think about it, we don't have much to care about what most social stuff says about it and how we should act with each other
yay! i'm glad to hear that, thank you
you're also quite annoying and the worst person ever (sarcasm)
i know those are jokes don't worry, these feelings are unrelated to anything you've said
re-type E2 for having a flattery fetish
i'm sorry for taking your autonomy... i didn't mean to... please forgive...
you make my days better too, this is the first time in a while that i've felt fulfilled
you learnt how to pray? in wat way? i'm curious, but thank you for your prayers... i will also wish for your health and good future and that you're in dat future with me
we've barely been dating how can we act like a married couple? are we the GOATs?
it's good to maintain some level of decorum, social standards are important, but there's no reason to listen to people's strict subjective standards
Sol - If you think about it this guy's name can be an anagram for faggot
Me - ????
you hate it when i state a fact
- S
lain's fetish list:
degradation by me specifically < Okay that might be true but It's just that I like attention this literally goes to praise and to everyone's praise and whayever okay sorry i'm rambling < this is an unbiased list you didn't need to explain yourself - S
being killed by me specifically < not true < true - S
soon to be other things i discover
- S
Yeah she doesn't want to kill me after saying we should be the polyester azuretime couple from tiktok, and she said that she hates me because she doesnt want to kill me and that bascially means she doesnt love me and shes being really mean to me, because. She killed me. but now she is refusing to kill me after saying that she would kill me jsut because I said I would like it???
hello! i'm a two time fictionkin kindating my azure fictionkin! i will express my love exclusively with shallow phrases! i promise i'm not an NPC
i'm refusing to kill you because i'm not feeding into your fetish, witch
sadly i can't burn you at the stake because that would also be feeding into it
- S
this girl keeps claiming i have fetishes because i randomly brought up something that can technically be a fetish even though i didn't bring it up within a fetishistic context, please free me
- S < Says the person that has:
- A fetish for beating me up
- A fetish for teasing me
- A fetish for being right
- Putting me in submissive positions ( dom ) < (I'm literally the alpha between me and her) and despite eerything she is like, insanely dominant for absolutely no reason even if she doesn't actually realize it, or i'm just super submissive because I kind of do whatever she wants and asks me to
- Fat fetish?????I don't know brah she wants to make me fat by saying I should eat more when I'm like. Already fat. That's not cool you should try to IDK induce ED into me or soemthing
- lEGs, amputees, whatevr
- Mesophilia, attracted to older people apparently
1) no
2) i enjoy teasing you but this isn't the same as having a fetish
3) as all people should
4) i think it's because you're receptive to me that i can be more assertive and stubborn around you, i'm generally not like that whatsoever, a friend of mine i talked to recently about earlier interpersonal struggles had for example told me i was "too nice" and gave people too many chances; this is a good thing, it means you allow me to be on equal footing with you
5) you are not already fat and i am not trying to make you fat by telling you to eat properly
6) no
7) in the 30-50 range because that's aura, further than that is unattractive
- S
Someone on tiktok was insulting me for e-dating, I think I will add it to one of my reasons to strangle myself because come on!!What even is the issue we are in like. 2026. Imagine complaining about edating in 2026. I cant believe people on tiktok sometimes Ohhhh ym godjust. just stop
i think people act way too silly about e-dating
the accounts you see may be pixels on the screen but there's real people behind them that you can emotionally connect with and grow closer to, it's not a stretch to assume that if you can be genuine friends with someone on the internet then you can be in a romantic relationship with them too
i think people who can only love someone if they've met them in-person are a tad superficial... you could argue that love in long distances is more "real" (not to claim i believe this, i'm only stating it's something you could argue) your continued attachment toward that person is for them, people are more than the physical space they occupy
- S < I wouldn't mind labelling us as edaters at some point I just find the term slightly funny... Especially because for some reason, people always will think said relationship will last only a week or two in their own TikTok videos and ETC but I just think it's funny. As someone who well, obviously had almost all of my relationships online, I just don't see it as a topic worthy of such hate because come on!! You don't go to people who are dating IRL and just what. Hhaahaha youre real life dating idot. And to be fair yes I know that it's fairly because long distance relationships require way more than person-in-person relationships, because with them you can actually do stuff together IRL like well, hugging.. going on dates.. and it's generally more easy to be with the other person. Obviously I don't hate person-to-person per se, it's just that online relationships feel deeper sometimes because you are willingly staying with someone and texting them and well!! Trying to make it work out with someone, of course after some time it can stop being online but you never forget the bond you made. Speaking about this, I should draw me and you marrying, do you want to be in a suit or in a dress?
i don't want to be labelled as an e-dater admittedly i find the term a bit embarrassing
it's funny because i was told that my relationship with my ex would only last a week or two, a month at most, and the relationship ended up lasting a year! people have only seen "e-daters" with superficial relationships, though i don't understand why people are biased against this because real life relationships don't have less capacity to be shallow, and assume because of that and another reason that there's no way it'd last long
to be fair, no one does that to people in real life because it's normalized, but i understand what you're trying to convey
suit, tuxedo dresses are also good if you've seen them
- S
Sol I miss you a lot can you stop travelling already or travel faster I just know. I just know you can ask the bus driver to quiy his job and then Charon will go and do the chimmy thing. And will reckless drive but at least it will be more faster than whatever Sorry I just miss you and I'm grieving like a hosuewife who's husband went to war and never came back, although It's just because I have some serious case of stockholm syndrome when it comes to you, possibly. Sometimes I wonder if the people who read this ( as I still can't believe people do,) will think you're actually abusing me, no Sol isn't but sometimes she just hits me, and then I will weep and eughhh my phones are both charging slowly and it's driving me crazy by every minute. It's been 2 hours. why are you still both on 30~40... Anyways I just wanted to say I really love you, it's funny coming from me since I say I love you all the time to you and to everything but I just came to a realization that I love you more than I lvoe everything else, if that makes sense.. You're just way too special for me to not, and I would proudly say I love you without a care in the world and without making it sound way too... "polyester", as apparently differently than that one eprson I showed you on tiktok, this page kind of technically exists, I lvoe you a lot 🧡🧡And you make me feel comofrtable and safe now which is somwthing people never reeeeeally made me before.. You know, it's nice to have someone who understands you, who talks and criticizes and do whatever with you, who is your friend, your best friend, and partner. I will make this my status but,, you know that one music? tongue tied? the suepr "cringy" (i dont really find it to be cringy) DSMP assigned music apparently? I really like the " I loved you then and I love you now " It just feels right for me to say that to you, as I always have been kind of enamored by you, as in my sense of admiration reaching a Don Quixote level, kind of, and technically because I really seeked out to be like you. As you were my biggest inspiration for a good time, I don't know I just feel like I don't have to fake anything with you like I would do with other people, as you know I have HPD and am prone to making things way too dramatic and well, everything else.. but I just feel like I have no necessity to do that with you as you quite literally handle me like you'd handle something precious in my view, and I feel very loved by you, despite you obviously getting on my nerves sometimes (not as much, though, it's just that I get angry at you existing from time to time and I feel like I have some type of love aggression regarding you. Of course I would never show it to you though, I'm jsut aggressive towards myself) and iubwuirfbikr I just really feel like I am special to you and you make me feel special and. I love making you feel special and seen as well??? Yo u know I'm kind of very amazed by the fact we don't have to romantically say I love you to each other, but being romantically affectionate despite anything is just amazing.. and Affectionate in general, I feel like a birdbrained person when I talk about love as my ideals of love is just.. well, i explained it earlier here, but it's just that I express my affection too greatly and sometimes I wish I met you sooner so I could be more affectionate with you, like.. double the affection, despite well, already doing that half of the time as I unconicously feel the need to always be there for you and whatnot but its just that I lvoe you a lot, you have became a very great part of my routine and you gave me a good goal in life. I just feel like it's good to talk about our emotions and we do it way freely, which is something I admire a lot
i'm sorry lain-chama but there's no way the bus could travel faster < Yes it does < no it can't - S
charon reckless driving in the real world with an actual bus would mean i'd die? unless she has mephistopheles < No you woudln't die < just lying - S
i know for a fact there's going to some person who's going to read this and complain about how we (two women who're dating) are putting ourselves into heteronormative roles and accuse us of being patriarchybrained on your atabook < Well!! I don't really mind these terms it's not as if we are acting misogynsitic to each other, which even if it would be the case I don't think it would be coming from you, or well me as well I just don't think we would actually be it either wya, you're the love of my life brah obviously I would accept anything you say about our tropes < i mind them because heteronormativity and patriarchy is homophobic and misogynistic, i'd never want to subscribe to that - S
you're not making a convincing argument for why i don't abuse you by lying about me hitting you? classic gaslighting from an abuser
i'm surprised you just realized that you love me more than anything else considering you have a 15+ MB text file dedicated to me but we all have epiphanies at different paces
i love you too lain-chama < 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡
not even your cats make you feel comfortable and safe? you're doing a disservice to crystal
there's not a lot of people i'm open with which i've mentioned before, but i feel comfortable being open around you for the same reasons you don't feel uneasy around me, i know you'd always take what i have to say into consideration; i hope i'm not too stubborn about any of my views since 'tis a bad habit, i wouldn't want you to feel imposed on < I'm generally very happy that you feel comofrtable and open around me, for me that's a big win since it's what I msotly seek out with the people I talk with and I usually and I'm really glad you feel that way.. And no, you're not stubborn and even if you were it's a little bit charming isn't it? There's always someone who's gonna be super stubborn about a topic, even I am, for example, about me swearing to life now that I might be E3 in some type of way as I realized my trauma fits more the 3 than the 7's. But well it's just that I don't mind your bad habits and if anything I would definitely try to help you with them, remember when I said friends should be there for your ups and downs? That's how I still feel about you.. You're forever my hero and I feel like we help each other out a lot < of course, it's only natural because you're a kind and accepting person! it's not charming to be stubborn but you find anything cute, i don't mind your bad habits either and i want to help in that regard just as much; no comment on the typology because i disagree but i wish you the best in figuring it out - S
>I really seeked out to be like you. As you were my biggest inspiration for a good time
were implying i'm not your biggest inspiration anymore? why are you evil < !!TRIGGER WARNING: TW: TRUTH!! You never stopped being my inspiration it's jsut that is has been a while since you made soemthing LOL, that goes equally for me < i will make something soon, currently i'm lazy - S
thank you though i want to have a positive impact on all of my friends' lives and you are 100% one of those people, i'm happy knowing i can do even small things like allowing you to act true to yourself
not to brag because i'm more baffled than anything but? i don't understand how i keep having this effect on people? do i hypnotize you guys? WTF is happening
i also have a lot of admiration for you, there's a lot of times where i've been amazed in the sense of "i wish i could manage [X] as well as lain does, i don't know how she can do it" < You could always ask me... you know < this is true - S
you are special to me, which means i'm doing well at conveying how i feel
i believe you mentioned this here earlier but it's just as important to be your partner's friend as it is to be their partner, loving them non-romantically is pre-requisite
- S
