don't refer to me by any name on here. not even alois/the main ones. don't refer to me at all #TY
While you're at it don't even interact with me I'm not a real person on here. Ok? okay!

any pronouns. I default to he/him, I don't care what you do.

I'm highkey an apathetic, sexed up and paranoid beyond believe parasite existing only because my mom was too much of a pussy to abort. I act like a mental defect and a freak because all I am is an old dog waiting to be put down as it keeps uttering incoherent nonsense like a newborn puppy. (I'm funny though I swear)

I have / am diagnosed with a myriad of disorders / disabilities and such. it's like some evil scientists were snorting meth and percs in a laboratory and the end result of throwing whatever they could together was me. no specific diagnoses I'm gonna mention since this page is public and no stranger needs to know what's wrong with me but I'm a neurodivergent — clusterfucked dog. I'm like that one dirty pup you find out and about on the street; you feel really bad for it but you also want to kick it to the ground further to remind yourself that you're not a failure and you're in control Lol.

I'm cohesive barely 20% of the time I talk on this account. I'm not medicated so maybe that explains it. I am extremely normal though trust. I love my life. I delete posts a lot especially because I'm unashamedly symptomatic on here and I cringe at myself afterwards. because why am I like that whyyyy why am I like this

content warnings;⠀episode-ic / symptomatic behavior, (intense) self harm talk, ed stuff / possible body checks, trauma or trauma dumping (neglect, abuse, cocsa / csa / general sexual harassment because catcalling and meeting weirdos seems to be the norm for me). hard, unhealthy chain smoking. I will post during episodes and vulgar or immoral language will always be present, directed toward myself and other people. I'll rant about wanting my mom to die every other day. I love her, I promise.. I might also throw in a little talk / an occasional breakdown over my non-humanity / issues with fitting in as a / being a human every once in a while. #Monachopsis #Maladaptive Coping. I also shit talk people on here like a crazy whore on coke yelling at people on the street

I'm mentioning them here and nowhere else, I will not repeat these in any and every sensitive post I make. but if you're here then I assume you're aware of this already.