I don't take it too seriously—in the sense I am "anti-doubles", or believe I myself am any sort of reincarnation, but I do take it seriously in the sense I think...that seeing yourself in characters that you can easily understand and...play around with, is probably good. And I don't see any problem with thinking that understanding a character may be similar to understanding yourself. I also don't really believe in doubles, in the literal sense. To relate to a character in that way, like, to see yourself in them, that must be such a personal thing, I'm not sure any two people could really "be" the same character in any meaningful "double" sense. Well Whatever. I just like talking, this isn't that important.

Although on top of that, it's clear to see why the terms used for kinning nowadays are here. To 'relate' to a character in an "ID" sense is different to relate to a character in a "c'link" sense—and I think terms like those are important. They're telling people what about the character to think in relation to you, which, frankly...I mean...if you're not telling people what about a character is you, then whats the point, really?

Take for example, two of my own kins. Dirk Strider and...I don't know. Mizi Alien Stage. When people think of Dirk, I'd like them to think of me. His character has been important to me, in my life, to help me understand myself better (additionally, if you reading this happens to know anything about Dirk Strider, I'm sure you know that genuinely "understanding" himself would be a big fucking feat). Also, you could know him on a surface level and see what about him is me. This is because almost all aspects of his identity relate to mine. Like an "ID".

When it comes to Mizi, just her being a "c'link" should tell you that, likely, part of what makes her 'me' is her life itself. It should also tell you that I probably don't act like her, or will be her in any way that you can see. I mean, maybe—if it was about a disability or clearly identifiable issue, or something like this, sure. But I think all of "coping" is so personal, it's pretty likely it's hard to tell. It's really just saying, I think, to display that publicly, "this character means something to me".

So, I don't know. I think it's kinda serious? Because of course the way People interact with Characters (which mimic who we are, what we know, what we think, etc etc, obviously) is important. Just because I happen to use a couple terms to try to get you to see their importance to me (whatever importance and its nature may be) doesn't mean I think I am the reincarnation of a made up character.

I wonder if some people would say "then you aren't kinning. spirituality is what kinning is". Nonetheless, my point here is that I use kinning as a...um...tool of sorts, I guess. I mean it's fun and shit, fo sho. Ever kindated? CRAZY. SHIT. Never do it. Unless you both have the exact same perception of a cast, maybe... Shiveerrrsss. Chills man, chills.

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I'd like to say thattt. That my interests are absolutely not based in my relation to the cast, or whatever. I have no issue seperating a cast from myself, or others. I can see them as characters, and as people, sometimes—to love them on a more conceptual level than is typical for that of a tool serving a story.

But theres still times they're me, yes? Just because when I think of Dirk Strider I think of what he means just to me and my identity does not mean I cannot talk about Dirk Strider the homestuck character with people, or even on my own. It does not mean I don't know in what ways this identity, character, is not like me, or not real, or whatever.

For all of my interests, but especially Homestuck, TGAA, Mouthwashing, The Magnus Archives...I do not like these things just in relation to myself . Like, I REALLY don't.

I have a self insert esq oc for mouthwashing. I sometimes draw him hanging out with Daisuke, but I think people get the wrong impression. He exists as a way for me to further the existing plot, like, and that's all I care about. The details of the story. What makes it a good game, and experience. With Mouthwashing in particular, I really do have a hard time even thinking of it as more than its plot—chapters, details, storytelling, just...everything BUT how it relates to me. Because it doesn't relate to me at all, really.

Now, with Homestuck, wherein a character greatly impacted my identity, and can serve as a representation (says me) of myself, I mean... it's basically the...exact same. I sometimes, then, talk about it more personally, and everything does mean something to me personally, but I adore it outside of that.

I don't think it's something that can be um... corrected, or properly made clear.

When I type like a character (probably because I've just been thinking of them, but obviously only thanks to me talking quite a bit like my Guys), it probably gives off the impression that these stories, to me, exist...for me. Now, obviously no one thinks that exactly. But they...they feel it, sometimes, for sure.

Its sort of like when...when you like something shit because you spent so much time on it, or you have good memories with it. Thats the opposite of the way I am regarding my favourite shit.

Of course I too have some interests like that.. things that I see basically exclusively through my eyes. Things I've never sat down and thought about. Like fuckin...Lamento, or something.

So, relation is not the basis of my interests. But relating sure does keep me going. And um, it's fun, also.