- Thank you a lot??? I guess?w for reading it?? I wanted to put this ask in specific here now because I kind of realized it was such a great thing to talk about and it was too great to stay in my atabook, but we met through Rentry official (of course had to be rentry) and well, we talked and then made a group with other 3 people but the group kind of went on their ways??? kind of?w IDK one of them was lowkey a pedophile starting kit, either way.. I started talking to her because I rlly, rlly wanted to commission her and I was like oh my fucking god its her.. I saw her before dude.. becuase YES. I did know her before and I was like oh my fucking god.. after that, of course, I decided to keep talking and I disocvered she really liked tpyology and we started discussing typolgoy, I always have this one quirk where I get to know people a LOT by doing simple stuff and we kind of ended up talking quite lots by then, I then started obviously giving her my nightly goodnights which is always a sign of "You. you are my friend now. my frriend." and!! we just bonded super greatly and now I am the annoyance to her life and she kind of abuses me
- we will try, thakk you
i don't abuse you and you don't annoy me but otherwise accurate description of events
i'm autist and am having trouble telling if the anon is being serious about wanting us to break up but i appreciate that anon felt deeply moved enough to wish us something < Yes I think it's satire and to be fair, I don't obviously see us as an abusive couple. We are like, possibly the healthiest one I ever had and I kind of see us as just.. People together, It's not like I haven't always been glued to you since the start of our relationship (when I started texting you everyday) and obviously for people and us, we should definitely be seen as a healthy relationship!! I just think we fit it a lot anyways "A healthy relationship is built on mutual respect, trust, and open communication. It allows both people to feel safe, valued, and free to be themselves." and to me, and for us, honesty is always better than any label < i think i brought it up before, but it's definitely possible that the presentation of attachment styles shift depending on the relationship because i look more secure in relationships i feel safe in - S
- shoutouts to these other 2 asks which badly cropping of IPs
BTW I really wanted to change my pfp but I am scared of asking to unmatch with you but I really like the matching pfp we have either way but we are already matching in some good places but I would ask..mayhbe to match somewhere else as well.. but I also equally wanted to change ym discord profile overall and be very nonchalant (not really as I cant really be such thing, I jsut like minimalism and maximalism at the same time which stresses me out, thank you for taming me with pfps though even if I'm the one who asks to match all the time), and I really wanted to use the pfp I use on my pronouns.page on discord instead and besides that, I kind of noticed you have been more social these past few days despite [removing what was here because it was something i admittedly don't want to share openly, gomen for removing your writing lain-chama... - S], which I think has no correlation but I wanted to pooint out that I like how you improved on your views and speech patterns considered I remember you were like. Very sad. looking. Instead of the common"scary" we talked about before as I never really saw you as scary or anything close to bad but it's just that you kind of sounded like a sad wet cat. and that made me want to oooohhh my hod my my music I was lsitening just did a super bad bass boosted whatever on my headphones my ear FUCKING HURTSSSSS anywways. I just wanted to say I love how you kind of improved a lot in these past 4 months and somtimes you just sound so fucking nerdy and dreamy I really love you I think I really really am in love with you although I probably said this a thousand of times, as I love everything.. I just love you a little bit more than everything now. Do you know how embarrassing it is to like, have my sister goo and knock on my door and ask if I'm calling with you?w my entire family knows you, and I also told them we were dating which makes it even more embarrassing but I don't mind it to be fair, I just want to know what they have on their head considering well, a 2 day call is still a 2 day call like get outtttt!!!Get otu!! I'm right where i want to be brah I will strangle myself I will literally strangle myself I WILL STRANGLE MYSELFFFF SHE DID THIS LAST AFTERNOON WHEN WE WERE WATCHING HETALIA I think it was because I haven't eaten and well, she went to my door (which I muted myself so you wouldn't hear incoherent portuguese as thats what you hear) and she went just. Ana??w Ana?? Are you still?? Calling ??? with Sol? (as yes, they eqully know you as Sol, as seren is way too difficult for them to remember) Can you go eat something and not starve yourself? and I was like Oh ok ok sorry. I will go... and well I had to eat which was the time I had to leave the room to grab the infamous kitchen and flour but like come onn she really likes you as well, I jsut never introduced you to her because she obviously doesn't know english. Although I talk about you every now and then and my therapist knows your name more than my disorders, I never knew talking to strangers would be so meaningful in my life as always
you say this as if i don't agree to your requests to match? i like matching with you a lot so i'm also responsible < I really RRELLY REALLYYYY love matching with you It's just that I have the urge to change my PFP every single now and then, and I fear that would Irritate you a little bit
i dunno what caused the change but i think i have been slightly more social? i think having you as company might've influenced me in this regard somehow, especially since i'm no longer a sad-looking wet cat according to you, but i'm not sure what specifically about that led up to this
- It might probably be because you are generally a wet cat.. I just feel like you got way happier and you are seeming less.. Depressed, overall, and I'm very happy about that because you deservbe to be happy < i'm not a wet cat :( - S
it's a good thing lain-chama likes nerdy people this explains everything
lain-chama has a way with words that possesses me into saying i love her back< AWWHWWH I LOVE YOU TOO
as embarrassing as that is i find the idea that your family has heard so much about me that they automatically assume or know who you're with very funny too, if it helps reassure you i don't mind your family members interrupting the call
you can watch hetalia with your girlfriend just don't starve yourself
your sister has an opinion about me? we haven't even met but i'm glad to hear that i've made a good impression, i wonder wat your therapist thinks of me...
- S
AMannnn i'm so amazed by all the pictures you're showing me I don't think i can explain well but I really like landscapes.. They make me remember the time I had when I used to visit rural areas with my old people, and it makes me very happy seeing them. Or well it's just the fact that seeing you go outside in general is like a wonder to me, what a surprise.. I'm still gonna miss doing a lot of stuff with you that you'd normally do without going on a trip, as I really wanted to finish watching Hetalia with you as I found it way too funny for my own good and I really enjoy seeing you do stuff either way, and screensharing. OOhhhh how I love seeing you screensharing all my life all I have done was seeing people screenshare stuff and I just feel likeOkk whateverrr I wasn't always able to screenshare stuff for my obvious issues but whatever man whatyeber now I can screenshare and I'm happy its just that you are always distracted and I feel like a sad, sad cat but actually despite being heavily disordered I kind of am like a cat??? Like. you know when cats want attention but only on their terms? that's so me, with you, of course, but the thing is that I wanr your attention all the time and I gave you attention equally. I just really love your attention.. And I like when its to me, in specific.. I really want you to enjoy your trip although I know you don't like going out much, I still hope it's fun either way and that you enjoy it!! Kisses kissed and hearts I really wish you enjoy yourself
I also kind of have this bad habit now where whenever we are calling, I start act pretty Insouciant and mostly will like, end up in a sleepy state because yes every time you show me doing stuff I'm really, really paying attention to it to a degree it kind of tires me out and all I want to do is sleep, but of course I excuse myself to sleep way after because I really. really like watching you do stuff...and you're like absolutely crazy for your attention span but to be fair I kind?? of jsut have?w ahdhd?? kind of? I'm vbery disordered I can t believe you like me < Acting like you're not prone to also be disordered either way, I also started wanting to check out Stanley parable because of you, thank you for the DID protagonist x Annoying british narrator
i wish i had more landscape photos to send you and give you more nostalgia! lain-chama deserves more if the photos remind her of something nice
me (hikikomori NEET) never goes outside which is why everytime i do it has to be treated like a special occasion
i'll still try hanging out with you however i can while i'm not at home, and i'll let you know the few days i'll be mostly inaccessible
i'm sorry for being distracted! i'm doing my best to give you attention you deserve because that's something i genuinely want to do (as i'd want to see you happy) but it's easy for me to lose focus when something else has interested me, but i'll put more effort into it so that you don't have to be sad
implying cats can't be heavily disordered? cat ableism
thank you! i hope the time without me isn't too hard to endure
if you feel sleepy on call then you should sleep! you don't have to sleep early if you like watching me do things but don't push off sleep for too long either
i don't think someone's disorders have to make them unlikable, i know yours don't make me think less of you! but yes i'm not one to judge because i am also mentally unwell
- S
Also, these apst few days I haven't been feeling much capable of change but i’d like people to see that i’m capable of more, but honestly i’m just really, really lazy which in a way also means i might not be capable of more… oh well. I'm such a walking contradiction that it hurts
even someone who thinks they're lazy can be capable of more, i think you could achieve what you wanted if that's something you're set on
- S
These past few days I also kind of noticed how easily she is to rage bait, not to be that one person of course!! But I just really, really love accidentally or not-so accidentally ragebaiting her by well. As someone who uses tiktok like a druggie. I obviously know all the topics almost, so it makes me very prone to "accidentally" dumping a small piece of annoying information regarding a topic we are talking about in the moment.. and it's just so cute. just super cute. to see her. all aggravted like that. She also really wants to see the 16MB .txt file I have entirely about her but oh man.. how do I start this... I think I really wanted to mention she is very embarrassed sometimes and also that she is a huge problem solver despite all the odds she say about herself, I just kind of notice all the time she does a lot of not-so-useful but well. very useful. research... you can imagine her as someone who has like, 10 thousand tabs open (which by the way, I freak about every time i see her screensharing because i'm the "UGH. I HAT. I DISLIKE. I DISLIKE TABS" person and I really dislike them with passion when I finish something and don't close them) and to be fair, she kind of has an NPC routine,,, not to mention, if you have a bad typology take, you will possibly be prone to getting a whole essay on it and I kind of love that about her. What do you mean. What do you mean you are so easily irritated you do that. I love you??? You say you don't have passions or consider yourself an actual fan of something but then you will end up doing shit like that. such a lie. Sometimes I just feel like i'm making old fienld journals people make about birds. liek, i don't know how to explain it.. I just enjoy her company a little too much by the way sometimes I feel like I have known her for ages, I don't know if I mentioned this yet here but we have way too many calls that are 2 days long and sometimes I wish I kind of i don't know??? Did this earlier?? I really love calling with you and sometimes I feel like I am being annpying but then you go and make me feel like i'm being more annoying but in a good sense since I really like annoying you..youuu are so awfulll you are so awful you keep strawmanning my stuff when I say you're abusing me, you're the worsttttttt what made you think it was a good idea to think that wauy I'm not even abusive... Like come on, i'm literally a housewife, such a pure housewife
you are so mean to me? why do you torture me on purpose? NPD abuser
that reminds me of this video
call me a problem-solver the way i ayanokoji manipulate all my pawns to solve them for me (please do not take seriously)
all my research is useful because it contributes to me eventually rising above einstein as a mathematic genius (please do not take seriously)
i'll try to remove my excessive tabs before i screenshare in the future i don't want to make lain-chama aggravated by the clutter
to be fair, i do consider typology a passion of mine! it's just that i can't express myself through typology the way someone can through a game, anime, etc. and i'm sadly still an amateur at typology, i'd like something i can call my own
i hope you'll eventually feel assured enough to not have to worry about annoying me, you never do!
you're the awful impure abusive strawmanner here, plz don't deflect
- S
I really enjoy talking with her while doing something, it's a big de-stresser for me and I really am into the idea of spending the time I should supposedly be folding my clothes & etc, texting her. Because welll.... She kind of is travelling right now / on a trip and I realllyyyy will miss mostly calling with her for this week, especilly because i'm pretty sure we won't be able to unless she confirms it but i'm very much of a pussy to ask.. Either way, I really liked the images she showed me a lot and they look hyper pretty. Very. very amazing. and wonderful.
