my name is primarily ivan, though i interchange between many.
anyone is permitted to call me “my lord” or similar—just don’t overstep, especially when using such titles. it is not only disrespectful, but shameful and uncomfortable as well.
i go by mainly he/him pronouns, but other non-feminine ones are also accepted: hy/hym, hx/hxm, it/its, angel, sin/syn, etc.
titles like my saint or seraphim are reserved for those who know me well.
i don’t mind what you call me, as long as it’s said with reverence or recognition.

i yume a few characters, but would rather keep our relationships private for now.
i love deeply and seriously.

i kin extensively, both for coping and for memory.
my kintypes include animals like white rabbits with red or blue eyes, crows, tigers, snakes, polar bears, and dragons.
i identify with inanimate things too—porcelain, mirrors, pocket watches, broken pianos, wind chimes, old glassware, and objects of devotion like altars and hourglasses.
spiritually, i connect to saints, angels, false gods, prophets, spirits, vampires, and tarot archetypes like the lovers, the hanged man, and the fool.
i have lived as the healer, the witness, the sacred marionette.

i experience identity fragmentation, likely due to C-PTSD, along with other things i may have.
i am diagnosed with C-PTSD, MDD, and GAD, but i haven’t yet been evaluated for other things i’m questioning.
i have a neuropsychological evaluation in a few months.
i cannot be professionally diagnosed with certain things due to my bodily age—please bear with me.
i do not claim to have DID or OSDD, because i believe i’m not allowed to (correct me if i'm mistaken).
until further notice, i’ve chosen to list C-PTSD as my primary label.
i do have parts—i’m just unsure if DID/OSDD are the most accurate terms.
if i had to guess, OSDD-1B or something similar may apply.
for many years, i stayed quiet about this part of myself, but as more people become educated and larger communities form, i’ve decided to be open.

i’m currently working on introductions and pages for each of my parts.
some have pages made for personal use.
several of them prefer to remain private—please do not push this.

if you have questions or would like to be friends:
discord → @driftiebun
anyone is welcome to add me.

links: tbd