I hate life i hate every single part of life
Its draining and so painful and i dont like when i wake up from sleep. My eyes feel heavy and i cant move
Depression took over me from the very start of life
Its not fair seeing people have more joy than me
I want to cry i want to die i want to be gone
I hope i end up dying a painful death to feel how much pain i had given to everyone

My friends dislikes me now , but i dont know what i did or what i do to make them dislike me
Is it really destined for everyone i love to hate me?
Maybe it is.

Its gonna be christmas soon
Christmas is just another depressing month for me to endure
The feeling of loneliness
And depression as always

I will never get better.