rants

oughh izamai you are SO dear to me 💔 everyday I spend thinking about you two... no other ship has ever brought so many emotions out of me like you two do ITS NOT EVEN ONLY YOU TWO ROMANTICALLY 😭 even just as a duo you can still bring me to tears... Mikey cares so much about izana even when he knows izana 'resents' him 🥹.. "My big brother, I want to save you..." ALRIGHT??? this entire fight just brung every single emotion possible out of me, I've never been so conflicted... WHEN MIKEY SAID THAT HE STILL HAS AN OLDER BROTHER (IZANA) AND IZANA STILL HAS A YOUNGER BROTHER (MIKEY) AN THEN IZANA PUT HIS FOOT DOWN ... 🥹🥹🥹 you can't convince me that izana didnt wanna kiss mikey right then and there. god words cant describe how sad they make me... even if they make me the happiest their relationship still makes me so SAD 💔. the complications between them... izana is just so broken and hurt I neeeeed Mikey to help him get through everything.. oh my God I talk about this scene so much SORRYY I KNOW IM GONNA MENTION IT SO MUCH BUT WHEN IZANA PUTS HIS FOOT DOWN AFTER MIKEY SAYS THEY STILL HAVE EACH OTHERRRRRRR....... FUCKKFUFCKKIOFJOIFR I NEED TO DIEDIEIDIDIEOIEOIDOIDJBDIUEWHIR!!!! and the scene where mikey says "Why, Izana?" and then izana gets flashbacks to shinichirooo... everything about izana character breaks my heartttt I need to give that boy a fat kiss HIM AND MIKEY DESERVE THE WORLDD...
"Little Andy, soft in your newborn skin
Only one, little Andy, will you return again?
I believe we can renew
And you could be my brother
Once again, fall asleep with our backs against each other
You believe, I believe too
That you are the river of light who I love
That I sing to in the belly of the empty night" THIS IS SOSOOSOOS IZAMAI.... LORD HELP MEEEMEMEMENIOQJHIUFHREUICVH sorry I am in TEARS right now its all over my keyboard oufhughuf... I cant even say izamai save me because I need saving FROM izamai.. these Stupids r taking over my brain I cant even focus in class because my mind is just "Izamai... I wonder if izana truly hates MIkey.." "Izamai" IZAMAI IZAMAI IZAMAI ITS ALL IZAMAIIIII!!!!!! I look at fanarts of them and all I can do is SOB. I read fanfictions of them and SOB. I listen to songs that remind me of them and SOB. EVERYTHING THAT INVOLVES THEM I SOB OVERRR... I have never actually loved a ship nor duo like how I love them godddd words cant express it... Mikey is the savior of izanas life (EXCLUDING SHINICHIRO...) and I will DIE on this hill... I have such a different view on their relationship than others do, I could literally go on rants for hours and hours on end about how I don't think izana actually hates MIkey... IM NOT DENYING HIS RESENTMENT THAT IS DEF THERE!!! but hatredd?.??.? no. I think with the whole death of shinichiro it took izana a long time to process it because... yk... that was the only person he viewed as family. and because he was still grieving, since it was kazutora (one of Mikey's best friends) who killed him, he viewed it as Mikey's fault since (like kazutora) the entire reason shinichiro was even killed was because kazutora was trying to get MIKEY a new bike for his birthday. and like izana said, since it was one of Mikey's comrades who killed shin izana blamed it on Mikey because ya.. IM TIRED OF TALKING ABOUT THIS OK. and like I said he was still grieving and upset so he took it out on Mikey and confused his jealousy etc as hatred.. I THINK ITS THAT BECAUSE OF THE WAY MY BRAIN WORKS!!! PLUS ITS A COMMON MISTAKE TO MISINTERPRET ANY NEGATIVE FEELINGS TOWARDS SOMEONE AS HATRED. I can understand why people believe izana hates MIkey and I am completely open to hear anyone elses input on their relationship and izana feelings towards Mikey (as long as they are respectful when talking to me about it and aren't like "AHHHHH NOOOOJKNOKOKPOJOIR YOURE WRONG!!!! STUPID!!!" or sum like that.. I will not listen to you if you approach me like that).
I really just want to see Mikey slowly help izana and izana slowly coming to peace with Mikey's existence and the fact that shinichiro is dead. yk... if we bring up the thing he said to kakuchoooo... "Forget about the dead, they can't protect you anymore"... ya... SOMETHING ALONG THE LINES OF THAT OK!!! THE TEARS ARE REARRANGED MY BRAIN AND GIVING ME A HEADACHEE SPARE ME MERCY 💔💔💔. Another day of izamai YEARNING!!! I want a fanart of grown Mikey and kid izana interacting and vice versa (adult izana interacting with kid mikey) IT DOESNT EVEN HAVE TO BE ROMANTIC OR ANHYTHING I JUST WANT AN INTERACTION BETWEEN THEMMMM 🥹... that one official; art of them as kids made me AWHHHHWHHHHHHH ykw fuck that any izamai interaction is dear to me no matter the age... actually this morning my entire mind was filled with that one timeline where izana is first introduced and calls Mikey "his Mikey" likeee?????? the same things happened with shinichiro in that timeline (since takemichi cant change the past from THAT long ago..) and izana STILL called Mikey his... so what if we got an actual interaction between them in S3 and izana tried to kill him IN ONE TIMELINE IZANA STILLLLLL CALLED MIKEY HISSSS MIKEY DESPITE THE STUFF WITH SHINICHIRO... WHAT PROVES THERES NO WAY THAT CANT STILL HAPPEN?????? I just need them to 💋💋💋 already WE ALL KNOW THEY WANT TO!!! LIKE CMON!!!!!!!! I know I said I can understand why people think izana hates MIkey BECAUSE I DO but I can NEVER understand people who think izana ONLY hates MIkey and that's it... like no other feelings towards him except hate like??? its okay to say you don't look into things... or maybe its because I see everything in my izamai tinted glasses so I see everything between them as a chance. WHAAATEVER..... 🦆🚗 look ghe duck bigger than da car nun of dis shit real... izana owning a Mikey plushie and when he's around people he treats it with disdain but when he's alone he's a bit more open to it.... ouuuu...... OK I just want to say I'm not saying izana is completely in love with Mikey and all softened up to him awww mikeyboo I love yewww typa shit I UNDERSTAND HES NOT LIKE THAT!!!! IM NOT MKAING HIM LIKE THATTT!!!!!!!!! there's def still some jealousy and resentment on izanas side AND IM NOT LOOKING PAST THAT AT ALL!! I may be izamai biased but I'm not ILLITERATE... I just think theres more to his feelings than just "DIE MIKEY!!! DIE!!!!!!!"... I dunno though I'm an anime only ok 💔. I love them so much i need to rip out my heart and scrape the meat off my bones to give as an offering