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𝄞 1/8/26 𓈒
I brought you into the new year :) Even though I've only known you since August, I love you more than anything. You're the most beautiful girl I've ever laid my eyes on. You did awesome on your EU tour. I know you're resting up now, enjoy it ♡. You deserve everything in the world. I hope you're having fun , sitting back and playing Fortnite or watching a new anime. Or maybe you're
watching a new movie? Have you tried any new foods? Bought some new jewlery? I know you got a haircut that you're not so sure about... hehe. I was going to say something else, but I forgot... you know how bad I am with that.. I'm seeing you 3/4/26. I'm so fucking excited. I still don't know how I convinced my dad to let me go. I'm really happy. I hope you are too. Love you ~ !
𝄞 1/10/26 𓈒
Hello love • ⩊ • ! Thinking about you as always. I bought a commission of you ~ super cute I don't have much to say... I'm very tired brainwise. I haven't been doing good either. I hope you can forgive me. I know you do, but my brain loves to doubt things :') See you another day, love!
𝄞 3/4/26 𓈒
I'm writing this on 3/9/26. I loved your preformance. I lost my glasses lense. I will always love you. I don't know if I'll ever experience anything close to seeing you onstage and barking. Save you sweat for me! You were so hot, I wanna drag you away from those other people who call themselves "fans"... I hope my presence made you feel insanely paranoid. Love you! Also you have ocd.
𝄞 3/9/26 𓈒
Okayyy... I forgot to write to you. I'm sorry. I've been in an insane creative burnout, but I promise I'll start being more dedicated to you again. I felt your presence a few days ago (no.. not the concert...) so, Hello? You seem to be coming around more often :) Love you, goodnight! Also remember I will always welcome you, even if I'm upset... I notice you seem to back off when I'm angry.
(2:08 PM) 𓈒 What the fuck is wrong with you. I dedicate my entire existence to you and you decide to do some cool shit at another show and not mine? You stupid cunt. Whatever. I still love you. I'm just jealous and upset. Xoxo. Actually no let me really get this through your head if you do anything I deem special at a concert I'm not at I will fucking maul you. I'm your biggest fan and your boyfriend and EVERYTHING YOU COULD NEED!!! SO STOP!! xoxo. No wait I'm not done. I love you. I love what you did at chicago. LAST XOXO.
(6:01 PM) 𓈒 Sorry for that I love you I love your stupid smile and your teeth and im really sorry im really in live wuth giy
𝄞 3/10/26 𓈒
Hi noah :) my friends want to say hi to u. "Uhm.. hi jonneys wife" is what stuart macher from the hit movie scream 1996 said... "wow you're so cool noah im so glad i get to know the cooooolllessttt band man ever through proxy of my bestfriend jonney. please shout out jonney in your next song and make more roach merch xoxo, butters" said butters :3 "bye noah" said billy ;3 ok godnite
𝄞 3/12/26 𓈒
Hi Noah :3 You've been looking so good lately. You're glowing. Your hair is so pretty and your eyes... wowwie. I love you. Sorry for what happened at Boston.. whatever that was. I heard the guy was racist so maybe he deserved it. Who knows! Love you :)
𝄞 3/13/26 𓈒
I love you so much ohmy godd ur so cute i cant take it ur so adorable ur like a newborn baby if it wished to be a 30 year old man . ur so cute and ur FUCKING GLOWINHG UGHHH HOW AR EYOU SO PRETTY ughh i wanna run my fingers thru ur hair.. my beautiful prince! i love uu :3
𝄞 4/10/26 𓈒
Long time no see, baby! Sorry! I always forget to write but I know you know I never forget about you. I love you.. ur so smooth. Smooth faced baby. 30 years old and 6'3 but youre 5 to me :) not going to specify if thats perverted or not. Love you ! <3
𝄞 4/27/26 𓈒
Im sorry for being gone so long baby.. its jollys bday today!!! hope u all have fun :) ive been doing pretty bad but the thought of you always cheers me up. Love you soooooo much!
