Tora or Riyan 13 yo ♡ ext. PTSD. Chaotic-Neutral sp5 FLVE Choleric-Sanguine RPF Yumefujo Lamine riako by definition. Portuguese, Hawaiian & Japanese. Taken 04.25.24 12.23.24. Don't talk to me about nun i say here I'm here to talk to the void

07.28.24: whatever man. i think its just the night talking but idc im listening to it. i dont think jm weird??? id hope im nto weird. i only project onto him because i have no other way of coping if its not just straight up relapsing, but even then i always keep it private. ive always felt horrible about my projections especially since its on him and tbis really didnt help at all I don't know i was so unbothered earlier i don't know what happened. "2007 taking interest in a 2012?" that sentence mskes me so nauseous I don't know why. i ahte it im sorry im sorry im sorrh im sorryr im susrory imsberory im sorry im sorrry imnsrorry im sorry im sorry im so sorry i dontnknow why i cope like this i dont know why i feel these things i dont knkw why i d hslf the shit j do im sorrh ims rotrry i truly am jndotn want to upset anyone i dont want problems j dont want drama i don't want any of it i dont know whags wrong with me i dont knkw why i keep provoking people i dont know anything. i dontnknow whhats wrong eith me i wish i knew but i dont. everything i do feels right in the moment but its normally Not and i dont know why i canrnsee that. i dontknownindont i dong know I dont know please leaveme alone im tired

"imagine being mad over a url" do i need permission to be upset??????? im sorry im a easily upset person i cant help that. i dont know why its always a problem when i do stuff while you can do the exact same and worse and it be okay. you can hate on everyone ajd everything but the second i am upset over something i deserve to die. why???????? why is it always like that Why am i not allowed to feel anything without permission why does everyone have to succumb to your rules You're such a bitch get over yourself

I'm tired of yall. my name is tora and i like to have fun Leave em ee aloneeeee

07.30.25: Why does everyone become insufferable after using rentry Me included im not innocent either

i hate this court shit let me go home bruh my phone is at (ly)10

07.31.25: Last day of july wow. barca match today i Feel a bit dejected though. i wonder if he knows how i think of him and he's only interacting with me out of pity

Lol earlier (yesterday) j was getting mass ratioed with privste replies. apparently i told ////// to die????? i dong remember doing that at all. even if i did idk how she would know since i don't think im friends with anyone she's friends with? well except /// but he wouldnt leak my stuff to ehr. Yeah no i looked up her name on my priv and the only stuff i found was me saying im gonna kill myself over Honestly something silly but i was in the middle of a breakdown so. soundcloudd keeps pausing my music This is annoying

Never. mjnd. shit ton of oomfs are friends with Her i just searched it up. Also she blocked my priv 😭😭 not that i really care but its a bit funny to me. when did she do tha

SHE BLOCKED MY SECRET ACCOUNT????? HOW DID YOU EVEN FIND THAT????????? Whatthe hell. future tora How many accounts does she have blocked

Future tora here. 5. even my ia dpriv and my other account with only one of my friends 😭 It's night time (00:48) and i have nothing betterto do so im Doing this ok i dont really care i just domt have anytbing betger to do right now

Oh he's gorgeous

i was really nauseous earlier and it was the first time i cried in a fat minute and This is making me feel a bit better. i love him so much

08.01.25: YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IDOLY PRIDE. Happy girlfriend day to my wives. i love them a lot They r mine

Stop using AI on our players i will kill all of you Stop asking chat gpt to generate Raphinha with a ballon d'or stop asking chat gpt to generate a photo of neymar anr messi with the blurry iPhone effect thing YOU ALL ARE GONNA DIE

Héctor birthday tomorrow I'm nervous I love him

08.02.25: Happy birthday Héctor i lovenyou so much I hope you have an amazing birtdhay Fuck bruh im on the verge ofnpassing out im so tired Fuck my lfie proper paragraph Maybe later indont know

the fact that like 99% of the people agree that gojo is black is sendinf me Like hell yeah

