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SIVAAN'S SCROLL

This is a comprehensive list of how I define my alterhumanity. I'm open about being alterhuman, so I figured it was appropriate to make this webpage.

Below, you will find that my experiences are largely rooted in alterfictionality. That said, that isn't all there is to my identity, so feel free to check everything out!

Main Labels
I define my experience with the following labels:

Additonal Labels

Bold: Core identities
Italicized: Constels that are frequently experienced/shifted into

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What Am I?

I am a fantasy shapeshifter. The fantasy genre is intrinsic to my identity, particularly my core identities, hence the specification. As a shapeshifter, I have two base forms: a bestiary and a fictional character.

As a bestiary, this started out as a part of my transspecies identity. I am a bestiary in a literal sense, meaning I'm transitioning into an object that collects information on beasts and beings from various places. I also mean this in a metaphorical sense, as in being this object is reflective of how I experience shapeshifting and constelic identity. This is experienced in an active sense as well. I thoroughly document my species and lives with as much detail as I can to support my personal compendium (identity).

As a fictional character, the contexts in which I am a character varies in many ways. This may come in the form of constantly present identities (core identities), identities stemming from parallel lives, or constels, which come later in this life.

I explore and build upon my fictomeres through imagithropy. Writing and making tabletop materials help me facilitate a relationship with my fictionhood. I am not bound by my sources' canon nor creators.

Although the following fictotypes aren't my only fictotypes, they're the essence of my fictionhood.
I am:

  • The Winged Lion
    • Although this isn't my sole identity, I often depict myself as this fictotype the most. This is because I'm most comfortable being this version of myself.
  • A Metallic Dragon
    • I am a Gold Dragon, to be specific. Furthermore, D&D has no set canon. The closest to a "canon" I have is 5E, and even then, that's far too vast to pinpoint as a singular "canon".
  • Elios
    • This identity coincides with my identity as a gold dragon, often complementing the former.
  • A Sunfire Elf
    • Canon-divergent. I don't belong to the official canon of The Dragon Prince; my canon exclusively focuses on my kind and Lux Aurea.
    • Very rarily, I recall the other elven societies of my canon and nonhuman communities in Xadia.
  • Kerberos ("Kero")
    • This identity coincides with my identity as the Winged Lion, often complementing the former.
  • Patchouli Knowledge
    • Canon-divergent.
    • I personally nickname my canon "Touhou: Scarlet Fantasia". This is due to the very surrealist, dreamlike quality it has.
  • A Mahou Shoujo Sphinx
    • I do not come from any established mahou shoujo media, at least when compared to my memories of my canon. My source is a magical girl reconstruction sort of series. While it approaches the genre from a very different angle, much of its expected themes and aesthetics are still there. The gist of this source is simple: "What if the monster of the week is the magical girl?"
    • Seven young people, all of which are mythical beings from an alternate Earth, frequently venture into the human world to stop other interdimensional threats from invading said world. Each of us are represented by our personal species and an element or celestial body. For example, I am Magi Sphinx and I am represented by the sun.
    • Aesthetically speaking, this source favors Magic Knight Rayearth and Saint Seiya. As such, I am also talehearted towards both manga series because of those similarities.
    • I'm also fictionvague towards Kory Bing's Skin Deep. My feelings towards this work of fiction is largely in a fictionhearted context, though I see similarities between my world and the world of Skin Deep that may stretch beyond those feelings.

Core Species
Aside from my fictotypes, I also have two all-encompassing identities:

I'm a shapeshifter. I have a shapeshifter in the folkloric and mythological context, to be specific. I don't view my core identities as "true forms", although they arguably fill the same role. They represent who I am down to my very source, rather than identities that I adopt over time or only identify as due to chance.

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Parallel Lives

All parallel lives of mine are fictotypes. They may not be as central as my core fictotypes, but they're still relevant to my experiences within this community and are innate to my identity. Any fiction-based identities of mine that don't contain exomemories or noemata are my constels, or ficstels, instead.

