my name is whatever you wanna call me, default to alois tho I'd appreciate if that's not the only name you called me.

alois, malachi, letty. cater to my display name if you're really unsure.

he/any. I use he/him for myself idc what you do.

I'm highkey an apathetic, sexed up and paranoid beyond believe parasite existing only because my mom was too much of a pussy to abort. I act like a mental defect and a freak because all I am is an old dog waiting to be put down as it keeps uttering incoherent nonsense like a newborn puppy. (I'm funny though I swear)

I'm diagnosed with a bunch of disorders and disabilities and what ever the fuck else. so much that it looks like they loosely looked up symptoms in the dsm, ripped the pages, stuck them to me and went about their day expecting me to handle the rest on my own. no specific diagnoses I'm gonna mention since this page is still public as fuck but I am a neurodivergent — clusterfucked dog. I'm like that one dirty pup you find out and about on the street; you feel bad for it but you also wanna kick it into the ground.

I'm cohesive barely 20% of the time I talk on this account and act like I just escaped a ward. I'm not medicated so maybe that explains it. I am extremely normal though trust. I love my life.
I delete posts a lot especially because I'm unashamedly sympto matic on here and I cringe at myself afterwards.

content warnings;⠀episode-ic / symptomatic behavior, (intense) self harm, scar or scab healing complaints / pictures (never of the fresh wounds), ed stuff / possible body checks, trauma or trauma dumping (neglect, abuse, cocsa / csa / general sexual harassment talk because catcalling and meeting weirdos seems to be a norm for me). I probably will post during episodes and / or breakdowns and vulgar or immoral language will almost always be present — directed toward myself and other people. I'll rant about wanting my mom to die or wanting to kill her every other day. I love her, I promise. if all my posts are wiped suddenly or you're removed, I probably had a paranoid breakdown, just follow again. I might also throw in a little talk or breakdown over my non-humanity / issues with fitting in as human from time to time. #Monachopsis #MaladaptiveCoping

I'm mentioning them here and nowhere else, I will not repeat these in any and every sensitive post I make. but if you're here then I assume you're aware of this already.