I should be doing stuff like these often, as someone's who is technically a high achiever in life and often puts stuff to achieve in my hierarchy list, one of these is wanting to live in a cool country ( which for her preference, would have a good healthcare overall and no pests, which already kind of fucks her over as well, I am a pest.) and well, live a peaceful life kind of... Of course it will take a good time though, that kind of preparation doesn't come instantly and I should be focusing on the stuff I have for now to make such dream come true, for example: get a high-paying job, get stability and surely seek for countries that are accepted within mine and her passport, I think turkey and brazil don't need visa either... Anyways, I would just get her here temporarily, of course, 3 months is the max limit for her to be in Brazil either, as someone with 3 passports (one being a diplomatic one,) I supposedly wouldn't have issue with it, I think I will take a slice of that life when I get older obviously as I need to have an ACTUAl. STABLE. and well, shoot a bullet through my wallet to make a living out of it. I like Switzerland a lot and I have been there before, as of course someone who have been to around 18 countries or more... I just feel like we could do well there, if we put our mind into it and stay together till then, of course. That is one of my biggest wishes because well!! I'm pretty sure anyone (me) would have a high goal to score (me), and the goal would be giving her a good place to live without the complications of it, if she allows me to stay by her side till then, of course.. Iceland is also very cool
Either way, I seriously think she's british sometimes, also I think she might have a vore fetish.
you're not a pest at all! 1) i am not afraid of you and 2) i like you
goals like that would surely take a long while, but i wish you success in them! lain-chama deserves whatever future will make her happiest
i'll allow you to stay by my side for as long as you want to be
not only am i not british but i don't have a vore fetish, you need to stop spreading lies about what fetishes i have to the public
- S
Today I kind of had my fair share of thinking this girl is actually british instead of turkish
She didn't want to buy my nudes.
got so mad that i started angrily pacing in the living room and rambling to myself not realizing i was too far away from my mic for lain to possibly hear me OK
- S
lain told me that she was making a community just for me and when i looked at her stream she showed me the lesbian community are you freaking serious
- S
I am super super. super mad at her. And I changed my pfp to black. This is a protest because Seren hasn't replied to my messages yet
I still cannot believe you let me buy Nekoweb supoort tier for you.. Well, not that i think you'd refuse, obviously, i think i would end up buying it for you either way. But the thing is.. do you see how cute that is?.... I think I will love seeing whatever you will do with your nekoweb later, today i oind of zoned out a lot while being in call but it was more bevause 1. I was kind of tired (of doing nothing, qpparently, since i havent been doing anything lately) 2. I just?? Kind of love?? Seeing you do rabdom stuff,,, thank you for making the HSR blocktales tier list in my request it was. Very. Very fun to help you deciding who would be hatred, greed, solitude and fear... Second of all, you mentioned that you didnt know I was awake BUT its very prone that Im awake and still just dont want to text you becayse I feel shy & I obviously dont want to bother you, so i just smiggle and lurk around roblox or discord to watch when you are going to reply to me. Lastly, im eating 5 toaster strudels < Also!! I would appreciate if you replied to my earlier qurstions from 2 days ago now I think im still curious on the terms
How I feel when she calls me an NPD abuser
This girl is saying how I'm being evil I just. Really like seeing her angry at topics like this its a little bit cute if you think about it, like I feel like she's going to hit me at any moment and call ME the abuser I'm like i'm giggling i'm rolling around I'm kind out of air right now I really like seeing her agitated I think i will start ragebaiting her a little more one day when I feel hearted enough for it It's really cite its like. It's like an angry kitten. Like when angry kittens get angry and go MRWOWOOW.. MEOW but like very high potiched and oh my god shes adjusting IT AGAINN
I AM NOT AN ANGRY KITTEN
- S < An angry otter, then. OR... An angry individual, sometimes
We are talking about what Hatred's enneagrma would beand I told her someone said hatred would be e6 instead of sx4. And she got like. "NOO NO WHY WOULD HATRED BE E6 ITS ITS LITERALLY THE NAME THE NAME IS "HATE"EEEE NOOO NO. NOOO" AND i'm like holding my laughter now because I got her agitated on purpose because I saw someone saying it on tiktok and I jsut brought uop the topic because I wanted to see her being aggravated and talk quickly because I find it fairly funny and cute. I think she is going to abuse and hit me as soon as she sees this and for fuck's sake SROP CHANGING YOUR PFP TO THE MAID HATRED ON TWITTET PELASE also Okay I still don't sre why the test that we did together said thart i'm E3 and she's E6, she's like, very far from e6 compared to how she is close to e4, i just don't think she could be an e6 and now she is like currently adjustying her twitter PFP again to hatred I can't take it anymore << I'm like holding my laughter right now brcause she noticed a few minutes ago that I was furoously typing this I'm holding ym algughet
why did you make me mad on purpose? why are you an NPD abuser?
i'm sorry i love hatred and don't want to see hatred bastardized. why would hatred ever be "sexual 6"
i will not be commenting regarding the test's accuracy
- S
I SWEAR TO HERMES
I will be gping in my evil arc
There's absolutely NOTHING I dislike more than grape fanta. It's lile. the worst fanta flavour ever???? Who even drinks that?? I'm drinking it rigbt now because I got aburger but dude. its so bad.
How far I went on Termination (QT mod) with: unfair difficulty bot + the fuckass mechacnic, and the attention span of a rotten avocado who can't click spacebar correctly
I dont think anyone would see this tee bee heich click this. youtube video. yes. Megalo strikes back firiday night bloxxin full comvo
Yes the. Dehydration image is a youtube link
Randombut my favorite phrase is "Wouldn't the world be better off if we took nonsense more seriously?" from tha tone philosphoper IDK was it Alan watts i dotn kneo
Sol changed her displaty name dude firstly the status and now the dipslay I think smething evil will happen
"LCB12" is not a real name, at least it won't sound awkward when people call me hatred
having hatred as your display name is also aura
nothing evil is going to happen because i changed my user
- S
Also I wanted to point something else, I kind of started noticing that the moment I gave you access to this, it kind of hasn't been a lovemail anymore?? Kind of, it feels like a joint journal and I really like this sicne well most lvoemaisl only have a single narrator and this technically has 2 now,,, It feels like we're building a philosophy of our relationship together by the fact that well, you argur, expand, teases, disagrees, corrects it, and occasionally make me rethink my own ideas... we kind of have a very funny dynamic if you think about it let me explaun:
Something I always noticed about you is that you translate most of stuff into principles (for example, me saying "love isn't embarrassing" and you probably replying "People think love is embarrassing because...") 1. I tell stuff, you analyze it, I romanticize stuff and you systmatize it isnt it funny I really like it. I thoink it's very distinct to see who's writing what and whatnot < Unironically, I think of me-to-you and at the same time you-to-me as that one steven universe music
Sometimes I'm embarrassed by looking so mentally ill with her I think she deserves a nobel award for handling my histrionic aahh
it is still a lovemail, but it's a lovemail inside a joint journal! i think this is an even better way of showcasing our relationship if anything
>single narrator
like the stanley parable... get it
we're developing a theory of mind through rentry, let our readers stay tuned for our next profound insights
anyway i think that's how conversations work (expanding, teasing, disagreeing, correcting, re-thinking your ideas)! you do the same for me
i'm not a thinking type but you could argue that we are T/F duality in jung, you give me emotional input and i systematize it for you? somewhat like a robot
as if i'm not any less visibly mentally ill around you, we both deserve nobel awards if that's the case
She's so embarrassing I am embarrassing I accidentally doxxed the fact I use an Iphone pro max 16 with 70% battery health to her
why would you doxx yourself like that? don't you know i'm going to find all your personal details with that alone? wait until i find your real name, address, credit card information, etc.
- S
I hope every time you think of gingers you think of me. I'm a very good example of a ginger, mostly because lots of characters and personas I have are gingers with curly hair and brown eyes, well because that's kind of just me
of course i think of you besides ishmael! you're the only ginger i know
- S < I'm super...super flattered..actually...
It's silly that in 4 months I got to know you this much, since well, four months ago isn't a long time on a calender and it almost sounds embarrassing when I say it out loud, yet I know which topics make your voice speed up,,, which ones make it quiet down.. I know when you're asking for reassurance directly and when you're pretending you aren't In my opinion I don't think time alone measures closeness but more like attention does. I don't think I know everything about you, I'd actually hate to, in fact. I like that every week there's some tiny things that makes me go "Oh. I didn't know that. Funny." It means I get to keep meeting you, either way, I think it's impossible to know someone a hundred percent, since well... Humans are tend to change every single time, and there will always be something you will discover about yourself. I think of us as a healthy relationship either way, we have our disagreements and obviously divergences but I think it's way better than being an echo-chamber of each other, as I mentioned before. You know?? It makes me feel very happy because since well, we think so differently, we can grow in our own ways... I just don't know why some people think "loving" anything in general is humiliating though, since being a good person in my views, means having humility < I am happy and unashamed to be a lover of the world, I consider myself a philanthrope by all that means: "Philanthropy is the love of humanity, expressed through private initiatives and gifts of time, money, or skills to promote the public good. It differs from charity by focusing on long-term systemic solutions rather than immediate relief." For instance, sometimes people act as though caring too much is embarrassing, they'll call someone cringe for getting excited over flowers, or for talking about their favorite person too often, or well!! Writing pages like these, i don't really understand it if the alternative is pretending not to care, I'd rather much be sincere << I don't only love you, I love the smell after rain as I noticed, little flowers, songs that remind me of old summers and watching people become excited when they explain soemthing they care about !!! Loving you doesn't replace those things, instead it makes me notice them more, and I love the fact you make me understand a lot of things, which is well, very important to me as well, either way I will always be your numebar 1 fan
four months is a long time in my opinion, and it's a good amount of time for people to get to know eachother (especially since you're attentive, but you already confirm this later into the paragraph because i'm always right)
>i know when you're asking for reassurance and when you're pretending you aren't
how did you even figure that out! i didn't realize i had a tell for that but now i'm embarrassed
learning more about me means you get to keep meeting me... that's poetic and very cyute i could not come up with that
isn't it normal for people to disagree anyway? it's impossible for us to be the exact same person, eventually we won't meet eye-to-eye on something
some people think feeling love is humiliating because they A) look down upon emotion in general, it doesn't help that love is one of the sappiest, and they may try to avoid or dislike when they feel something strongly and/or B) value being non-attached and independent, knowing they couldn't live without something and thus depend on it is scary
to be fair, while it'd be correct for you to identify with philanthropy, i don't think you're actually a philanthrope (see: "differs from charity by focusing on long-term systemic solutions rather than immediate relief," i don't think you actively work to make changes that'd make things better for people on a larger scale like i.e, zohran mamdani, but you bring immediate relief to people in your environment because of your generosity and kindness)
i can understand because i find it easy to get embarrassed by the things you listed, especially when it's myself doing it, but i think expressions of love are still beautiful nonetheless... you easily feel and share your affection to the fullest, that isn't a quality found in many people, it's something i wish i could do myself
i actually like the smell after rain too, though it's primarily nostalgia in my case because it reminds me of the mobile home i used to live in in the U.S
thank you, you give insight i probably couldn't find on my own too! i'm your number #1 fan OK
- S
"how did you even figure that out! i didn't realize i had a tell for that but now i'm embarrassed" I don't even know myself but I really like, really. Really like paying attention to you in whatever you do.. I think it's in my nature but I really like being attentive to those who are dear to me which you are a lot!!!I really love you and I think all the time I spent deciphering whether you are just like that or if theres anything more to it was lilke, good time spent!!! Also yes it is normal for people to disagree it's just that well, in places that I see lovemails commonyl (rentry, etc) it's very usual for me to notice the people involved in it are kind of like,, how can I say this, do you remember that time you talked about how people who are superficial about love and make it more aesthetic than it has to be? It feels like that when I read them mostly. I just think there's no need to be exclusively aesthetic otherwise I will just!!Think!! That their relationship is just there for aeshtetics!! Like I can see you love xx, but isn't there any more to it?? Well at least to me who feels a lot I just really like the whole.. I don't know, making you feel seem thing. Also of course i'm not a philanthriphe but people already mentioned me acting almost like one so I like the term quite a lot, I just like humanity like Elysia << You indeed express your affection by the way, you just do it differently!! I could list inumerous ways of how you do it, even
>i don't even know myself
burn the witch
that means a lot to me, i hope i can give you a similar if not the same amount of attention
i remember our conversation about that! unfortunately it seems to be a common phenomenon, no offense to anyone doing that when i say unfortunate because my fondness of love is primarily due to aesthetic appeal as well but in general i dislike insincerity and i think love is most beautiful when it's genuine
i agree you act like one
i'd dare you to list them but i'd be shy if you listed them on here in public... i'm not saying i don't express my affection, but i don't do too good of a job at it
About the topic, in my earliest entry, I would like to mention a quote I saw earlier that I, think, really fits me “I'd rather live my life believing in love and hope and soft things; if that makes me a fool, may I remain a gentle one.” Sometimes, i'd argue it's technically desire to have someone in your life, you want to experience xx with them, xx with them the other moment, but well? I'm not exactly complaining. I really like the nature of our relationship and I think it wouldn't work if we went straight to "romance".. You know, sometimes it's good to have a non-strictly-romantic relationship with someone, for true love either way is wanting the best for someone and isn't the infatuation you have for them, it's not also about the reciprocity. It's more of choosing a hard choice that you know know would make things better for the other, I said this in a comment section in one of my alt accounts so good luck finding it. But it's mostly true love for me, as I mentioned in said comment, is deeply caring for someone even if you're annoyed or fed up with them at the moment, it just can't be defined by a feeling, instead, it is the active choice to eternally understand and choose the other person < For me the purest form of love isn't wanting someone to notice life within you, but it's simply wanting someone else to notice life the best they can, whether it's with them or not. Sometimes I get angry at you, for existing, how can someone so amazing like you exist?? Well, I will not say perfect as no one is truly perfect but you are unique in a way that makes people be drawn to you, i'm easily drawn to people to be fair.. I make friends easily, stupidly so, so I think I can't have an argument against that. But also with my earlier comment in this, it doesn't always need to be dramatic as people make it out to be, well! At least I'm not a big fan of how people usually express themselves in love letters, especially here where mostly just say "I love you. You make my every day amazing. You and I are the souls that are meant to be in all universes. You are so pretty. I dont know what I would do if I didn't meet you." Well. I can say I kind of do these but I do elaborate a lot of stuff I do, I think you can find a bunch of ways of expressing love that isn't always the same phrases over and over now, I kind of learnt that alone by this in specific. In specific I really like now writing what's going on with our lives when we are together, I really appreciate the thought of not needing to be glued to each other and I really appreciate that every single time,,, Well, yesterday you spent like some good minutes trying to convince me there was something wrong in your cosplay's shirt and I still haven't figured out what the freak you were trying to show me but I guess??? I was wrong?? It's a little bit crooked, I noticed your new cosplay though, I really really like it. A few days ago, during a call we had, I remember looking at the digital clock I have in my table because I was supposed to be doing something else, and Instead I kept asking questions because I wanted to hear how far you'd take the idea of a topic you were talking about. I don't think I'll remember what day that was in like what? 5 years? But I'll remember that I was staring at my laptop confused enough to stop breathing, however, I was still listening to you, thank you for explaining how you are a beta.
