i will change this very soon, i am working on it... thank you for the metadata

you can call me ivan or whatever my display name is. i go by he/him pronouns. i prefer masculine terms, avoid feminine ones.

i do not keep a formal dni list, and i would rather handle situations case by case. the only consistent exception is that i am not comfortable interacting with selfshippers of a portion of my f/os. otherwise, friend requests, dms, pings, and casual interaction are all welcome.

my gender is unlabeled, and i am not interested in being confined by strict categories. i would generally be considered bisexual and polyamorous, and i sometimes use labels like cupioromantic or fictoromantic, though none of these are rigid rules, just descriptions that may or may not fit depending on the day. i also identify closely with rabbits, blue jays, and many other things, which you can find more about here.

for additional context, i am a diagnosed udd system, with a semi high and somewhat unclear headcount. i also deal with bipolar disorder alongside other conditions that i do not fully disclose publicly. because of this, i may go inactive, disappear, or become less communicative at random, and it is never meant personally. i struggle with anxiety, paranoia, and memory loss, patience and gentleness go a long way with me if you would like to be friends.

i am taken by my lovely boyfriends. i also selfship often and have many internal lovers, with a full list available here. the most central bonds include oda, diablo, verlaine, hades, wei ying, jinshi, and illuga, and i am 'nonsharing' regarding them. please do not compete, insert yourself, or treat these bonds casually.

i enjoy herbalism and botany, boxing, drawing, collecting, foraging, linguistics, reading, literature, and metallurgy. i also love watching sports such as ice skating, volleyball, soccer, fencing, and various martial arts, even if i do not yet practice most of them myself. i am especially drawn to genres that are psychological, classical, fantastical, historical, or steeped in tradition, including murim, xianxia, wuxia, baihe, and danmei. music is another major comfort for me; i adore classical pieces, especially when harp or guqin are featured, but i also enjoy visual kei, kpop, jpop, and cpop.

in terms of media, i gravitate toward bl, kdramas, cdramas, jdramas, folklore and mythology inspired films, vampire-related stories, and anything that feels dreamlike or "haunted by history". i read widely across novels, manhwa, manhua, manga, webcomics, yaoi, and yuri. for games, i tend to love open world exploration, with breath of the wild, tears of the kingdom, neverness to everness, wuthering waves, and genshin impact being favorites. i also have a fondness for certain actors, including wang yibo, xiao zhan, byeon woo-seok, and gong jun, and i frequently return to authors such as mxtx, meatbun, priest, and fyodor dostoevsky.

i primarily study russian, mandarin, and french, among others, and i previously spent time with german, bosnian, croatian, korean, japanese, and tagalog, though they are no longer my focus. i am strongest with english, russian, and french, particularly in reading and writing. speaking can be more difficult for me, as my brain often jumbles languages together, so i prefer not to practice aloud unless i am alone or with someone i deeply trust.

i am also very interested in mythology, religion, and folklore. my current focus includes hellenic, norse, buddhist, and christian mythologies, and i have been devoted to hellenic history, literature, and myth for nearly a decade. i do not have a strict label for my personal beliefs, but i consider myself polytheistic and not particularly concerned with religious rulekeeping.