08.04.25: Wgy os everyone named micah

08.05.25: first time not ghosting for attention #kindanervous but look what i drew in 2 hours no pauses Ok I'm proud sorry

08.06.25: ballon d'or tmrw nbttm

08.10.25: [deleted]. Mikeys birthday is in 10 days! and my stepdad gets out of jail innnnnnnnn 8 days! very joyous

also Tavi is very sweet I love him a lot. I love all his names they're so cool

08.15.25: Idk maybe I am a cunt. Probably. fuck

08.18.25: My stepdad got out of jail and mikeys birthday is in 2 days yet i still can't feel anything Lol. everythings been driving me crazy recently but i still don't feel much. i don't know if it's my mind playing tricks on me or not but i haven't really thought about foomf like how i used to. Whatever j dont know how im feeling and i dont really want to dwell on it. i think her words are catching up to me Oh god. my new weird obsession over arda güler (why?????? hes a madridista) is either keeping me grounded to reality or making me spiral even more. i really can't tell anything anymore
tora moodboard Why do the imgs look like that i hate it.

i want an arda jersey but #Yk he plays for madrid and youll catch me dead before i wear anything madrid related so i might get his national jersey. Do i care about turkey? no. the only national team i care about is spain. I'll go look on mercari

ok there's nothing on mercari except madrid LMAO I tried to search other places but his jerseys are like 100$+??.? bro the average lamine jersey is like 40$ (from what i find) Fym 100$ BRO THERE WAS ONE FOR ALMOST 800????? Please i love arda but not enough to spend 800 on him. Also i thought nbrgaf about him otuside of madrid Damn bruh 💔 idk i never really met an arda fan in general so I don't really know anything. i seriously want /arda so bad but touma owns that url snd i don't want to cause problems so I'll back off. whatever man

These r very torarda. I think I'm parasocial Fuck my life i didnt think this was possible with anyone except lamine. I hope this'll go away in a week just like all my other off side obsessions

08.23.25: Hey Guyssss Why does my presence botherso many people I Know i said i want people to groan every time they see my rentries or whatever But! i think i just like the idea? The idea of my presence having an impact on someone makes me happy Because that means I'm relevant! but when it actually does idk what to do and i just. start freaking out s bit Dude i hate this. Tje concept of someone missing tora 💭 I've been treated as an outcast and freak my entire life And knowing that I'm somewhat relevant to people to the point they miss me when I'm gone Makes me a bit happy.

there's nothing i hate more than people who don't krnow me trying to shittalk my behaviors or tell me how I act You have known me for a few MONTHS. Who r uuuu to tell me i don't act like _____? Please dude it takes genuine time to actually know me Not even some of my closest friends fully know me And that's ok! because it takes time! but apparently you don't know that Idk it just makes me mad because then they'll most likely talk to others about me like that and then said person will think i act like that and then it'll build their perspective on me off of lies And j dont! like that!!!!! i hate my name being lied on dude i hate it so much I Think if you do that u should diiie

there's a difference between "oh she's annoying" and "she just sprouts nonsense about everything she likes" stuff like that Because one of them is an opinion and the other is just. lies! I don't care if people express their annoyance about me because i don't expect EVERYONE to like me and people r allowed to express themselves however they want but when they start lyingggg

mari is so sweet i love her so much I feel so bad dude. when syd lied to me about all the things she apparently "did" i just went with it because i hated her and i was grasping onto everything negative i could about her And it only recently hit me that he was lying Dude i think i should just die

Barça match in a little bit I'll report back in an hour Ok i think I'll start being more active here I hope