“I'd rather live my life believing in love and hope and soft things; if that makes me a fool, may I remain a gentle one.”
you and i are weirdly similar in some regards, i made a blog post mentioning this that you've probably already read... it's more-so that i can't bring myself to not believe love and hope exists (which i've tried in the past) in my case, even though i want to because it'd be easier for me < I think it's becausr like I think it's because not a lot of people believe love and hope doesn't exist and if they say they do it's kind of superficial unless they have 0 emotions, since love can be brought up to many aspects like admiration, hope, etc ekjrnfierfner < i don't think that's it, i've seen many people who either don't believe one of the two exists or don't believe it exists for them specifically, but i agree it seems superficial - S
i think it depends! love is many things, infatuation is undoubtably one of these aspects, but "wanting the best for someone" and "making a hard choice that you'd know would make things better for the other person" are most important in my opinion! especially that last one because relationships are about sacrifice, if you're unwilling to inconvenience yourself (or even try) for the sake of another person then i'll bluntly say i think that kind of person is incompatible with human connection, no matter how much "love" or infatuation they supposedly have; love means nothing if you can't show that in your actions
i don't get angry with you for existing but i feel similarly, i'm surprised a person like lain-chama exists, and i'm grateful that we could meet!
i think it's a matter of sincerity? saying that someone makes your everyday amazing, that you're meant to be in all universes, that they're pretty, and don't know what you'd do if you met them and nothing else shows a lack of specific information; you could say that to just about anyone, which is why i also think your letters differ greatly because you go into the detail about what you love and what makes you happy! even without the detail, it's obvious that your love comes from a genuine place << ALSOO!!It has been something I wanted to ask you before but how do you feel about my letters, and how do they differentiate from the usual letters other people might right to eachother (like I mentioend) < they are incredibly sweet and i get happy reading them, especially when you point out the specific things you noticed or liked, and they differentiate from what other people might write to eachother in expression (straight-forward rather than flowery), length (longer than anything i've seen written for anyone), and honesty! i'd want to elaborate more but it's more natural for me to be concise about my feelings, so i hope that answer satisfies your curiosity - S
NVM you already stated what i said in the paragraph above, proving i'm always right < I knoe right!!!!
of course we don't need to be glued together! we can be if we want to, i feel we're naturally like that anyway thanks to who we are, but we don't need to force it because you're supposed to hang out with someone when it's something you want and would enjoy < Also yes we kind of naturally do almost anything together when it comes to social stuff and I like the fact we don't have to force anything because I feel like I just.... Can't force stuff for me and you, you know? For some reason everything I do (despite me well, being way too sincere and honest about everything either way) its just that I like being authentic to my feelings especially when it comes to you, so like I'm very happy about this because in my past relationships I would often oblige myself and force myself to do stuff I didn't want to, which I happily don't feel at all with you!! Everything I do is kind of just me from my heart and I feel like despite anything, I should feel comfortable around you and I technically am always vulnerable when I'm around you, I just cant..you know, force up my guard because I just feel like uh, you know that sensation you have when you're home? I usually feel like that, with you, of course.
i'll explain what i meant with the cosplay later but i dealt with it, thank you BTW! i managed to secure some robux for my mafioso and hatred
>i wanted to hear how far you'd take the idea of a topic you were talking about
is that the same call i called myself an egotist in? i can't believe you made me monologue on purpose i really feel like the narrator (context: the steam reviews in the memory zone of the stanley parable all talk about how the narrator is long-winded and bothersome to listen to < (skill issue) < he is not a skill issue, he's awesome - S)
you're welcome but you should ask if you're confused next time! i love explaining things as you can see < HYES IT WAS I was like hmhmm yes hm. yes obvioisly hmmm I agree (I wasny udnerstanding anything but then I started to after a while) Also I still don't see you as the supposedly egotist you're supposed to be, also yes I made you monologue on purpose I just really like hearing your voice < you manipulator - S
With that also, I really like writing about us here for the simple thought of well, instead of people just seeing a lot of "Ohh my god. I love my partner. I would kill myself if it weren't for her." I think it's way better for people, especially readers, to come and think "Oh. thisis what it feels to know Seren," rather than simply, "This person loves Seren." It is one of my wishes to write lots about you for people to have a view on you that isn't solely the usual "Oh. She is so scary." Or whatever happened between you and your oldies. I would like to make people finally understand you aren't just something they think, by writing about you, since I think I know a lot about you by now. Ironically when I write like this, I think people often believe the love more deeply because they're allowed to witness this instead of being told it's just there. For example, you always stop halfway through explaining something because you assume i've already understood it in most cases, well. Half the time I haven't and I just don't interrupt because I like hearing the 'Oh wait' before you explain the other half, you usually do that.. What else can I note? Oh!! Wel, you probably never noticed this but every time you're deciding between two things, your voice gets quieter instead of louder.. Do you see it? Those are the kind of details that make someone feel known,, Which is one of my wishes, of course, I will definitely be prone to forgetting anything we might do together, but that's in the future. Because in the present you are someone I cherish a lot, if I ever reread this in some good years, if this will be still be up, I hope I still remember how your laugh sounded over Discord when your microphone did the thing or just generally my mic in specific while hearing how I sounded through YOUR mic. I hope technology is like very different by then because I hope I still remember exactly how terrible it sounded.
I think I like the idea of archiving you in this place, as I remember one day you asking me how I felt about myself when I sent you a tiktok, imagine your lovemail (as I can call this one) becoming the sort of thing where, hypothetically, if you lsot all of your memories someday, someone (me) could hand you the pages and you'd slowly recognize yourself, not because I wrote "Oh my god I love my knight. She's so kind." But usually something like "You spent ten minutes trying to comfort me for something I was definitely overthinking for no reason at all and you are lowkey an NPD abuser. Jokingly," or I don't know!! Me saying you always kind of re-type a lot of stuff, especially when I'm watching you streaming stuff and you end up in Twitter, since you always reread posts before sending them to actually have a more coherent argument but somehow you end up re-writing the same thing over and over till you feel it's right
to be fair, i feel like it could give the wrong impression (in regards to "what it feels like to know seren") to people because of how much you love me? not to say anything you've written is actually wrong, both because they're all correct to reality and i'd also never want to discredit your feelings, but i think they might expect more from me than there is and hold me up to the standard of a saint < I don't think having expectations is bad, I just feel like you shouldn't be known solely for your bad doings, I would have no problem writing your flaws here as I'm not the type of person that would go, for example "Ohhh my partner. I love my partner. She is like. She is flawless and an angel that fell down from heave," Becuase that would be surely untrue, I do see you as a flawed person despite everything but!! Thayt's what makes things better, I would be weirded out if you didn't have them in general, but I just don't see the necessity of people having to strictly think about you being what you listed down here, but the thing is, my intention here isn't canonizing you, it's preserving you as a whole person, because yes what I mostly write about you is definitely how you act so it would be true either way.. I just like to flaunt you every now and then (well, always) and to be fair I hthink flaws are part of intimacy as a whole
>whatever happened between you and your oldies
people's negative impressions from me range from:
\1) disrespectful, mean
\2) morally bad, cruel, insensitive
\3) arrogant, egocentric, snooty
i sadly don't think it'd matter, i've learned from experience that there's no way to change people's minds or explain yourself once they've decided on how to view you, but i'm sure reading all of this or even a portion might serve the purpose you want for people who haven't met me or are acquainted with but don't know me all that well... i hope me adding to this rentry and talking positively about you also improves people's thoughts of you, there's too many people who villainize you for no reason and you deserve for it to be known that's not true at all
i agree! the earlier part i wrote mentions this in the paragraph about sincerity, it's harder to describe the experiences you've had with a person and how it made you feel than it is to make shallow exclamations
To be fair!! It does matter, at least for me, who usually talk people out of a lot of stuff, and yes there is a way to change people's minds or at least i'm very good at doing so.. But I just want you to be seen as someone who isn't exclusively their flaws, I love your flaws despite anyhting and I wish I could and I will totally point them out, not that I haven't you're literally an NPD abuser ( I have your flaws and bad stuff noted on my notepad, they are very dear to me) and I think your biggest flaw is just that you are very stubborn, sometimes, I like that a lot about you. < you must be trying to make me feel shy on purpose like all NPD abusers do... i don't know how you could manage to love someone's flaws, but thank you! it's no surprise you're compared to philanthropy, you can't love humanity without also loving its' flaws
Also I don't really mind what people think about me because both bad and good attention feels amazing to me!! It's just that I primarily like the fact now that I don't feel afraid to say some stuff to you also, either way i'm straying a little bit from the topic but you can't always say you learned from experience, as there will always be new ones that will eventually overwrite them, if you notice we have 2 viewpoints on this.. Since you're fairly skpetical and i'm more optimistic, but none of our views are unreasonable < this is funny because you assigned us the pragmatist and the idealist with me as the idealist and you as the pragmatist on /lovedbyyou, our roles have switched now? it's true that new experiences still come after past ones, but i could assume that it's more likely that pattern of experiences will stay consistent because of how frequently they happen in place of other ones - S
>you always stop halfway through explaining something because you assumed i've already understood it most of the time
incredible of me to assume someone understands me without giving the chance to respond. didn't even notice i was doing that. if it means anything, i'm sure it's in part because i believe you're smart enough to get me (and you still are if you don't, the point is that i think highly of you) < It's not that I dont understand you, it's just that i'm dumb < no you're not - S
if you don't interrupt and i don't realize you likely wouldn't understand what i'm getting at, please tell me or ask me to explain whatever you didn't understand! i don't want you to be confused through what i'm explaining < 🤣🤣🤣🌔🌔🌒🌛🧡🧡🧡👍👍👍
you're right, it really does make someone feel known... i only notice these details about myself when you point them out, and it makes me feel appreciated (and a little shy) that you'd care so much as to notice those patterns! i've said thank you a lot but thank you again, one of the things i value most in my friendships is understanding between me and the other party, and you provide more than enough of that
it's okay if you forget a lot of the things we've done together, i also have a horrible memory, but i hope that i can continue to stay by your side and be dearly remembered by you? when you give a starving person food, we can imagine they'd wish the feeling of having something to eat could last forever, and that's how i feel toward you because i don't receive love beyond the average
let's put this rentry on webarchive to make sure it stays up
fvvvck... lain-chama knows too much about me and i'm a fed... the CIA has to take you out back and shoot you now, sorry
- S
I'm like.. Very glad I point them out for you and I like the fact it makes you feel shy about it jerikebrekrjgne not to be this kind of person, but I'm easily captivated by you that I easily note stuff about you, and i''m glad we both have our understandings towards eachother!! I remember when I firstly talked to you because sometimes it's a little childish but, as I mentione dbefore, you were technically my idol. Also about the forgetting thing.. One day, if we get to be older and this is still a thing, we should reread all of this. I will do that yes!! ALSO NO PLEASE. Don't send anyhthing to shoot me I am not Charlie KIrk??? < watch out! i'm gonna kirk you! i know about the idol thing as you already told me about it beforehand, i can be your idol and you can be my oshikatsu - S
Sometimes I romanticize my life a lot, well!! Why would i not? Its kind of in my psych to be romantic about everything. If you think of romance as a general love for stuff, I love a lot of things! For example: Sol, plants, the rain + the smell of wet grass when it stops raining.. its such an amazing feeling, and sometimes I feel sorry for those who cannot feel love for anything in their life, well? Why you might ask?? It was because before 2026 I had no love even for myself, let alone to spare to people, objects, and my lifestyle. I was here wondering about this because it takes a lot for me to document whatever happens in my life, hence why my bearblog is kind of well. Very. Very inactive. But I am glad I am able to do what I'm happy with doing! Drawing has been a good hobby of mine and soemtimes, mostly as a lovemail, writing for Sol, it brings me peace to be able to know she'e actually here and actually reads my notes and well, take care of me in a way
