there is so much guilt inside your heart
contact – art credits to he1zou_supremacy
we actually do have a polites alter but there's something nicer about rambling on about something we're passionate about, you know? you think this is a positive url? THINK AGAIN! i knew polites was doomed as soon as he sang open arms because it was pretty obvious that there was going to be a tragedy and it was gonna strike right into the heart of that sweet, motivational boy. his arms were a bit too open since it like. gave a wonderful opening to be bashed. you know. i think it's really funny how everyone collectively agrees that there was something most definitely queer about their relationship. polites was nothing if NOT a boykisser with that excitement. the animators just also did not help him beat the allegations. i don't really ship odypoli though despite it all because i never really viewed their dynamic as something significantly romantic. it's something entirely on its own. a bond that to severe is to tear into yourself to remove that piece of them that was ingrained in you. the impact it leaves on the person is how important that person was. the difference between a vital organ, a steady blood drip, or a harsh wound that you need to truss up with gauze. in this case between odysseus and polites, it was like losing a limb. the phantom feeling still lingers around and it still numbly tinges with the memory of it. you feel for it though it is no longer there and you think back on it constantly, analyze how things could have gone different had you just altered your actions that day. the cut that always bleeds is actually a pretty good song for what i'm trying to describe right now, i think. polites was that hope that was still present in odysseus life until he couldn't take it anymore and what used to be words that drove him now tormented him at every step. his memory was twisted as a mockery of his failures and it's a distraught feeling to be so aware of this grief and be so not in control. i think odysseus and polites are tragic as in they were so close but didn't reach that happy ending. but maybe they were never supposed to reach that point. fate demands what it demands.
extended – friend mc yap