why I, Four, am THe nUmber one Four Fan
.... And Four iRL
FIRST Hi Ive known & liked Four four three years now through watching clips and animation memes, and in late 2023-early 2024? i watched some of bfdi yep i mainly did it to get to bfb because i wanted to see the numbers. i stopped midway because i was an impatient child but yknow.
then in very early 2025 in january i started watching it again! i started from bfb. JUST four Four ive always Thought they were the coolest. the number 4 has been my favorite four literally fourever maybe since i was 5/6? the square has always been my first/second favorite shape, right now it's my first! the second is the octagon. with 8 sides. 4(2) is 8. ive loved fourtwo four so long, my first osc ship, and.... 4 times 2 is 8.... octagon. also 8 is vriska. im also a vriska hehehehe. yes ive always liked Four and i have always seen myself in her! not only because of all the 4(number) related stuff but because.... dude he is SO similar to me personality wise
SECOND huh I Wonder why Four's so similar to me personality wise. ITS BECAUSE I AM FOUR. Another thing. Four is pretty commonly speculated to have Bpd/show symptoms of it.... hey, me too. im not Gonna go into the details of that Coz? Why would i????but Yes me too integer. I read the whole Four wiki last summer, but today, I did it again just so I could list all of the things/keywords that were used in the ""personality"" section and say whether they fit me.
surreal: yes? in a personality way i often feel like the way i act is ""surreal"" because im kinda. nonsensical sometimes ::'3
strange mannerisms: definitely!!! i like wiggling my hands around, making weird sounds, and just movin around a ton all to express myself in conversations! also my texting style is fucked up im writing this ""regularly"" so its .legible lol
fun loving: Yes!!!! i see Four in early xfohv as a younger version of her. i am a fun loving person all the way through but i think i was even more fun-driven when i was younger!
friendly: Yep. im actually a Rlly friendly person ((specifically with people im close to)) I Just get annoyed easily ::'( but i ESPECIALLy was when i was younger! now im a little more mean.
intelligent: Obviously. if you claim to be ""THE four irl"" and you get consistently bad grades then hop off lmfao. sorry that was mean but YES im a very smart integer! im pretty sure i have been like top 3-4 smartest kids in the class since literally like 2nd or 3rd grade. befour that i really don't remember but i've always had awesome grades. im only talking about academic smartness
thoughtful?: Yes? I think this thing is talking about like the stuff Four did with One four (((what she thought wuld be)) the safety of everyone? in a lot of ways yes, ESPECIALLY if it regards the safety/happiness of my favorite person/people but again i experienced this personality trait much more when i was younger.
unforgiving: Yep!!!! this is talking about Four RIGHT after One did the stuff they did.... and yea me too. over time ill fourgive people but the peak of my anger is like a few minutes/seconds after something happens and 99% of the time dont accept apologies and stay very bitter at that peak of UPSET-ness. AGAINNNN especially when i was younger id like never fourgive people lol
cruel: Mhm!!!! this is in the same context as the previous thing, and id like to also follow up on it ::) at tht time when im rlly angry at someone i might do very mean or irrational things. OH MY MATH AGAIN, especially when i was younger
strange: Sure! im a strange girl i do strange things and i get moments where i wanna come off as weird or unpredictable because it makes me feel special and fun
erratic: Yes!!!! i do things ""erratically"" iDK how to explain it but yes thats me
reckless: eyup. especially when im emotional i do things without thinking and often like. things that will hurt me and that i know the dangers of just becase i want to or because i feel like i need to do them. im an alcoholic wtf do you expect
""furious if talked back to"": Yea? i dont like being interrupted and i dont like people disagreeing with me???? a lot????
""merciless"" when provoked: Um. Ok dude I Guess bruh when im rlly angry i kinda stop caring about whats best for others at all
hates criticism: YES! oh math i hate criticism and insults so much never say i did something bad ever iDC if i actually did something wrong. if i do something wrong i KNOW IT you dont have to remind me and make me feel worse asshole
calmer/friendlier when helped: MHM!!!! This is talking about ""Enter the Exit"" ((<3333)) where the contestants recovered Four. yeeees definitely im sosososo Nice when someone does something for me that i Rlly wanted or Rlly helps me .yay.
