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"tl;dr this, i'm not reading all that!" no.

i am commonly referred to as vane. i am also receptive to the name saccharin, i go by many other names but are most familiar with those two. i am sixteen years of age, and respond to any pronouns, though i do prefer she / he. introjected by 1, 2, 3, and especially 4, so my identity may seem to shift.

• i suffer from borderline and narcissistic personality disorder. i do not take pride in or romanticize having these disorders, as people like to think of self-diagnosers. i am attempting to get the help i need, but it is difficult, as i do not have a stable support system. i am not the stereotype the general public likes to project of those with personality disorders, everyone's mental health is different.
  • i am frequently perceived as apathetic, or blunt, and my tone can be unreadable. i do not use tone indicators, don't use them on me. please ask me to clarify if you have trouble interpreting my tone. i may slip into formality and abstract metaphors when feeling especially detached, and will not water down my own writing to satisfy the general public. please do not jump to conclusions regarding my emotions, i rarely display genuine anger.
  • i am also socially unaware, please approach me if i have made a lapse in judgement. i do not know what is wrong if you do not tell me, i am not good at reading minds.
  • don't try to trigger a split on purpose. it won't work, and nine times out of ten, i will see what you are trying to do and laugh at you.

if you are disturbed by my actions, i suggest you keep your distance.

• romantic advances are fine, but i might be lukewarm at first. though i may seem cold and unfriendly, i warm up to those i take a liking to. i am on the aromantic spectrum— i will almost never chase, and only develop attraction towards those who have already displayed their romantic interest in me.
• i have a deep appreciation for media / musical analysis. i enjoy listening to different parts of a multitrack, reading into meanings of songs, implications in media, etc. you can find more of my interests here. i can be overwhelmed easily by calls with people, and frequently prefer silence over social interaction. i usually have dms off in most servers, they are open in some servers i am active in. my friend requests are usually closed as well, if the situation requires urgency, ping me and i will open my dms/friend request you accordingly. please do not spam my dms unless we are close friends, while i appreciate the thought, it can be overwhelming.
• i am a yumejoshi, married to my beloved, dante. i am sharing, because i am mildly delusional, so i don't mind other dante yumes. i don't think you love him as much as i do, and if you think you are on par with my affection for him, you are terribly mistaken.
• back to my introjected characters– though i am heavily questioning plurality due to frequently depersonalizing, i am not, and have not claimed to be a system. (yet. i hope plurality isn't the case, and it's just psychosis.) however, i am undeniably intertwined with my identities, as you can introject traits and attitudes of characters onto yourself without quite literally, being them. with that said, i am extremely protective over the identities mentioned, and do not take kindly to people insulting, or especially mischaracterizing them. do your research. i don't care if we share identities otherwise.

you can find my specific dni here. back to top