last updated: 27 april 2025

in the least emo way (not that i shy away from being emo...):
i'm trying to make it through, really. i'm not sure what, but it's sort of killing me.
i spend my days bipolar. i was inclined to say "but joy filled, as well" after that, but obviously bipolar would include joy filled... lol.

my life, mental aside, has been very good recently.
i've been playing video games again, and spending time alone. listening to new music, drawing, appreciating stuff. of course this...can only happen because i get offline for a bit. so apologies to my online friends.

school is good.

my friends are just. i'm thankful! i'm thankful for everything, recently.
if you're reading this, and we're friends, know that you're a contributor to my life being a better place

(and alike to something a certain character once said:
a place i don't have to try to escape all the time.)

i'm trying very hard to balance like...
a) NOT being a reject isolated freak
and
b) NOT being an oversharing dramatic mess

it is a real challenge. i will tell you.

but it makes me happy to read that. like, doesn't that seem like such a 16yo thing to say? that must mean i'm doing it right. and that's a start to making it through or something!!!!