08/18/21 is kinda amazing im not gonna lie

Hi. I really enjoy your company, even if we don't talk as much anymore. you're one of my two favorite people ever, and you've been for a year or more possibly? (im not sure) i really cant believe that its been almost 4 years since we've been friends and i just want to let you know that I never once got tired of you .. everytime i hangout with you it can literally make my whole day. i really appreciate you, even if i rarely say so, youre one of my bestest friends ever.

i still think about you alot even if we dont have proper conversations. i think about the times when we'd be inseparable and still smile, because it was actually an amazing time to be alive. thanks for being patient with me, i love you so much, platonically. whenever we play roblox (or any other game) i get really giddy, because you have time for me even though i know how tight your schedule can be; i also really like how you tend to tag along when i talk about my interests, fixations, and all the stupid stuff. i still dont know how you havent left me yet and im really grateful you havent. (youre my geng geng forever..?)

i remember when i first met you, i actually hated you. so very much, actually .. the deez nuts phase will never go unmentioned when it comes to me, sorry not sorry. chi's staff server and everything was fucking insane. what a time to be alive

you were always there for me when something shitty happened so i wanna do the same, even if you make fun of me after, because i know youre just joking (if it was out of the line you'd stop, knowing that shows me how caring you can be) i dont usually have any gifts for you most of the time, if i ever got a spare nitro or some leftover robux id give it to you in a heartbeat. (which is a really rare occurance because i dont like sharing at all)

almost everything reminds me of you, i love assigning you characters in new fixations, i love including you in.. everything. ive never really been an overly affectionate person but youre an exception, youre always the exception. i think its nice how we normalize mimicking eachother, like whenever i start using a new word youll copy, and whenever you do so ill copy you. we both get somewhat upset when someone copies us and thats.. really corny (its a really nice feeling though)

i also associate you with pink, the color. every tint every shade i see, i think about stuff you'd like when im doing something random... i see a pink character, i point and go "umi would like this" // i like how i beg for you to match avatars on roblox with me when i get a fixation and youll be like "ok sure" and then we go in stupid fucking games like bedwars and start playing. (which is normal but i just think its funny because its us)

i think about your art all of the time. you render so perfectly and sometimes i ask myself how you arent famous yet, like, holy fucking shit???? its kinda weird watching you draw because you went on a pretty big art hiatus, and somehow still improve..? how can someone draw so good? im so honest when i say im probably the most... 'me' when im with you, knowing i have a really bad sense of identity. i also appreciate how we still use stupid petnames as jokes or say weird things knowing we'll never be into eachother. (we were just built platonic and im so glad we will stay this way forever.)

im sorry if i ever make you feel anything negative, its unintentional most if the time (unless im petty and/or in an episode) and i.. dont know what ive done wrong. tell me if i am doing something u dont like. i want to be there for you, so just tell me everything you want to, and dont bottle stuff up

my irls know about you btw, i told many good things about you. I hope you realize how much i care and how grateful i am for you... i know youre probably tired of me asking if you can stay up or if you can play with me but i genuinely just want to hangout more with yo... and i know that might be selfish of me because i also want you to take care of yourself properly and be physically healthy

i feel like this wasnt enough but i dont want u to get bored soooo.... here we go.. if you were to ever like actually leave me speaking realistically, just know in my heart there will always be a very fucking fat space filled with you and yan tian daybreak. i associate you with yan tian so much. brenda saw you and said lets make a self insert of umi ok trust me. I care about you alot and youre the awesomest person ever and youre so supportive and nice and im rlly grateful to be in your presence like whenever i see u online. OK i love u so much dont ever stop being my friend, i beg. (im sorry for sometimes bothering you and being emotional cos i know its corny as fuuucckkk . i feel very comfortable in your presence, knowing youre.. 'spiritually' there really helps me cope. im really glad youre still here with me)