"why would i not?" in response to talking about how you romanticize your life a lot is exactly the answer i'd expect from a 1E, it must be as innate as breathing
i'm happy that you have love to spare for yourself, to people, objects, etc. now, i hope i've contributed (which i assume i have from what you wrote higher up in this rentry and from what you've previously mentioned in our conversations) because i'd be glad to know that i played a part in making your life better... which i already do, but i want to do everything in my ability for that to happen
- S
I look auraful
you do WTF! very pretty drawing too, but lain-chama's a professional so who's surprised
- S
I was listening to my like, suepr depressing music to be in the mood foe depression butw??? I LIKE. IW ENT TO CHECK THE SONG. and the?? The fuckass thumbbail?? Is Leyley and Andy?LMFAO
I wasnt evenaware of this, I don't consent
TCOAAL fans profiting off of the negative feelings of depressed people to make money to fund TCOAAL... i can't believe this
\ - S
I am so. So depressed by the return of my school being soon. I don't know if I should even be saying this here but oh my god everyone totally hates me there!!!!Like com e on. I know i'm rich and can change schools whenever I want it's jsut that it's incovenient to change schools every single time someone dislikes you. Well that's what my sister told me since she's supportive of me and we have like what???w I in specific have about more than a thousand USD that is very valuable where I live and I wish Sol would let me spend some of it on her, tskt styk. (sorry I fel like saying tsk tsk I feel so texas). Awwwwh A lot of people complimented my atabook and also I got some messages about this URL on my atabook, I like seeing people think of this as cute, kind of
I never really intended it for people to see this URL not gonna lie it was mostly just a placeholder since I couldn't put the content I wanted to put because of Tartlet's text limit, I'm currently doing the /opal commission because I kind of got the motivation back to do it... Well, I'm possibly gonna stay awake either way because today during 8AM I will go to> Computer class, leaving 9:45 and from then from to my therapist which I will stay for the usual 2 hours, i'm kind of the opposite of excited, really. I think I just want to spend my last days without misery with you, but the thing is: My school will return at what?? 10/8??? I'm so confused why are we almost in August, the year is passing way too fast and I still haven't recovered much of my grades, if i'm being hones..t.. But!!! I'm gonna make them better!!And become a better student!! Because I really want a better job, you know it would be like.. Very nice to be someone successful in life, especially if you're technically by my side!! Well, if my phone counts since you're in it currently. Also HII Soll!!!!! If youre reading this did you know I will maybe create another Limbus Company account??? It will be my 10th!!! I just finished the 9th one and I did all the content for it, so now its time for me to hop onto another one.. Or find another game to grind, I'm sucha chud
to be fair, "everyone hates me there" is different from "someone dislikes me" and can be more convenient? being disliked by most people is a good reason to want to change schools, but i understand why it'd be a hassle especially if the same thing ends up happening
you can spend your money, just not too much! i can't entirely stop you, it's not right of me to deprive you of your love language, but there will be a spending limit
as they should, your atabook is very pretty! if the people who complimented you see rentry at any point, i'd like to personally thank them for their kindness toward lain-chama
i'm glad you got your motivation back! i hope my advice to let it sit for a bit and see how you feel about it later helped, it's important not to give up on something in the instant you feel de-motivated because that motivation may come back soon quickly
i wish you the best in both becoming a better student and getting better grades, if there's any way i can help, please let me know! but don't push yourself too hard in your ambitions, mountain climbers don't rush to the summit with no breaks and that's how you should approach schoolwork too
what other games would you even grind? i think grinding limbus in particular is hilarious anyway because it has tedious gameplay, and it'd be even funnier to raise the bar of how many accounts you can finish content on
Me: Sol let's get. marrid.
Sol: ok
do you want me to edit the photo to sign it
- S
I am crying I am crying I am crying there was a roach. A flying cockroach. It jumped on me ohmmy god i'm gonna kill myself its so bad it was so big I'm so scared it didnt get to me but I cried I'm literally cryinfh
I should!!! I should show to the whole world my FNF roblox skills I'm gonna record myselg playing any hard song on friday night bloxxin
She just replied to me on discord I thought she was sleeping oh ym god I lvoe her I think I am going to be a yandere #hopecore #dystopian #frutigeraero
Should i?? Should I copy and paste here all your isntances of abuse towards me?? And show how much of an abusive father you are?? I think everyone should know that the moment you pulled that knife on me during that tiem whilst saying you WEREN't the murder
Quick list of NPD abusive behaviour from Serenity (yes I am fullnaming you to show the gravity of the situation:
- Called me imcopentent imconpement wjayeber how that word is spelled.
- Bullies me and calls me idiot from time to time
- She's technically avoidant and I have HPD which is like, very abusive from both of our parts, if you ask
- Listened to me reading out loud Spamton x Tenna AO3 word art sex
- Was ableist by saying she had a 20/10 vision while I have what?? 20/600? Such a bully. I hate her.
- Strawmanned my statement towards my HPD abuse and said I was the one doing the abuse instead
- Said she would make a document on my abusive behaviour, which I kind of forgot and she never really did it which means she
- Threatened me, but I love her attention I feel like a stockholm syndrome victim
- I think she wants to make me fat, which for instance, I kind of already am
- Slammed hammers into my head repeatdly and imprisoned me in a cryogenic chamber
- Quoting directtly from my strawpage "She said that I forgot about her when I simply forgot that my stream was still on after the 3 minutes mark and she said that I literally made this up and she is now osycholgicially abusing me by making me think I made this up"
- Went full on abusive father mode and wanted to abuse me in front of our adopted paradise life kid. So not demure. So not etiquette.
- Has called me an NPD abuser because I actually got diagnosed with NPD
ohhh i'm getting fullnamed this is serious
my apology: i am (slightly) sorry for how the (true) statements i made (that i'd argue you brought upon yourself) hurt you. and if they weren't true, i was joking (and is your fault for taking seriously), but i understand that what i said still (slightly) matters. all of my actions (which weren't that bad in the first place) may have been (not) inappropriate, but it was only in response to your abusive behaviors. nonetheless, i am (slightly) sorry for how i've (marginally) hurt you, and i will (maybe) take responsibility for what i did.
- S
Dude. dude. Seren just changed her status. I can't believe this. I think the world will end
I cant believe it??? I sthought she was born with her status like that, like. Imagine if it was in a life in a death situation but if you take the status you die, I feel like it was that way. Oh my god I can't beleive my eyes.
This is so insane
it's about time i changed dat status anyway
- S
I never realized how cute she was, i forgot she was a character
the image didn't load the first time i saw this and i was like? is she talking about me? why is she calling me a character
i agree though osana is extremely cyute
- S * Man Seren is my favorite character and I yumeship with her, did I tell you guys she's actually a genshin character? Hah. Time to fight for the 10 thousand URL grabbers everywhere to grab my yumeship, if you think about it, by thr time I show you everything I technically have relate dot you, I could be an oshikatsu . . .
I am sososososo so so. so. so so so sso sooooo so. so excited to watch The Backrooms movie with you when you're up to it,,, Well I technically know everything that will happen since i'm a #og. And watched the movie when it released. But to be fair it hasn't been much time but at least i'm not technically LARPing am I
of course you're not technically LARPing you watched the movie
i'm also excited to watch it and will tell you when i feel up to it
- S
To be fair it's moreso because I am someone who sleeps a lot while not stimulated with anything (music, noise, company, etc) and I think when we are too quiet in call (well, me in specific, since I usually am having lots of trouboe. with my. fuckass mic. And end up having to type or not use them at all which I technically don't mind) my brain kinda??I don't know.. Think it's time to go to sleep next to my oh-so beloved Sol, which is technically true but I still can't believe sometimes we have calls that last up to 2 days, mind you I think I will have to start once again waking up at some good hours during the morning to properly ever call with you again if I don't get home super. super tired
TBF i'd assume it's because you relax without stimulation and that makes it easier to feel sleepy
especially because we've gotten used to sitting in calls while sleeping or not talking, i find it hard to believe we've managed this but i like da company
- S < I don't know how we managed tht either, none of the people I ever spent my time with really wanted to be that quiet during calls but I wouldn't mind if we are either way, I like company even if it's the silent type of company
- I just think you are cool in general and that you are very chill to be around, which makes sense given by your name bringing me Serenism, if that's a word
- Sometimes I wonder how you looked at me and thought I was worth to keep around considering how autistic and apparently problematic???how people describe me?? I don't know
- I must repeat this but I cant believe my cats like you more than me
WAITTT. WAIT. WAIT. If you remember tomorrow it will be the Kromer claim????Krom Also I just wanted to say to everyone that might read this about the unholy amount of times I slept accidentally in call without you noticing. I think?? It's not even because it's boring I kind of get so. so comofrtable with you and forget I am not supposed to sleep but then I keep taking like . . . 3 to 5 minutes nap every single time, although apparently you don't notice
as in /kromer? i'll send a claim in for you if you want < HELELE YESSS I really hope no one goes after it, I might put /limbuscompany's deco there if anything
i don't notice when you fall asleep, you tend to respond to me more than not, but it makes sense you would in the intervals between us talking... proving my point again (you're the sleeper)
- S < Sometimes I used to sleep mid-texting you, by the way
I just can't believe you also dislike 007n7/noli I still feel like they have absolute no chemistry and that pizzaburger or 118o8 x 007n7 is like way better
Th explanation of me being sad is that well, it is obviously july 23rd. And I just think It's very bad because these past few days I have been just sleeping without anything else to do and I haven't done anything that I would want to do in some days, and I just feel like I'd come off as too pathetic to be whining in your DMs about this, but oh. Well. I am pathetic technically it's just that I hide it very well, positive triad they said. I just feel???lIKe well I should be doing a lot more of stuff and actually that my bad schedule right now is possibly coming off from Insomnia but I think I also really need some coffee . . . Maybe like, 5 shots of it, if i'm being honest. I really wanted to end it for 5 minutes when I woke up today with my phone on 21% instead of my oh-so expected 100% and It made me realize I technically don't need a phone to be happy, because I have a laptop. OKAY IGNORE THAT I just want to say that I'm very happy by spending my summer break with you to be fair, yes I only have 1 month of summer break.. It sucksss but at least it's not a week ??? I guess
- you aren't pathetic and even if you hypothetically were, you don't need to hide that kind of thing! we are all a little spiritually girlfailure from time to time, it's human
^ I 'm not a failure I will personally become E3 just to prove that, feel my E3nism - i can see why you're sad (especially with school coming up) but there's no problem with you "whining" (in quotations) about this, i'd relate if anything as i've never liked school either and the thought of finally having to go back to my studies sullies my mood to some degree as well
- is your sleep schedule related at all? if you feel like you don't have enough time in the day to do wat you want, it might be good to start finding a solution to your tendency to sleepiness, not that it's a bad thing but if it's interfering with your QoL then it'd be helpful to solve that
-S < Yes my sleep schedule is kind???of?? related?? I have a hyper bad sleep schedule, if you have noticed so far, I just think I shouldn't sleep as much as I currently do otherwise I might get into some state of like Idon'tknow actually
don't laugh at the british people it's not their fault they were born disadvantaged (british)
okay firstly we actually do have to laugh at the british, speaking about this I remember going to the UK before and ohhh my god it was so bad. I think I might have some pictures of it in my Iphone, Iphone... Iphone. It kinda bugs me when people call it Iphone exclusively instead of just a phone, I mean I do get why they do that though. Imagine you just buy a fancy ass phone and don't want to show it's fancy?? I would definitely say MY IPHONE, MY MACBOOK, stuff like that, In fact I had a MacBook before when I was younger but I kind of got it stolen . . . I think in my trip to Rio de Janeiro during the thing you go to have an inspection?.... Either way, my trip to Rio was an absolute disaster back them, I wouldn't recommend bringing stuff of value.. Not giving Rio bad reputation of course but I still miss my MacBook air dearly. I would definitely bring you to Rio any ways if I could, I just imagine me and you in the beach but instead you're just underneath the shade of a cool funky parasol and I show you my not-so-amazing sand castle while complaining about how hot it is, then we go and get ice cream & I take us to a very cool house and then we play!!!And do nothing!!For the rest of the day!! And then I go to work because I will be possibly miserable and a workaholic. But. I think. I would be too much of a??? please can yoou do this for me...please can you.. can you do this for me.. Sol. Sol.. Can you.. Sol can you do this for me... Sol can you help me figure this out... soll.. Sol. Sol. Are you here Sol?? Sol. Sollll.... And then I start whining because I would physically think you think I am dumb ( which yes I am, as I need instructions to do a lot of stuff that involves real life scenarios ). Also I am kind of sad???