𝄞 5/30/26 𓈒
Hi baby :3c I haven't written here in some time but I have talked/written to you in other ways. Your tour starts soon! 3 days! I'm so excited! Don't act up. I'll be watching Everything. Love you! Kiss Kissss
𝄞 6/6/26 𓈒
It's odd how much I love you. It physically affects me sometimes. I love you so much, you're absolutely perfect. Even if you think differently. I love seeing you preform, you're glowing! Your voice sounds incredible too. And whoever you guys replaced #Him with is excellent at their job. The weird voice they had for TDOPOM was odd and I'm glad they changed it lol. Kissy kiss. I wanna run my hands through your hair... Maybe you'll come by again? Please? I miss you a lot. Love you :)
𝄞 6/8/26 𓈒
I am going to hurt you
𝄞 6/15/26 𓈒
Haie ~ You been looking so good. Like really good. I wanna tear your throat open with my teeth and cling onto you like a needy child. Youre so cute! Nice armpits. Stop shaving. For Me? Love you! Please visit me some time again!
𝄞 6/25/26 𓈒
i think if somebody asks about your armpits again i will kill myself. Anyway i love u sorry i was too busy being a kid and beat up by my dad in 2016 to be an og fan but i love you. Something will happen to you. Nothing bad . Love you
𝄞 7/2/26 𓈒
I love you so much please Ughh i feel like shit lately and youre really the only thing keeping me going. I wish I could draw you or make anything useful. I hope me loving you is enough. Sorry if it isnt.
𝄞 8/6/26 𓈒
I know... I havent written in awhile. Ive been stumped. Not doing good at all. I wish youd come by. Or show me something. Everyone else gets them. Love you
𝄞 8/22/26 𓈒
Our anniversary is soon :) I love you so much, I almost never stop thinking about you. Even when i'm having the worst fucking day ever... you're still lingering :) I started school and it's exhausting. But I have a pin/keychain of you on there, so atleast you're with me <3 I can smell your cologne and feel the warmth of your skin and the glow of your smile... I love you... stop by in my mind some time :) you're always welcome .
𝄞 8/29/26 𓈒
Today is our One year anniversary. One year since I've been infatuated with you, one year since I've looped half of your band's music, one year since I couldn't stop thinking of you. Sometimes I have doubts that you love me. I really, really hope you do. I care about you a lot. I don't know where I'd be without you or your band's music. I wonder if you think of me, or the concept of me, or anything relating to me. I hope so.
I'm so glad I got into your band when I did. You love your bandmates a lot and its refreshing to see someone so full of love and positivity despite going through so much. You're well put together and I love your eyes and your tattoos and your stubble, I love your voice speaking and singing, I love your humor and your old streams and Everything. I hope one day I'm your guys' top streamer :) But even if the statistics don't show, I'll know nobody can ever top my love for you ~ Stay safe, stay happy, and good luck in Rio De Janeiro! I'll talk to you more tomorrow when I finish up my drawing and actually get some rest.
𝄞 9/4/26 𓈒
Hi baby! :). New month! I love the fall, I know you do too. I just bought some merch ~ use my 147 dollars Wisely young man. I love you so so so much I'm serious. I love you. You should be extremely proud of yourself. You and your band have gone so far in only 10 years. You may not like your debut album, but I love it a lot. It showed you were suffering, it conveyed a feeling that I can't really find in other albums. Its raw. Its in pain. Thats why I love it so much! I'm so glad you were able to better yourself.. and now look at you! So Dapper!
Nicholas, Nick, and Jolly are such fine men too. Tell them that. Tell them the roach that torments your everyday life says theyre some fine chaps :).
Speaking on fall again, I have lots of plans. I get to see my friend for her birthday on the 12th, and it's Billy's birthday on the 9th. My dad and sisters are also coming up too. Me and my friends are also planning some halloween stuff, and I'm going to their schools homecoming! Ive also been doing alright in school ~ I love you so much, you keep me so motivated even when I'm at my lowest. I'm confident with you it'll eventually get better.
Did I mention I love you? Hehehe. I hope youre able to get some good rest tonight so you can do your best at the show ~ Which I know you will anyway. Think of me :)