I lied the match is in like 40 minutes so until then im just gonna Talk about whatever

people who still think i act like how i did when i still went by mita (uuuh( Make me laugh. i wonder how many people think about that paragraph i wrote a year ago I think about it a lot. every time i get a new oomf i always search up my past username on their account Dude j hate that name so much i never want to be associated with it ever Again. it's cute sure but not on me

if tame ever reads any of my entries dude I'm gonna die. seriouslym. Im starting to think that he actually enjoys Me? ive always thought he hated me ever since we became friends or that i was secretly annoying him So whenever he displays affection or even the slightest hint of anything positive towards me i start freaking out Even simple goodnight and goodmornings make my stomach hurtNot in a bad way? whenever he likes one of my tweets that aren't replies to him dude i start crying Imso scared that i act like a little bitch around him or that he thinks i act corny I doubt it but.,,. idk i think I'm just extremely paranoid . although its a lot better than before. Dude some timess i imagine a "hey tora" text from him with some Paragraph following it snd it makes me feel sick

sorryenough about him. Earlier i got a money offer for /lamine And honestly i can't imagine giving up that url so i Don't really think I'd do it but it was Still shocking? i didn't think anyone cared about that url except me and i Didn't think anyone on rentry rlly cared about lamine like that To the point they'd spend money on a url? i dont like this The idea of someone else owning /lamine hurtsbmy head Goodbye.

i really love arda like a lot. almost as much as i love lamine. he's like one hair away from being on the same level as lamine in my Thisis so scary dude i seriously didn't think i would ever became parasocial with a footballer that isn't lamine Much less a Madridista. el clásico going on in my heart LMAO

ithink kud js tired of me Talking about tame dude she always invades my Conversations withhim. Fucm i said enough about himSORRY

im waiting for my phone to get to 90% because i want to go outside and jm extremely impatient i simply csnnot wait until 100%. Amen. like 14 more minutes until the match 13

i csnt wait until /##### is available Please dude if someone else gets that url instead of me I am seriously going to end it.

I lied my mom has to dose I'll walk later~ i love cars

HI BARÇA CLEAAAAAAAR. I LOVE MY CLUB MES QUÉ UN CLUB !!!!! SER DEL BARÇA ÉS EL MILLOR QUE HI HAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK DUDE IM SO GLAD THAT ONE DUDE IS STUPID THANK YOU FOR THE OG THAANK YOUUUUU is this what they meant when they said the orange kit clashes? Dude that entire match made me so suicidal j was literally screaming at my mom over text every time something happened You don't understand how excited I got when i saw "OWN GOAL" on my screen i almost threw my phone i coudlnt stop shaking

DUDE THE PERSON EDITED THE URL I WANTED TODAY NO BRO PLEASE PLEEEEASE

08.24.25: Hi it's currently 1 am. I'm still thinking about him I think about him a lot it's really Hh My platonic feelings are a lot more intense than my romantic ones and i!!! seriously don't want people to mix them up. I've spent all my life trying to understand my own emotions and work on identifying them and I'm finally being able to do that so people mixing them up or telling me I'm feeling something I'm not Really upsets me.

Uhg i dont even know why I'm upset rigbt now Really nothing happened. i would freak out on my priv but j don't wanna worry people for no reason Time to dig myself into a grave until i think of something reasonable to be upset over

madrid game today Arda's ratinf was 8.8 i stopped psying attention all together once he gor subbed off Honestly i was never really paying attention i was too focused on my rentry but

dude i tweeted soemthing about bluelocks version of football earlier wjile talking to my friend and tame replied to it IT WAS SK FUCKING HORRIFYINGN I WAS DREADING HIM SEEING THAT BEFORE I EVEN POSTED IT BECAUSE I WAS SCAR3D IT SOUNDED LIKE I WAS TALKING NONSENSE But he said he agrees so? Its ok. i was in tears though dude i aas so scared

My biggest fearr is people thinking i only like football Becuase its trending. because i do genuinely enjoy football and I'm trying to learn more as fast as i can But my mind is. extremely wweird so i can't really learn like others and I've noticed that i talk about the sport and players a lot different than others snd its Genuinely horrifiying. i domt want people to think i only like players for their looks i dontnwant people to Think i only care about lamine and not the rest of tje club bEcuase its nothing like thst at all idk sorry I'm paranoid rightnnkw. i always am paranoid about this but its bad specifically right now.