  • Zonai
    • Canon-ambiguous. Mammalian draconic shifters, at least in my canon.
    • Zonai Dragon: Draconified form of my Zonai self.
  • Artisan Dragon
    • The Reignited Trilogy is my source. I am a non-canonical character who resides in Dark Hollow. In this fictomere, I am a poet and a librarian alongside many others who manage the tomes of the Artisan Homeworld. Originally, I was raised among the Magic Crafters; My father had been Cedric, and my grandfather had been Hexus. In my teenage years, I migrated to the Artisan Homeworld as the community better aligned with my interests.
  • Aura Guardian
    • I am a pokémon trainer, most familiar around Hoenn and Unova respectively. Originally, I was a full-fledged Necrozma, but after my light drifted out into space, I arose one day as a human. My background is essentially a reverse mystery dungeon scenario.
    • My canon has its own timeline. Its closest connection, source-wise, is to Pokémon games. That said, not all events as seen in the games are applicable to my world. Given my past as a Psychic/Dragon type, and that same experience being held by my companion, I've bonded with a Latios from my world.
  • Monster Rider
    • Canon-ambiguous. MH Stories-based.
    • Where I come from, my mount is a Nargacuga. I am a scout for my township, scoping out areas and aiding my companion with my bow and arrow. I also took up a Nargacuga linktype in honor of my companion.
  • Dragon Rider (Nyoka-Damu)
    • HTTYD Otherhuman. Canon-divergent.
    • Although my canon is based within Dreamworks's version of HTTYD, it's not interchangeable with the films' canon.
    • Nyoka-Damu, or "serpent bloods" / "serpent-blooded" people, are individuals with a close spiritual, interpersonal or otherwise "unnatural" connection to dragons. We are among the class known as dragon riders, but our cultures are not interchangeable with that of Berkians. In my canon, my dragon-brother (i.e. the dragon I rode) is Morningstar, a blind Stormcutter.
  • The Stranger
    • Canon-ambiguous.
    • Before impersonating Captain Hawthorne, this fictomere went by the name Calvin Cooley in my canon. Half-human, half-megafauna mutant. Constantly in fully covered space suits to hide mutations.
  • The Beyonder
    • Canon-divergent. I come from my own canon/"Earth" in the Marvel universe.
    • Contrary to other Earths, I'm visibly black in my chosen form. That said, I am not the version of myself from Earth-32102, i.e. the one who also happens to present as black.
  • Phantomilian Dream Traveler
    • Canon-divergent.
    • Although I have the same species and role as Klonoa, I am not Klonoa himself. In my canon, I am a Phantomile resident who teaches newfound Dream Travelers (like Klonoa) about dream traveling as a practice and how to unlock their potential as they travel through worlds.
  • Inktale Sans
    • The preferred name is just "Ink", given that I feel completely detached from being Sans and how I'm expected to be (regardless if it's in context to canon or an AU).
  • Halfblood Child of Phoebus Apollo
    • Canon-ambiguous. Roman Heritage. Legionnaire.
    • I am not any canonical, named character from the Riordanverse. I'm a Halfblood otherhuman whose story is not established in this world's canon. That's probably for the best, seeing that my exomemories are on the more graphic side of things.
  • Lionblood Mundu-Mugo
    • Otherwise known as Dragon-Sorcerers amongst the Night Fire Herders. Mundu-Mugo are the descendants of Ninka Nanka (Wagadian Dragons) and Night Fire villagers. My source is The Wagadu Chronicles, specifically the TTRPG in its 7th Era.
    • Although I was born a Swala (an antelope human), I made the ritualistic practice as an adult to become a Lionblood. I made this choice because even though I respect the lineages I was born into, this lineage in particular better reflected who I am.
    • Based on my upbringing, I also have mixed Swala-Fire Asiman ancestry. This likely ties into my connection with both antelopes and the element of fire.
  • The Watcher in the Wings
    • Canon-ambiguous. I take the form of a tetramorph whose body is shrouded in inky darkness, save the overall shape of my gnarled, black wings. Sometimes, this form can appear humanoid but not always; it tends to fluctuate in appearance if anything.
    • Performance is only a facet of my domain. My domain as a whole, however, is storytelling, mainly the decisions behind it and the execution of it. This is why my critique tends to be heavy on those who invoke me.
    • Contrary to what my source says, I am not a "god". I am a creation meant to fill the void within my creator(s). I'm more self-aware than some beings in my source, so I'm not all that connected with them or the overall narrative surrounding our existence as fictional entities. Even so, I do not renounce my source.

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Constels

Identities that were incorporated into my life over time. Some are involuntary, some are voluntary, and some have no known manner of origin besides simply becoming a part of me. All of them experienced through polymorphism, consistently fluctuating between them and my other fictotypes.

Although they weren't innate from the start, I am still these constels. I undergo phantom shifts into them. I have constels of varying experiences (fictionality, animality, concepthood, etc). They're still experienced as any identity would be. They just orbit around my core identities and parallel lives.

