5/10/2025
ok um. hi kaiyul starting off idk how to feel about you guys i think i have a love-hate(ish?) relationship with you 2 idk how to feel about you guys anymore i still like you guys but not that much anymore yes you guys saved me from multiple suicide attempts but sometimes i wish you guys didnt either because i still remember how delusionally attached i was with you guys like id genuinely harm myself over peoples negative opinions about kaiyul and yall got me doxxed by a yulden fan because of me liking u guys. i still love you guys SOSOSOSOSO much but you're not all that anymore, my heart belongs to someone else and that is my precious, (ily stanny <3) i don't like how i spent 102k on you guys just for me to be a massive woketard when i was surrounded by kaiyul and i wasn't slapped back to reality when i was hypnotized by kaiyul and some boring chopped ass toxic yaoi. again i still love you guys so much still but i need to stop myself from hyperfixating on other things because it'll eventually be the same thing like what happened to me and kaiyul, you're a good ship and everything but i still don't like how much of a delulu skank i was when i was extremely hyperfixated on you guys, like i harassed so much people because they said they hated kaiyul and i still feel so bad about that like what the fuck was i thinking. i think me getting cancelled in dctwt was the best for me because i finally woke up to my fucking sense and realized that i was a massive retard and i took everything of my hyperfixations seriously, you guys are still awesome yes you guys are still the top at my favourite ship tierlist (probably because i hate every disventure camp ship ijbol) you guys are really cute and all but im still being with you because i can't control my hyperfixations and i can't get myself to hyperfixate on something else because eventually i'll go back crawling to you and miss boring chopped ass yaoi. actually i lied about kaiyul being the top of my favourite ship tierlist i love yulsaak and juul very much theyre way better than my kaiyul obsession making me go all delulu again and i love yulsaak very much but it wont stop me from killing myself, also i find it really funny how u guys stopped me from multiple suicide attempts and next months you guys went to being the reason why i was at the mental hospital for 3 days. this was a good lesson for me to realize that i need to control myself and i might need to stop myself from being inlove from something so small because eventually i'll find myself a way to go crazy bitch if i see a bad opinion about said something so small, ummm again i still love you guys you guys were there for me when there were rough times and nobody was there for me except for the person that used my mental breakdown against me and leaked everythung in my account meant to have sensitive and triggering topics and called her own sexual harasser innocent for me but you guys are not all that anymore and i'm happy i've realized that. i don't like that i made people hate kaiyul but it's okay i'd hate it too if someone famous in dctwt forced people to like boring toxic yaoi slop.