neurodivergent?: thats what the wiki syas. i mean. i suspect it a lot. fuck america why dont i have medical insurance yet therapy and psychologists r so expensive ::(
insecure: OBVIOUSLY Yes very im the insecurest sometimes....Lol
childish: Yep!!!!A Lot!!!! i just use fancier words i havent grown emotionally since i was like 7((exaggeration.maybe.))
emotionally unstable: OH MY MATH YES!!!! ive had moodswings for literal years and theyve been even more extreme the past one and a half year. a big part of my behavior is how. unstable it is
control freak: YES!!!! i feel like if i let others take control of projects or like. anything. that they'll mess it up. even if its someone i trust more than anything in the world im so scared to ever let anyone take control of stuff because im terrified of them doing something wrong i only 4000% trust myself Sowwy
narcissism: Yees im the narcissist. doesnt Six literally call me one in tpot 23? ""what a narcissist"" youre right six ::)
fear/dislike of abandonment/replacement: OH MY MATH YES YES YES YES!!!! PLSS THIS IS ONE OF MY BIGGEST TRAITS i HATE BEING REPLACED OR ABANDONED my biggest fear is suddenly everyone in my life not wanting me anymore or finding better people My biggest fear has been that exact scenario for YEARS. im also constantly irrationally afraid of being abandoned/replaced physically like what if my mom fourgets to pick me up from somewhere. what if my stepdad leaves my mom. what if my class goes out and the teacher fourgets me outside. im so afraid of these things even if theres no explanation to it
WIP I'll do Battle For Bfb and TPOT later im tired Ok?
THIRD my whole identity is Four. some parts of me are Four with some alterations but theyre all still just. Four. id say someone who depends on a character for it's whole identity is a bigger fan than anyone else! I'm an otherkin and with all of my identities besides Four I view them as ""Me if I was ((the thing that they are that I am not as my physical self or Four, eg. four Vriska it's ""me if I was a troll.""))"" this doesnt Apply to my animalkin identities because those are ""worldly"" creatures and. It's different ok? Spidercat Four is basically canon anyway. i promise you when i say i mean it 4444% that Four is 4444% of my identity! thats more than 100%, if you couldnt tell! i promise you my four-identity is much stronger than anyone elses' could efour be! ::)
FOURTH i NEED there to be 4 of everything that there can be 4 of. this aplies to texting---- have you noticed how i put two "s when quoting something on each side, to make four 's in total? did you notice the 4 ----s? did you notice the 4 ((paranthesis In Tota;l?)) did you notice the 4 dots in my elipsises.... did you notice how my emoticon has 4 eyes? ::) my main reaction emoji on discord is the 
! i always try to put 4 emojis in total if im gonna do more than 1! I sometimes shorten words to only 4 ltrs, I rlly love doin that! whenever I extend my wrds, I try to make them 4 ltrs in total or I put 4 of the expaaaanded lttr. also whenever sometimes there isn't 4 of something i Genuinely feel. distress. unhappiness. this applies to random stuff like in cooking i NEED to shake salt onto somethin exactly 4 times each time i do it. i Need to always use 4 of those.... toilet paper things. i try to do everything i can 4 times. i always count in 4s. whenever i tap something with my finger or knee, i do it 4 times.... hahahaha.... DID YOU NOTICE HOW I PUT 4 HA'S?! AWFH also did you notice how i change words like before to befour &&&& forget to fourget??? and at the start i think i replaced my for's with four's. i regularly do this in typing and even in iRL speech i put emphasis on the four sounding part whenever i say those kinda words. Uhm also I'm kind of an Alcoholic, a thing I Do is i take 4 gulps each time i drink Okay its weird but its fun to count. almost alll of the time i count in groups of four the things I do, like, if i'm hitting something, i hit it 4 times. and if i accidentally hit it more than 4 times, i have to hit it 16 times since 4x4 is 16. Please. you dont get it i Love Four, both the character and the number, more than anyone else ever could! Cope ::))))
FIFTH ((hi Shu-Five.)) nearly all of my iRLS and all of the people i regularly talk to know me as the ""four"" person. whenever one of my friends or even like my parents see Four, they tell me about it! also everyone i regularly talk to and even some people i see just sometimes know about high-fours. Because i do them all the time. Wontcha high-four me? Hehehehe.