i dunno why people say iphone exclusively instead of phone but i think they're used to specifying the brand name to distinguish it from other phone types, despite that not being necessary at all
i allow people to flex having a macbook because the apple OS's UI style is based...
WTF they stole your macbook? that's very unfortunate for the money you must've had to spend on it... i'm sorry to hear your trip went terrible
you're giving me more reason to call you an NPD abuser because you're evil evil for suggesting we go to the place you had a bad experience with? are you trying to torture me?
it's okay lain-chama you should never think that i think of you as dumb, i think of you as smart, and you're definitely not dumb! it's okay to need instructions, i actually need instructions in a lot of cases where others don't seem to have an issue because i'm otherwise lacking detail on wat exactly to do
i hope you feel better from being sad though... if there's anything i can do to help, feel free to talk to me about how you feel or tell me wat you'd like me to do
-S
we could fit into the malevolent cast? who specifically?
We could be Arthur and John Doe if you think about it, but to be fair you as a narrator could technically as trustful as the narrator from Slay The Princess, not that I would not trust you of course. It's just that after inumerous times of you betraying me in Murder Mystery, I would get obviously cautious around you. Nothing against you of course, I would let you betray me
speaking of which, i actually think the narrator from slay the princess has a good amount of similarities to the narrator from stanley parable
don't question the fact i've been bringing up the stanley parable an unusual amount of times it's been circling in my head because i ended up reading several fanfic about the game on ao3
can you be my DID protagonist to my vagueposter narrator?
i'll check arthur and john doe's TV tropes pages later but i'm so disheartened that you would say i could possibly be untrustworthy... i am the most trustworthy woman there is... i have never lied about anything ever
don't let me betray you though you need to have self-respect
-S < Yes I can be the DID protagonist to your vagueposter narrator, if you promise me there will not be a 10 year loop.
i think it's awesome that people think of us as #relationshipgoals because it means we're doing good at this
I think it just means we are goated either way
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I found out this cool website I think you'd like to check it I forgot the website actually forget it i'm such a failure. Me. I am a failure.
Awww look at what I found
I still can't believe the abortion is racist comment exists mannn I just ??? Re-read it?? again?? I don't get how it's racist, this reminds me of the person saying that heightism is way worse than racism
cool text
you're not a failure just because you forgot a website!
i'm pretty sure the jax and ribbit keychains are meant to repel eachother normally but some people got bugged ones
"abortion is racist" has to be one of the top anti-abortion arguments of all time
- S
we're totally stanley (you) and the narrator (me) from the stanley parable. if you care. < I don't see why I wouldn't care, by the way. < i know you would, it was a joke people say to their friends
would you still love me if i was a posh intellectual british man
- S
Yes I would love you if you are a posh intellectual british man, wait I mean bri ish🤣😂Sorry. I think we could also fit into the malevolent cast people if anything, I think we are like, we are very famous tropes actually . . . I also figured out much that people look???into??being like us??Kind of. I spoke about you in some good tiktok comments and in the Socialist Island and all of them said "man these are my goals" I just like the idea of being... I dont know, this cool
Would you still love me if i were a
you didn't finish your sentence but whatever it is yes
don't laugh at the british people it's not their fault they were born disadvantaged (british)
we could fit into the malevolent cast? who specifically?
i think it's awesome that people think of us as #relationshipgoals because it means we're doing good at this
- S
I wanted to ask if you wanted to match with Itrapped (me) and Mafioso but I found this isntead
i like this genre of image (children trying to make a tribute to the tragedy of 9/11)
i'm surprised you think of me as mafioso but i can't complain as that's my GOAT
and yes i'd not mind matching as them
- S
Does she know she makes me feel embarrassed often????does she??? but that's just me because I kinda feel like I'm a girl in high school so-ready to give a letter to her senpai to confess on valentines day but then I see my senpai talking to an orange haired girl (which, by the way, i'm also) and I just get so nervy, like the music. And then I get angry and start killing everyone else?? She's incredibly dreamy. I think I get embarrassed alone and super easily but that's okay . . . I kind of am used to it but I think i'm just 1E
please don't start killing people
TBF some people are easily embarrassed regardless of emotion placement but i think you are very 1E
- S
Sol stop saying you're just a guy if that means anything you would at least have DID so you could be multiple because you're NOT just a guy ok sorry this was confusing I should have worded it properly I just think. THat you are way too important to titulize yourself as just a guy, or at least if you were one you'd be a cool one??????Also I wish I could make your ego higher while we are on call I really like it when you explain stuff and don't give me time to rpely to you because you're too deep into your explanation and then you call youresrfl an egotist, I really like that < for instance, I don't really see you as an egotist either way I just really, really like hearing you talk
Sometimes you're a bit of a tsundere sometimes I think you even do the hmph.. I didn't even wantto do this!!! Kind of thing I think between me and yoy, you have more chances of being a tsundere than me, sometimes I also imagine you (as Kakania or any other character) in that Dexter multiplying edit and you just like, endless multiply yourself it would be such an amazing sight, mitosis is real
you're headcanoning me as DID? < No I am not i'm just saying that you are too much to be just a guy, so you would be multiple, which would imply you DID AU
i'm not trying to be demeaning about myself! just surprised at what you see in me, but i'll try to think of myself as not too mundane if you think i'm not boring < YYAYAYAYA THE WORLD WILL BE AT PEACE AGAIN
TBF i unintentionally make up an important aspect of your life and you'd naturally subjectively view me as significantly important
i want you to have time to reply to me WTF! your thoughts are valuable to me and i enjoy having a two-way conversation as much as i (the egotist) like going on a monologue to someone who's willing to hear
i'm not that much of a tsundere OK be nice
- S
yo soy un cirujano
I called you Sol—
not because it was yours,
but because I needed a word
for the way you arrived...
The sun doesn't ask permission
before spilling gold across forgotten places.
It simply appears,
and somehow the cold becomes survivable . . .
You did that,
You probably never noticed
how quietly you stitched light
into days that had forgotten
they were meant to shine
Heroes, they say,
are loud.
They rescue cities,
carry impossible burdens,
leave statues behind.
But my hero
laughed,
Spoke gently,
Existed so honestly
that the world around her
remembered how to breathe.
So I named you Sol.
Maybe you'll never wear a cape.
Maybe history will never write your name.
But that's alright
The sun has never needed applwuse
to rise.
And if one day
someone asks me
where I first learned
that warmth could be a person,
I'll smile
and tell them
that once,
I met a girl
who didn't know
she was carrying the dawn.
I called her Sol,
because she was my light, to be more specific to everyone reading this.
I think you should have a disorder named after you (in a good way)
i wish i could write poetry to reciprocate your poem but unfortunately i'm not blessed with the gift of being ELFV like you are
either way, it's very cute, and i appreciate what you wrote a lot... i hope i (the hero) can keep bringing you sunshine
if i had a disorder named after me that'd imply that my type of mental illness is specific enough for me to be the most accurate representation of it
- S
NGL I was gonna show you one of my DoL saves but 1. I should be sleeping 2. It kinda... looks like my PC has some type of skin condition??? She's??w green-ish? I think she might have some type of liver disease oh wowww.. I'm sorry LainTM, but you have been diagnosed with liver cancer, and now you will turn yellow. also yes I have inumerous saves with this specific PC... I have all feats, almost
me healthy vs me on drugs, like please!!! I'm supposed to be lively!! Like this is literally me???