08.25.25: dudeThis is genuinely taking me otu IDK if it's genuine hate or not but either way Im laughing Not because theyre hating itsjust. funny to me.

Thisis also taking me out I Know I'm a culer but i love huijsen and arda theyre erally Funnt and they play good ball #hellyeah ok im outside rn ill update later

jesus fucking christ
just stop with this bullshit
no, football isnt lgbtq. its not gay, its not yaoi/mlm media. football isn’t queer.
it’s a sport. its a HETEROSEXUAL sport played between two teams of 11 players who almost exclusively use their feet to propel a ball around a rectangular field called a pitch.. your pathological need to make everything queer is pathetic.
They're all friends.

08.27.25: ????? Dude this is actually freaking me out so bad and its BEEN freaking me out ever since i first got the gimmick Wdym he likes me more than a friend How do you know thaat? IDK He's been acting a bit weird lately? emphasis on the question mark Ouhwloyrd i think the day has finally come where i lose my mind. Also the incident from yesterday wasso?????????? Fuc my stupid baka life I really hope I get more details from the anon They're probably just fucking with me I seriously hope they're just fucking with me People tend to like to see me suffer onljne and i wont be surprised if this isn't any different THE THING THATS SCARING ME IS HOW THEY KNOW HIS NAME??? I was talking to jydan about it yesterday and she said thst it might be him But the gimmicks r too short for. me to really decide yet. Ugh i really don't want to get ahead of myself there is a really small chance he likes me What even would make him likeme? i dont know i kdnntknkw. Emphasis on small THIS TIME I'M GONNA DO IT

idk I Doubt anyone reads thsi so i can just talk about whatever Right? fuck dude i still love rin so much Like genuinely. I've been looking for thiss artist for so long because i could never memorize their username and i unfollowed them back in like. idk whatever month i "got over" rin. And rhen they just randomly appeared on my tl again? Ok ? its like fate IDK love is a strong word letmee ponder a bit more.

my fuckjng Arm hurts so bsd

Whenever people i ddnt like get into football it makes m3 a bit Mad? ithink if u've ever shittalked m3 You do not have the right to like footballll..... Imjoking idk do whatever it just pisses me off erally bbad But at the end of the day football js like the most popular sport So wtf can i do

I Am. a Bit upset when it comes to #him i feel bad i feel so Bad he didn't do anything at all IDK why im gettingupset i think i shoulr die He is the sweetest boy i have ever met why am i so ungrateful

09.01.25: Hello! yesterday genuinely fucking sucked Barça's game was shit and inter miami lost 3-0 to the sounders and i was irritated the entire day For some reason. I am rarely wver aggravated i was genuinely losing my mind H elp how do people stay mad on a regular basis. tge only good thing that came out of that day was the talk i had with tame Oh he is so sweettt i love himso much I was crying the entire conversation Out of joy. because nobody has really been nice to me ljke that since cid and that Was? late 2022-august 2023 so like. 2 years ago. Other people still have been nice to me but not liek thst... IDK I was freaking out to elona the entire time Hellp. also that video he sent me saying that he would watch my games made my Heart hurt

Also me and him became friends 2 months ago Wow can you imagine tha? 2 months of torame. umazing. He said i should try playing striker when i start practicing So i will try that... I'm still unsure what i want to do but I will follow his words

sometimes i wish i became friends with him earlier so thne we could probably be closer but then i remember how i was a few months ago and its Like yeah no. holy shit how did freaksters deal with me They've been with me even through my rin obsession Oh they real ones i love freaksters and all mg ogher friends

09.03.25: A pity she does not exist a shame he's not a fag the only girl I ever loved was Andrew in drag

09.06.25: maitora500 + freaksters 1 year Wow? September so freaksters. i jsut asked to make a shared rentry It seems so fun The world needs to know of freaksters Yes! i lauv my friends nothing will ever happen to us.

earlier I hsd the best pancakes of mg life but i was able to take like 7 bites before i felt like i was gonna throw up It Sucked because they were so fucking goor It's a shame my stomach sucks