SIXTH I Dont identify with any gender, but i do identify with a label, agender. I don't like neutral terms too much since I'm not nonbinary, i Don't like masc or fem terms too much because i'm not binary either, I see myself as completely outside of the gender spectrum! the terms and honorifics that RLLY feel like me are ones related to Four or the algebraliens! Integirl ((that one i like just because its clever)), integer, your fournor ((alongside many other honorifics related to Four I've made up four myself!!!! they're here), algebralien, number, and sooo many more!
SEVENTH this doesnt mean too much but I have a cool asss shrine of Four and I've had it four a year or more now! I'm getting more stuff for it rn, when I'll get it I'll post a picture here ::))))
EIGHTH Hiii remember the thing about spidercat Four being basically canon? that was a joke Especially the cat thing but. Ok So i'm the #1 Spider lover I've loved spiders for 2 years and have gotten over my feear of them through pure love and adoration. also I'm a spiderkin. ORIGINALLY BFB'S HOST WAS GONNA BE A LARGE SPIDER CONFIRMED IN THE 2019 BFDI x II MEETUP! Four is secretly a spider, prove me otherwise LOSer. Pssh. That's why I made a whole song about how Loser is a loser. Despite your popularityyyy~~~~
NINETH Hi. My roblox avatar is a four cosplay and it has been like that for at least 6 months now;;;; i Dont feel like finding it so. my username Is @julia_sorry0 Lul. I've also done a four cosplay before.... like, Irl. I have a tiktok video of it ((that is privated)) i'm Not going to show myself doing that here 'coz i Privated that video for a reason, so Believe me or not, but for that cosplay i ruined a whole rlly Cute cardigan on accident and didnt feel sad like at all because it Was a righteous sacrifice. That says a lot about my Fourness
TENTH Random similarities! Four's favorite holiday is halloween, confirmed in BfB 24! SO IS MINE! IT HAS BEEN FOUR FAR BEFOUR I EVEN KNEW THAT FOUR EXISTED! Also, my birthday is on the 27th of October. Halloween is on the 31st. that's 4 Days apart. i'm as Four as it gets lmao! also in that one tadc merch ad where michael huang voices Bubble's ""cousin"" Le Buble? BUBBLE IS ONE OF MY TWO FAV CHARACTERS IN TADC AND ALWAYS HAS BEEN HELLO. Four is a judge in BfB 24. I've wanted to be a judge or lawyer befour, specifically when i was younger i Rlly wanted to do that.... Also Four likes being called honorifics specified to her ((your fournor)). HI ME TOO?!?!?!?! Pretty much all of the things Four does are related to him ((like her whole inner world is just. herself)) ME TOOO i Rlly only like things ((characters, etc)) because They have stuff that reminds me of myself in some way. or theyre just THAT goated, examples being Gravity Falls and Steven Universe 
I Think Four has this with BfDI.... or Maybe he sees himself in announcer. Four from BfDI is a fictionkinner In the show?! Joke. iF It matters At All ,my Favorite alcoholic drink is. FoUrty% ABV. in Enneagrams im An e4. with an 8 Fix. sx486 Specifically Heheheh. Um Very random but? you know the BRB/Big Rotating Building? My favorite/second favorite artist is Devi McCallion, I especially love her project BLACK DRESSES and the album Peaceful As Hell! One of my favorite song songs in it is CREEP U, the fourteenth song. At least on Spotify? and one of the lyrics in it is ""I'm a building that's condemned with only bugs living inside...."" HELLO BUILDING. THE BRB. AND ONE OF THE OTHER LYRICS IS ""Hiding in spiderwebs...."" THE SPIDeR!!!! SPiDERS!!!! THE ORIGINAL BFB HOST!!!! PLS!!!! It's meant to be. I Also use loud sounds ((screaming, stomping, hitting objects[[or the person]])) to shut people up like Four does! I can also screech. Alsoooo ""Four might secretly hate Five possibly because they are a number greater than him."" ((from Four's wiki)) HI I DO THAT TOO envy-based hatred. Also the ""secretly"" part haha me too I often hide my hatred for people when it's convenient or far far far far less dramatic than showing it. Four has a kraken form. Krakens are very similar to octopi. OCTOpi ARE SOME OF MY FAv SEA ANIMALS! Also I Used to believe that Krakens were real when I was a kid
Okaaaay That's all I Can think of Four Now i'LL add more here Sometime!