I should finish this art someday
I FUCKING DELETEF THE THEME I'M SO SORRY IDK WHAT I DID BUT I CANT FIND THE TRANSPARENCY AND BACKGORUND I WAS USING FUCKCKKVJOIWENKFERFUONERNOILENROIERNF
I was looking at old stuff I have downloaded sicne I download stuff you send me sometimes but I found this extremely funny
What the fuck is my provlem <- none Becuase i'm perfect (what is my problem>none in a single hour i'm so dead, I hould get my mood changers checked), I realized I pretty much talk about Serenity Soléne Sol Seren da Silva a little too much... To the point that:
11111111Sorry my 1 key wasn't doing the clicky thing, I had to check. Anyways 1: My family knows her
- My IRL friends know her
- My teachers know her
- My cat has a Seren detector in her because she comes to whatever device I am using during the action of: listening to audios, calling, anything related to her voice and then she starts???Rubbing her face???On the device???Do you love her more than me??? her number one fan?? I till don't understand how my cat, Crystal, who has been with me for YEAR, is more fond of Seren and loves her while she hisses at me and makes me look like a SHTWT victim
- I cancelled some good plans I had to leave this summer because I wouldn't have wifi to talk to her, I think it would fuck me over a little bit if I actually didn't talk to her because I just love giving her attention and wouldn't dream of not doing so, because I yearn for her attention as much as I yearn to give her said attention
Sometimes I am veryyyyy glad that we actually have conversations because I really, really enjoy them. I think you could tell me the most vile thing and the most I will do is argue why such thing is important and why would you do it instead of going "UGHHH. I AHTE YOU. FUCK YOU. KILL YOURSELF." wHICH, for instance, I would probably never say either way because I dislike acting that way and being mean to people physically hurts me in a way that a masochist would want to be hurt, ignore my nonsense
It's motly because in all the last relationships I had (friendships, dates, any kind of relationship) I never actually have the good freedom to discuss something and end up in a non-echo-of-eachother way as I see we have our own views on certain topics but we don't go like obvioussss twitter people that try to convince you to have the same view as them for absolute no reason without any kind of development to it, it's something I really like about you, you know... I like the way you argue a lot, I have said this before but every time I see you doing something on the big Twitter, I get woawwwwa I wish I was like that, I think I got easily romanced by you in a not-so-romantic way because I still can't differentiate it, but come on!! You're like, what, my idol??? I can't beleive I am living the dream of someone (having a relationship with their Idol). Speaking about you, I think I kind of like?? Was listening to uhhh... Well, Epic The Musical, even if I say i'm not a fan of it, but I think the phrase "Keep your friends close and your enemies closer, never really know who you can trust" makes me think about you a lot.. You kind of very much taught me how to actually evaluate my relationships and cut off people who were being horrid to me, which I am very thankful for, although I do keep some "enemies" closer because I really, really!!!Enjoy my fans. I kind of remembered of when you said this to me
It was like the happiest day of my life and to everyone who might be reading this, yes I did print it out, i fact, I put it everywhere I go because I feel like it's like.. What was the name?? Lucky charm, yes, it feels like a lucky charm to me
Sometimes I also think people over-exaggerate about stuff that they think is fine and not, I would definitely write your name on my thighs again, in fact, I would do it with a cute red marker because red is the color of love!!! Also, out of annoyance I would write your name on my chest and use it as a banner, but that would make me feel like an e-kitten, which is very offensive to me, because i'm more of an e-bunny than I am of an e-kitten, because of course of course I am your bunny . . . .Everyone knows that, I would definitely be your housewife anytime and entertain your abusive father mindset, sometimes I think if you'd let me give you a sandwich
I will stop putting TS TS date because I keep getting confused and anxious about the days because my break is going to end and I'm going to be oh so forever depressed till I get my break again. I ???? Am so??? Offended!!! Sol today demanded me to dance with her today, but then she goes and keeps emoting with Rodion and Heathcliff. . . . I see how that is, I am abandoning Sol and our internet life in paradise kids.
I got so embarrassed today when I had to ask her If I could play with her, I don't know why but every single time I think i'm being such a boomer and a bother by doing that . . . I love her.
I love her a lot in all the senses so I shouldnt feel that way actually I should kill myself.necause I am being annoying to myself but sometimes she's being E1 to me and I can't help but unleash my hidden wolf whatever SX8 powers and be super angry, like an abusive mother, and hit myself instead of our paradise life kids (???This is so self-destructive I can't lie) Anyways!!She's supa dupa cute and I can't believe I have her as my royal knhgt... See we are meant to be, I should promote her to be my king one day, but I am afraid she will power-abuse the kindgom and possibly make everyone hate her by doing so, and I don't want another french revolution happening where I am, I know we are the sun and moon yes I litwrally named myself Lua after deciding I should totally do that because Lua and Sol???Get ithabhbdf. I'm so smart. I'm so overhwlemed I have like, ten thousand tabs open right now it's giving me an actual headache but I have been trying to find DIY ideas to do for you but all I end up doing is just stare at your discord profile and daydream about you , I should be replying to you instead of writing here actually but I would be soll... sol.. sol??? sol!! Sol pelase wake up.. SOllllll.. SOLLLLLLLLLLLL. Sol please talk to me.. Soll??? But that's just me mentally because I think making her wake up with my not-so-annoying messages would be annoying to her but it's okay because I like bothering ehr soemtimes it makes me realize she is with me and that she is still there and that she is real and that I can actually talk to her, I hould make an appreciation post on tiktok to her, it would be amazing
19thjuly at 1920, after spain won the world cup
I FEEL SO JOLLY Thnak you Sol for blessing this game by saying "İNSHALLAH İSPANYA KAZANIR 🙏" Your blesing was the most amazing thing ever and now the devil incarnates (argentinians) will not mess with everyone now and all argentinians but Honk (my siblign) should die, I love Sol.
I feel like im very gratecul for having her and sometiems I like to rhink all of the people that did me wrong shoug have did it either way so I would get blessed (the blessing being, Seren) oh my god it feels so weird calling Sol Seren soemtimes???? I dont know I get embarrassed whrn I do that because for some reason it feels off when I dont call herthey anything but Sol, my knight has that much aura yeah. Sometimes I wish i didnt get so???? I dont know, embarrassed???? I dont onow why I would be embarrassed in the first place but knowing I have a partner makes me want to unleash my E3 side qnd trying to be the perfect everything but i kind of realized that was futile because Seren Sol Soléne Serenity Luzia da Silva is my everything and I think we are perfect the way we are right now. Sorry for being this cliché but to be fair I assume Sol won't hit me like the abusive father she is. I hope our paradise kids are living happily away from her so they wont have to endure seeing her hit me with the alcohol 90% vodka bottle but whattt cannnn Iiiii dooo I kind of like it. In fact I am a bit hot and bothered. In fact i will kill myself, actually. I'm aggravated
Either way!!! She's amazing for handling my HPD abuse. Ahhhh also thank you for unleashing my slightly more hateful side to be calling people wr commonly dislike as Messi, i dont know... Its funny to call the evil L, Damon and his whatevers, the Meursault guy and some of my stalkers Messi. It jsut feels very fitting for them, imagine!!! You just got like, your biggesssssst fan (hater) and you just call them Messi, because they're a mess. Lo
Like look at this guy and tell me he doesn't look like your greatest enemy ignoring their genders
Actually. ignore my last comment I kinda sounded homophobic
19thjuly at 1522 to me
I FUCKING dislike argentina
17th july at 23;19 for me
I love annoying her
15th july at 22.46 fo me
IWBRFIEBRF I MISS YOU SO MUCH I think i'm in that state where you miss someone deeply for no reason (although the reason this time is you probably not being well and going to sleep which I do not object actually in fact I encourage this behaviour a lot please keep doing it ) Anwyays I SHOULD be just saying this on discord but my mind is being stubborn on the thingie again,,, But I wouldn't mind sending you a loooot of stuff if I wasn't about to go to sleep rite noe,, ANYWAYS I JUST WANTED TO SAY THAT I APPRECIATE YOU A LOT I might make this a thing aka making a letter to you every now and then, but sometimes I just can't express myself greatly when it comes to you, which means i'm def E4 habjhbhjabshbhdb Jokign Okay I say it a lot but I appreciate you being in my life in general and you mean sososososo much tome 🧡🧡Sometimes I stalk you but it's okay because you say it's positive stalking and I'm still surprised that you find flattering the fact that I actively do that . . . It's been a good time since I actually wrote an actual actual appreciation letter for you but I would like to say that you're important to me in ways I can't even explain to be fair... I got this small typing quirk from you also "TBH/TBF" AAAANd the culprit is you, once more. Stil thankyou for making me so stupidly happy and giggly everyday despite how small the interaction can be during the day.. I respect you a lot so I would never complain about you taking time for yourself in days like these + I hope you rest well, I never realized how much talkactive I am till now when I decided to look at the messages ihuihiiuhi I love talking toyou & You brighten my day every single time !!! I also love calling with you and listening to your cute voice and laugh I really don't get how you mentioned people making fun of your voice,, It sounds so normal and lively to me I just love it man but to be fair I kind of am your biggest number 1 fan and like everything about yo,,, Also when you said I don't bother you my heart and eyes did the little thing were they start sparkling (Im joking thats just me crying) and jierfiuerf Sorry. I'm jsut super happy I have you in my life
15th july at 15;20 for me
I miss her SO MUCH I wish I could have the courage to message her but I feel like I will be lowkirkenuinely be bothering her right now if I do it,,, What can I say i'm a pussy . . . . Kind of. I should be focusing on watching legally blonde with my sister today but I'm lowkeu missing her a lot even if she sent me her good morning at 3;07PM, it must be like 9PM for her right now if i'm right I should not be acting liek this tee bee heicht but brahhh I just miss anyone who I like dearly, I miss Sol and Honk, please talkto me or I will be unleashing my E3 tendencies especially SX3. I lied I'm not even that close to being SX3 to be fair but I was still looking at it
14th july at 19;17 for me
We called more and more and we ended up like with 2 full days of call and some good hours to it, I would like to notice that I have never done that in my entire life as far as I remember besides an experiment me and my ex-friends did so this might be a reason to call her more special to me than she already is, today in specific I didn't do anything besides watch her do stuff with the most stupid smile ever that you can image < To be fair I wasn't much able to even talk because she made my throat hurt a lot . . . . Well, it's not her fault at all because it would sound dirty + It was my fault for not drinking water . . . Sorrysosrry sorry
Sometimes when I'm listening to music I like, I always listen to these super depressing looking musics that aren't depressing at all but I was listening to "Harvey" by Alex G and there's this one part at the start
"Success for my buddies, success for my friends
Success is the only thing I understand
Head back home to the place I grew up
Give my medals to the ones that I love"
They are lyrics that I heavily correlate with you for said obvious reasons, I really wish your success by all means and I wish that when you thrive in your life, I will be there by your side to see you smiling eiguieurbr I know it's more possible for that to happen in a LOOONG time but it's better than thinking it will not happen at all . . . I plan to get an actual job like I mentioned before and I'll be your salt mommy #sugar daddy:let me spoil you salt daddy: let me preserve you type sjit
I love this woman she makes me smile and be very flustered for no reason, sometimes I wonder if I was just gifted and I somehow bonded with her for absolute luck << I'm very greatful by that one day we randomly started talking about Typology and whatsoeverrrrrr It ended up in my giving you my daily goodnights and good mornings . . . I love saying good morning and good night toyou because I wish you always have a good day despite not every day being good, I wish I could always make your day better but I try my best . . . Seeing you happy overall makes me happy < Wait did I say you being happy?? What!! You being happy means you're actually mistyped and you're actually E2 hhHHH
Anwyays I jsut wanted to say like usual that I love paying attention to you and I love your attention back . . . As someone who needs attention 24/7 I feel like you complete my need for it as well and I do my best to stay by your side to also shower you with my usual affection and patience, also you're the first person I ever wrote a 16mb txt file just about you, your demeanor, your quirks, your thoughts and general just about you yeah so consider yourself very lucky!! ANYWAYS good night once more, also I wanted to say but sometimes I'm super glad you don't mind my interests and whatever I do unlike some very hyper-sensitive people that bug over me having your name in my thighs, anyways!! I'm just super happy, also I gave up on making you in DoL if it means anything < Means a lot actually because you're about to get art of you either way, I really like you as a person and probably nothing will change that SMH
I'm so cute
12th july at 21;16 for me
I feel incredbly sad at what happened to the big tartlet dot lol, and I wish I could have retrieved and copy and pasted the biggggg text I made for you there but I don't thinkt it will be possible, so I sadly will have to return to this fuckass site and #cope with my depressive state of not having anymore HTMLCSS properly to decorate my stuff and make it pretty, and I will sadly go cry in your arms (as you are my abusive wife) and KMS
I will one day try to make a rentry back here again, maybe, maybe later on but i'm jsut too tired about paste-stuff and I will probably be dwelling over this for a good time (or not) I am mostly sad about the loss of the server I usually talked in, but it's okay!!!I have you and my tiktok streak collectors so I will keep talking toyou anyways just a little bit more if you don't mind that . . . Maybe. Anyways thank you for watching me play slay the princess for what????? 5 hours??? yes 5.2 hours according to steam, non-stop, thank you for sharing your DID protagonist argument and also for being here with me during the literal downfall of tartlet and i'm glad I still have you to talk with considering now I'm probably gonna be shit talked by some, ahem. But still,ekjernfieubf Thank you for being here either way I lboe you