Ficstels
Constels that are based in fiction. Some ficstels also overlap with other categories (such as mythic identity and animality) and be placed there instead of here. Unlike my fictotypes, my ficstels are not parallel lives of mine.

  • Colossi VI
    • Canon-accurate. Also known as "Barba".
  • Dwemer
    • Started out as a linktype. I am proud to say this is the first of my links that have become so natural to me, that it eventually became a constel. That said, I'm still proud to say that I chose to be a Dwemer.
  • Mossflower Badger
    • Started out as a link. I chose to be a Badger of Mossflower Country simply because I wanted to be one. I've adored the badgers of the Redwall books since I was a child and take immense pride in taking the steps to become one of them. Although it's not canon-accurate, I am particularly an anthropomorphized honey badger in this constel.
    • I personally align with the badgers of Salamandastron. I am no lord or lady, though. I just align my badgerness with this specific landmark and its history within Redwall.
  • Werelord
    • Canon-divergent. Werelion of Bast. My world falls very far off the beaten path from the books. Essentially, it can be summarized as "What if the Catlords' coup against the Gray Wolves failed?".
  • Rougarou (South of Midnight)
    • Canon-ambiguous. I'm closer to a vulture beastman than an owl beastman in this constel.
  • Homebrew Manticore
    • Can change between anthropomorphic and feral forms. Folcinteric.
    • Originates from a canon-divergent Theros in my source (D&D). In this setting, I am the only known manticore, so I am simply referred to as "The Manticore" or "The Man-Beast" by many.
    • My shape as a manticore consists of six, small horns, a pitch black body, a distorted human-esque face, wings that encase searing white light, a metasoma that encases searing white light, and eyes "that burn like the sun" as some say.
  • Homebrew Celestial
    • Originates from Planescape in my source (D&D). Godless. Neither angel nor demon. I am my own homebrew race of Celestial: an Apostate.
    • Apostates are beings made from the Planes' energies. All Apostates embody and support a planar Domain, instead of being created by and working under a deity. My domain is Creation, which helps build upon the structure of my canon. My canon thrives off of storytelling in all forms, thus I help support the creative spirit any way I can.
  • Solar Starliian
    • Started out as a link. This constel was chosen for two reasons. The first reason is because I really like the species concept. I wanted to engage with it beyond 'sonas and OCs. The second reason is because Starliians gave me a bit of species envy, and I figured: "Why envy them when I just be one of them?".
  • Sun Elf (D&D)
    • Canon-divergent. This constel in particular formed as a result of two things: 1. my re-writes of this race are more preferable than D&D's very racist approach to them (they're depicted as elf supremacists, thus is terrible fucking writing) and 2. going off of said writings, this would be my "civilian" form in Faerûn.
  • Flaremon
    • Canon-ambiguous. I occasionally experience shifts of Firamon and Apollomon in tandem with this constel. That said, I consider Flaremon as my go-to form of the three.
  • Obelisk Dragon
    • Light Flight-aligned.

Mythostels
Constels that are mythic in nature. Many of my mythostels are fictional (in terms of background), but their mythic quality is what sets them apart from other fictostels.

  • Urmahlullu
    • A leonine centaur, in layman's terms.
  • Gorgon
    • Not Medusa or any of her sisters, but a general member of the gorgon species. The snakes that make up my "hair" are black mambas. Occasionally, I experience cameo shifts of sunbeam snakes for hair, though they're not my actual serpentine tie-in.
  • Faun
    • I am an atypical faun, to be specific. I fluctuate between being a draconic faun and a leonine faun, rather than a classical ungulate-based faun.
    • As a draconic faun, I maintain my tail, my horns, my breath weapon and some of my scaled features in this form. That said, I have no whiskers nor wings.

Anistels
Constels that are based in animality / are species of animals.

Phytostels
Constels that are plant species.

Objectstels
Constels that are objects, whether inanimate or sentient.

Farstels
Constels that are concepts, rather than a specific person or species. Unlike most of my other constels, I always embody these concepts.

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Fictionflicker(s)
I do not count these identities as constels due to their circumstantial nature. They're only triggered when I interact with their sources, come across something reminiscent of their sources, or discuss them in passing. Whether or not they hold noemata depends on the 'flicker.

  • Architect
    • I am no specific Architect character nor do I have any exomemories for this 'flicker.
  • Desert Yautja
    • This 'flicker belongs to the same subspecies as the Feral Predator, but I'm not the Feral Predator as in the antagonist Prey. I do not have any exomemories associated with this 'flicker either.
  • Donatello Hamato
    • This 'flicker is mainly experienced as Donnie from the crossover canon within Naruto.
    • I also experience 'flickers as Donatello from the 2003 canon and the Bayverse canon, respectively.

Links
These are species that I chose, but haven't fully incorporated into my identity yet. Reasons vary from link to link.

  • Quinn Navidson
    • Copinglink. I will not disclose what I'm specifically coping with, but I will say that Quinn/"Yarnaby" does help me in finding peace with my troubled adolescent years. This is the only link I have that'll permanently stay as a link, rather than be dropped or become a constel.

Endelic Identities
Identities that are rooted in delusions. My endels come about as a result of my schizophrenia.

  • D-16 / Megatron
    • When triggered, this endel fluctuates between a Humanformers perspective and a perspective that's canon-compliant to Transformers One.
  • The Listener
    • When triggered, I am not akin to the Listener as seen in Elder Scrolls canon. This endel feels more like a force of nature than a tangible person, bringing ruin wherever it goes.
  • Alecto the First
    • When triggered, I appear closer to Alecto prior to Perfect Lyctorhood.

Paratypes
Identities that connect with a pre-established experience of mine. They relate heavily to my experiences and exist alongside them, but would not be present without said experience(s).

  • The Sun
    • A collective paratype of my core identities. This paratype refers to the sun as seen in various cultures and symbolism, which I associate with my identity at large.
  • Sakura Kinomoto
    • Paratype of my Kerberos fictotype. This paratype exists in relation to my friendship with Sakura.
  • Paladins and Knights
    • Pararchetropes of my magical girl fictotype. The work of paladians and knights, particularly in popular culture, are very close to my experiences as a magical girl. I see my own position as a magical girl like that of a paladin from fantasy media, despite the differences between said media and where this fictotype comes from.
    • Unlike most of my other paratypes, these two also feel archetypal. Thus, they are pararchetropes.
  • Dragonborns and Draconians
    • Paratypes of my gold dragon fictotype. Gold dragonborns and Aurak Draconians, to be specific. These two species reflect a bridge between humanity and nonhumanity within draconity that I associate heavily with myself.
  • Stormcutters
    • Paratype of my Dragon Rider fictotype. This paratype exists in relation to myself as a Nyoka-Damu since my in-source companion was a Stormcutter.
  • Nargacugas
    • Paratype of my Monster Rider fictotype. This paratype exists in relation to myself as a Monster Rider since my in-source companion was a Nargacuga.
  • European Badger
    • Paratype of my Mossflower Badger constel. Developed due to the prominence of european badgers in Redwall itself, in contrast to me being both a honey badger and a Badger of Salamandastron.
  • African Leopard
    • Paratype of my lion constel. This is due to our shared habitat and positions as predatory animals.

Kardiatype(s)
Species that I used to be in a past context, but no longer am nor identify as. Nonetheless, they hold relevance to my current species.

  • Necrozma
    • Specifically, a Necrozma in my species' original state (Psychic/Dragon). Fused with a Solgaleo. Similar to my Tamrielic Dragon kardiatype, it is significant to my draconity.
    • In my Pokémon fictomere, this was a previous form of mine before I became a trainer. My transition from a Necrozma to a trainer is a Mystery Dungeon type of scenario but put in reverse: I was once an ancient beast, then I emerged as a human under unknown circumstances.
    • This also ties into a mirrortype of the same species. I do not identify as a Necrozma, but this past experience still reflects major aspects of my draconity in terms of both appearance and ability.

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Heartedness
Characters, species, stories and locations that I feel deeply connected with, even though I am not one of them nor from them.

Synpaths:

  • Zoe Foster
    • Between our positions as older siblings and our love for the fantasy genre, Zoe and I share a lot of similiarities. I'd say I relate to her sense of imagination and curiosity the most, although her closeness towards her sister is alike to how I feel towards my own sister.
  • Xenk Yandar
    • I resonate with Xenk mostly because he reminds me of myself when I first started D&D. I was very dramatic and grandiose. Seeing him in action got a rise out of me, knowing that he was a little jest at players such as myself. I feel connected with him in that regard. He's a nice reminder that heartedness isn't always have overly intimate or melancholy roots.
  • Horace Cross
    • I resonate with Horace deeply as a black queer person in the U.S. South and on account of our alterhumanity. Although Horace's desire to become a red-tailed hawk isn't explicitly stated or meant to reflect nonhuman identity, he chooses himself as a form of escapism, similar to some forms of copinglinking— a practice that I've only done once but relate to nonetheless.
  • Kovu
    • I resonate with Kovu as a character for a lot of personal reasons. Even though I don't talk about these connections a lot, I can say that my resonance with him has been here since my childhood.
  • Sunstripe
    • Of all canon Redwall Badgers, I deeply identify with and see myself in Sunstripe and his journeys. That said, much like Kovu, it's not to the point of identifying as Sunstripe. I simply see a kindred spirit in him.
  • Ashitaka
    • I can't quite place how or why, but I also see myself in Ashitaka. I do feel like our stoicism and passion for both humanity and the Earth ties into this heartedness, however.
  • Piranesi
    • Also known as Matthew Rose Sorensen. I resonate with Piranesi, or Matthew, on account of our curiosity, love of learning, and love for our world(s). I also resonate with his difficulty in understanding societal obsessions over material wealth/access.

Hearttypes:

  • Drow-hearted
    • My heartedness towards drow elves is based on my own position as a marginalized person and also a result of sympathizing with their position for being branded as a typical "evil race" in fantasy media.
  • Kobold-hearted
    • D&D-specific. Rather than Dragonborns or other Draconians, much of my kinship goes towards the kobolds in my source. Their resourcefulness and sense of community invole something that I can't quite describe outside of "pride". In short, I'm very fond of this group as a D&D fictionfolk.
  • Orc-hearted
    • Includes half-orcs. I'm Orc-hearted regardless of the source, but I am quite biased towards D&D Orcs and Orsimers.
    • Hard-working, strong and proud, there's very little to dislike about orcs. Most of my heartedness towards then is based on my own sympathies as a racially marginalized person. I know the feeling of witnessing your community be constantly demonized; while orcs aren't the only fantasy race to be depicted as such, they are the most prominent of them.
  • Inkfish-hearted
    • I lean more towards Octolings with this hearttype, as I relate to Inkadian Octolings and Octarians as a marginalized person.

Hearttales:

  • Splatoon
    • Specifically the games and their DLCs, not the manga.
  • The Lion King
    • Specifically towards the first three entries of the franchise (the '97 film, Simba's Pride and TLK 1/2).
  • The Unwanteds by Lisa McMann
    • The entire series, not just the first book.
  • Redwall by Brian Jacques
    • The entire series, not just the first book.
  • The Hobbit, Or There And Back Again by J.R.R. Tolkien
  • Magic Knight Rayearth by CLAMP
    • Both the manga and the anime adaptation.
  • Saint Seiya by Masami Kurumada
    • The entire franchise, not any specific version.
  • Skin Deep by Kory Bing

Hearthomes:

  • Faerûn (The Forgotten Realms)
    • Particularly towards Candlekeep and Waterdeep.
  • Lux Aurea, Xadia
  • Salamandastron
  • The Serengeti
  • Sun Haven
  • Cephiro
  • Tamriel
  • Hyrule
  • Artimé

Archetropes
Tropes and roles that I reflect me as an individual. I strive to incorporate these archetypes into my lifestyle(s).

  • Cloistered Scholar
    • Although this isn't a universal concept, this background is very archetypal in nature as all D&D backgrounds are.
  • Storyteller
    • Collectively relevant to my life and practices, whether in context to alterhumanity or otherwise.
  • Magical Guide
    • Relevant to my draconity, my identity as Kerberos, and my connection to TTRPGS.
  • Monster Knight
  • Wizard
    • Involves a Magic Knight sub-archetrope when considering my magical girl fictotype.
  • Wise Serpent
    • A little less literal than my other archetropes. I may not be a serpent, per se, but I am a draconic being who believes knowledge should be accessible to all, no matter how many times it is banned, obscured, or kept away from the public eye. Thus, I've become a procurer of forbidden knowledge.

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Additional Information
My Dreamwidth: https://herebedraconity.dreamwidth.org/?s2id=4431742

Here, I journal a lot of my thoughts and experiences pertaining to my alterhumanity. These writings are more on the personal side of things.

My Neocities: https://herebedraconity.neocities.org/

Please note that my neocities is still a WIP.

This is my personal website where I archive my alterhuman usings, essays and poetry. I also aim to provide a wide array of activities and information on this web page as well; that way, it can be a fun, educational experience for all!

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