10:28 at july 6th for me
I would totally love to message you right now becaus e oh my god I miss you ( I was sleeping ) but ahabhoerhfierf I wouldn't want to bother you while you're playing Boblox, although I would invite you to play today i'm not entirely sure if i'm apt to do such act BECAUSE I don't know If i can make a sound or if I will die if I do so ( because of the stuff my happening within my house ATM ) nyways!! I was looking at videos of bunnies and they reminded me of you, if you were a bunny I would also be a bnnyu,, Anyways (again) I wanted to say I admire a lot your capability of arguing and making a general sense of stuff, I wish I could be like you in that sense because I see you in the Tartlet staff chat sometimes and you do such amazing takes . . . I don't know how you do it but just know that again, your number 1 biggest fan ever will always cheer on you and always admire you no matter what ieIUWEFIEF I wanted to say I find you pretty smart in these aspects despite you struggling or just not wanting to do such effort of making arguments in areas you're not much fond of, but I still gladly admire you and your way of making everything so harmonious sometimes . . . Not sometimes, I lied, it's all the time, i also randomly rememebred about you saying for me to do my own stuff whilst talking about me wanting to talk to you but!!! I always want to talk with you, if i'm being honest, so I wouldn't mind making any type of effort to do such act because one day I even cancelled some stuff I had to do just to be able to talk properly to you . . . So never say that again!! Because I will always try my best to have time for you in my life despite how busy I might be, which is technically a rare thing for me as I never properly did this with anyone else, as I mentioned before ( Ithink )
Thank you for being and acting the way you do,,, you have somoene that will always stand up to you no matter of your choices or opinions by sofar,, Hiiii that's me!!!I'm here
july 5th 2026,, I wanted to say that today was one of my most vulnerable days that I ever had so far this year, I just wanted to say that you made my day by just doing a simple thing as staying with me in the call today even if I technically only wanted to stream you a simple game (even if technically, it turned out into a horror game, buny bunny bunny what the freak) Anyways,, I just wanted to say thank you again for literally anything (not a suicide note ok) and everything,,, If you have a minute one day I would love to call you to read a note I made for you some days ago, it was more like a letter but I would love to say it to you in "person" (in voice technically) but I just wanted to say yhat you are so special to me that you brightened my day 100x than I could ever have imagined and asked,, I never asked for anything in my life besides have people around my side that understand me, or to just make me company as my heart was as lonely as anyone could imagine it to be because of everything that has happened in my life, and I will gladly say while crying while writing this that when I get older, i'm going to definitely remember you and you are engraved into my heart & I will forever cherish all the moments we had together (again, this is not a suicide note) and I wanted to say that I am very, very thankful for you for making my day everyday and that i'm glad I have you around me, you are genuinely someone so damn special to me I would literally abandon anything I have to do something for you and I wish & I wish for you to know that all the good memories I have with you will always be forever stuck with me, I hope I don't come off as cheesy while writing this but damn all the things I have gone through recently and I would love to kms at any moment but you gave me a strenght I did not I had to keep going ( and especially, I would like to say that everything we are gonna go through no matter what I'll say by your side) and I hope I also don't come off as childish and cheesy when I read the letter out to you or don't embarrass myself by crying through it,,, But to be honest, today I got confident on the fact that I don't have to hide my emotions and stuff around you and later then I got comfortable by the fact I cried during call (which I now don't mind if you heard or not) & Ahahahfbhrgihir today's brazil match was a total terror. But it's okay since well, I'm not that much into football but it made me remember that one day, I will try to get a good paying job despite already having a good source of income < This made me remember one day, thinking about you, I asked google "is it coercion if i wanna give someone money forcefully so in the future they will have a stable life" And google said it's not laughing emoji So I will totally not pull you up to whenever I live in the future if anything happens with you and your family . . . I would like to say that it's a wish of mine but I really hope you will stay well & I was super super worried the entire time you were super sick, I got super happy today by the fact I just got to hear your voice and you laughing and generally just talking since you were very bad, I like the sound of you laughing and your voice in general because I won't lie . . . It soothes me (ahem) Ow ow my eyes got crusty IDK not crusty but it got dry after I cried my eyeballs out, I wish I could give you the world or do anything to see you smile.
23:49 in the same day: Man I should write more for you but the last time I tried, something evil happened with my laptop for some reason but!! I think it was on my part to be fair, because I technically accidentally downloaded another virus ( which was taken care of, by the way ) & they are taking foreveeeeer for me to write!!! I generally don't know why but these days I wish I had more energy to do stuff with you, don't get me wrong I LOVE making up time for you but I kind of noticed I have been using my break-free time by just. SLEEPING. ( Which for instance, i'm not that mad about myself, but I like texting you in all the ways you can think of, I just don't want to sleep all day < I miss you even in my sleep, I'm that much of a "loser ) Aaaa a..aaa.aA. Senpai I think you woke me up during the call as well because after I cried, I kind of slept a bit for some good 2 minutes without you noticing ( Hopefully ) Anwyasy!! To the topic, I wanted to thank you for doing so much for me, by taking your time to remind me to do stuff and generally just being by my side, it means a lot to me!! If I could I would make you breakfast, if I was physically tjhere of course. I think you would love my pancakes if you like bananas ( To elucidate I kind of LOVE. I say love because I really like making banana-related stuff, which includes pancakes!! I don't know how to explain the recipe though, don't ask me it, it's just good. Ok. ) & Every time I call with you I have to resist a small urge on my brain to not just say I love you, or something similar, which I genuinely don't know why it happens but I like expressing myself this much while I'm around you < Technically, I do express myself a lot but not this much when it's not around you as I like to be seen as a non-annoying person ( as others call me that ha.ha ha ha that's so funny< i'm actually laughing I'm sorry for the toning of this message, I do laugh like this and I also laugh with emojis I'M SUCH A BOOOMERRRR) Also, believing that despite all my three thousand nightmares per night, it's nice to have someone that does look out for me ( as you care for me ) and it feels nice to have someone I consider special to me around me . . . also!! It's midnight... I was drawing my sona to make a little thing for my commissions, and after that I was going to draw one for you. But it's basically my curfew now!! I don't want to stay up tooooo late and end up replying to you with tardiness because i don't want to be seen like a bum who sleeps all day . . . But I mean, I can technically call myself one as that's all I do, blehhhn jn I woke up like, not much after the game ended ( that was a lie, I woke up 9:34PM, I think? But at this time, you are already sleeping and I wouldn't want to disturb you ) But well, before going to sleep I want to say, not would < I should start saying want isntead of would, because it's something I currently want to do but whatever!! I wish I could find a way to send you IRL stuff despite Turkey's obvious super-bad-security-paperwork-whatever-going-on thing and I wish I could gift you roses, I would probably leave a boyish name in the letter though due to your family, I would totally send you them under the name Eden or Adam, don't get me wrong but once I went by these names years ago and they're low-key aura, and I want to aurafarmmaxx around you to impress you so HWATEVERRR I would send you either tulips or lilacs because for me I associate you with lilacs, they're pretty and they also look very purple wahhwhawha I'm just rambling now about all the stuff I could possibly do to send to you,, I would write letters, of course, I already to that a lot but I WOULD LOVE to see you reading them physically and thinking "Oh my god bruhh what have I gotten myself into someone get this girl outta here" and read my unreadable cursive 🧡🧡🧡🧡😸I would definetely draw a lot for you, I wish I could do portraits in a better way because I would totally make lots of them of you. I definetely would bake for you if I could as well, but as I mentioned a good time ago I kind of like, have super suspicious looking food culinary techniques but i'm pretty sure they're tasty, I got your taste noted by now so I'm pretty sure I can cook you anything you'd like to eat as well, we should eat kebabs together one day if I ever catch you in the road ( acting like I would know turkish to even go to turkey first, however, one day I will try to see if I can get you outta here if you'd like), I don't even talk about you a lotttt in my personal life. totally. I say as my entire famioly and classmates and possibly more people know about you as I keep saying how much cool you are in general and rambling about stuff I would do for you < Well, I don't want to sound like i'm obsessed but I think that's fair considering i'm your dere ( apparently, yandere (???????????????????w)) Ugh I got to stop also having this icnredible homosexual-esque vocabulary I noticed I have i'm such a
00:11 In the other day, same day, IDK it's midnight whateverrrrrr and i'm like, off my curfew for 12 minutes right now actually, 1 minute passed. :If you weren't sleeping, I would definetely call you and show you my house again for absolute no reason but I guess I would have to clean my room first, it is kind of dirty & Messy but certainly it kind of represents my mind?? I don't know, but I also plan to have the ITA bag I mentioned I would make of you, and if my landlord let me, I would also definetely do something on my wall related to you, also, i'm technically writing how much i love you with 2 index fingers, i don't know why i'm doing this since usually I write with my middle, ahhahs aha ah getit the middle, i could try to record it but sometimes i keep changing the finger and it makes me aware i'm typing with my index RN, which I just got aware of again and will stop doing it also I lied I apparently don't text with the middle that much but I don't rememebr what's the name of the < Sudden stop because I realized I do in fact type with the middle, I'm braindead. I recorded a video of me typing this rite now so I will show it to you when I'm done with this,, Anyways hiii!!! I don't know if I will show you now before going to sleep again or after waking up from my sleep, however, I lvoe you!! I hope you're sleeping well (at the time i'm writing this) Also!! As I'm writing this again, I apparently reached the word max I could get in an HTML section, which I will DM van about it after ... Well, I DMED shy now but I hope shy fixes this later, while at that, I want you to know that you make my day brighter every single day and you're like unironically my sunshine << Despite me being very clingy I would say, I wanted to ask if you wanted to make matching widgets that will contribute to nothing in your life despite making me happy by matching with you ( I really, really love matching with you, as you have seen it, I will ask you to match something with me later, If I remember what was going to be it ) By the way, I think I can show my interest and admiration for you greatly as like, almost all my stuff i'm just "" Hii hii my name is Lain or I go by f*ck/fuck/freak I go by she it and I LVOEEEE my knight aka Sol I lvoe sol"" I just noticed I have that specific quirk to just say that aloud every place I get to, excuse me. Also, I don't know why I was crying while writing this but I think??? Sometimes I think about you and just go mannnnn there's no way she's actively talking to someone so annoying and miserable and NPD HPD abuser like me!!! Holy shit!!! And then I start crying because i'm a loser, definitely
00:28 in the same writing thing, i don't know if I can call this tomorrow another day past day I GIVE UPPPP!!: I was looking at pinterest because I wanted to add stuff to my super secret folder of stuff that reminds me of you, in the process I saw a south park OC named Kelsey which is a dog and has mini Kyles as pups, which got me frightened as hell and I wish I could not have seen that, but it's funny so I will save it to show you later
Sometimes I want to spam call you around because I can't believe I have someone like you around in general, adding to my last thing about this topic, you just make me so happy I'm never leaving you never ever I will be like to death with you if you let me, I like to thing about that one Sia music but instead of my snowman and me it's my knight and me and it makes me giggly happy flustered annything everything at once, is the effect you get me most of the time
I saw this one pinterest image and I will put the link here so you can copy and paste into your librewolf or anything I don't remember if it was Brave or that one, or if they're the same thing, anyways!! https://pin.it/1xi5zJgIj,,, Copy that okay? Okay
Anyways!! You know already that I love, adore, and cherish you a lot as a whole person so I hope I don't seem to cheesy in that one level you mentioned one day despite you saying it wasn't like it at all, i'm still super concious,, Anyways I wrote this with my heart once more but I would like to turn /wife into some stuff I jsut talk about you and etc, you can put your stuff here if you'd like to say anything . . .HIhih I lvoe writing about you, I say as I equally write more in my 15-now-16MB .txt file, I should write more once I finish cleaning my room which possibly will be soon as I'm writing this and everything is a mess but ahbiuweihwejd Anyways. I like the way you play Roblox also you're very very goodnat obbies to the point sometimes I feel like you're some kind of parkour master.
Putting this here because!!! I hit the word limit on Tartlet lol, which made me have to use another URL ha ha ha I am laughing while using my Lenovo IdeaPad Slim 3's speech to text while not using my Motorola Edge Lite 20 ROFL emoji. Typing this now from my laptop without speech-to-text I kind of realized how head over heels I look in this, also I had to use this forsaken site once more