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#1 BELGiUM~ LiL PEEP
" I was out in Belgium on tour, that's the day that I convinced myself that I was truly yours, "
+ " You act kind, I don't act kind at all, I ask myself, why am I talkin like this? Ask yourself, do you deserve this treatment? "
✘ I have a tendancy to treat those I love in ways they dont deserve, im very self destructive tbh, and i feel like this song/peep kinda gets that point across - i leave, isolate, nd run from love a lot, sometimes i need to be alone to truly realise i belong to someone - plus this song is just a song im emotionally attached to bc i relate it to someone ✘
" so you guys are into jaz? "
" look wolf, prairie dog, ronzell, whatever the fuck your name is, We don't fuck with you or anybody else here, alright? You stay the fuck out of our way and we'll stay out of yours, capisce? "
✘ best opener to the best album idgaf what anyone says!!! + this song feels like what acid feels like idk if its bc im high as fuck rn or what but goddd this song. so goood ✘
" I can get you high, but i cant read your mind, i hate when you lie to me, still you keep me alive, hands run down your spine, i wish you were mine. whats the perfect lie? words cannot describe this. "
✘ the lyrics r pretty self explanatory, are they not? but besides the relating to the lyrics this song is so,, beautiful, the lead up, peeps vocals, its like you can hear the emotion in ur bones if you listen hard enough, also feels like a fucking trip, i listen to it a lot when im high bc its very vibratey ? and makes me float. also if u hate / dont listen to gab3s vers u should kys ✘
2008 ~ LiL PEEP
" I feel your pain, I think we're goin' insane, i saw you today and i thought i should say, that i still love you like i did back in 2008, okay " + " I ain't never lettin' you leave, my dear, imma tie you up, and imma lock you away, you dont ever listen to the shit i say, imma make you listen to me "
✘ this song feels like if gym class was possessed by bpd and desperation if yknow what i mean, it reminds me of an old type of love that still hasnt passed bc i dont think true real love ever truly fades, emotions get brought back up and this song kinda reminds me of that ✘
NEVER EAT, NEVER SLEEP ~ LiL PEEP & LiL TRACY
" my mouth full of jewels, she like it when i grin " + " lil peep why, why do they hate? My bitch so bad, tell that bitch to behave " + " The moon's out, I feel like myself again now, Fuck you, fuck her, and fuck them, If I die today, you would try to fuck my bitch !
✘ it wouldnt be a colby song ranking if i didnt put MY song, tho it was so hard not to just put every lyric to this song like FUCKKK ITS THEIR BEST COLLAB!!! The lyrics, the tone, the beat, all fucking perfect, most underrated song in the album, hate to be that person as a peep lover but tracy carried this song sooooo bad, his verse????? so fucking good. i can feel it in my bones, i can feel it running in my veins, its perfect, i fucking love this song SO MUCH!!!! ✘
WHEN i LiE ~ LiL PEEP
" I saw it on her face, she want to make those fuckers cry, she ends up in a better place inside when she get high " + " I'm not evil by design, but I feel dead at times + " ash on the windowpane can I kiss you on your spine? " + " I watched her walk away, but don't tell me she ain't mine, she's got this little blade and she cuts me when I lie "
✘ this song fucks me up so much, its both my breakdown song, my song to get high to and the song i listen to when i need closure w my feelings,,, so its a lot thats for sure. 90% of the time i think of myself as some evil, manipulative, horrible person who deserves the worst esps when it comes to how i treat people i love, so idk this song just hits close esps atm, i relate to someone important to me as well, this song is jst a lot in general to me + i want my girl to cut me when i lie ✘
PUSSY ~ LiL PEEP w YUNGGOTH
" I want her pussy (I want her pussy)
you a pussy (you a pussy), Gettin' pussy (gettin' pussy), eatin cookies (eatin cookies) "
✘ I love pussy and cookies what do u want from me ✘
PUSH ME AWAY~ omenXIII
" Yeah, I was going numb I can't taste it anymore, blood on my hands left my heart on the floor " + " and last night i got high again, black out, dont know what i said, i was fighting demons, tryna fly away, if i get too high i might die today " + is that you in my veins when i cant think straight? I aint never felt emotion, but sometimes i feel the pain "
✘ This song is gen fucking me up so much rn, its been on repeat for like an hour, I havent been sober in weeks, ive been high every night, i wake up and the first thing i do is take pills, im numbing myself and i dont even remember why at this point, i know theres a reason but i just cant remember, i use drugs to escape myself, others and "emotions" i have, i dont think im capable of feeling a lot of things, im pushed away by myself and others and i feel like thats my fault a lot, I think being alone, being pushed away; ect, leaves me alone with who i am and thats someone who only feels anger and pain, so i drown it out with drugs, im sure this is my death sentence like genuinely.
really pretty song tho, i love omen so fucking much ✘
THiNKiN BOUT U~ boyfoot & lil peep
" she think im an asshole, what if i end my life, though? will she like me then? I just wanna grab my knife, oh, its my only friend, sacrifice my whole life tonight, im a lonely man "
✘ I feel like the lyrics speak for themselves tbh but, i have problems with people i love thinking im an asshole, he thinks im an asshole, when i dont mean to be, maybe ill be liked better if i wasnt here, maybe then ill be understood, maybe then ill be thought of as a good person. my self harm is my only friend, im lonely and its killing me, everything is slowly killing me and its all my own doing. Im such an asshole✘
FALLiNG 4 ME~lil peep
" hold me, i cant breathe, i dont wanna die, i dont wanna OD, cup full of lean, pure codeine, ten lines deep, now i cant see i dont wanna be this way for good "
✘ im scared of dying alone, i know the drugs are killing me, i dont wanna die alone, please just hold me, please dont let me od again, care about me, please. ✘
LOVE LETTER~lil peep
" i wrote a letter for you, but you didnt write back, calm down i dont wanna fight like that, girl calm down i dont wanna fight like that i wrote a letter for you, but you didnt write back, i wrote a song for you but you prolly didnt listen at all, i wanna take my life just to give it to you, i wanna make things right "
✘ One sided love is killing me tbh, jst the easiest way to put it. This song hits v close, esps the last line ✘
HiGH SCHOOL~lil peep
" And then the bell rang and I took something then I couldn't recall Makin you cry the way that you did, I can't forgive myself for And if you want me to, I'll kill myself, but I'm already in hell for it + You used to love me then, I know it's not the same But this is not the end 'cause everything gon change "
✘ this song sums me up perfectly i think??? I dont remember alot, im high alot, i dont even remember what i took sometimes, all i remember is how i make the people i love cry. How i made him cry. It destroys me, i hate myself everytime i do, its living fucking hell, id do anything to make up for it, id kill myself if needed. I know im not loved the same as before, im not an idiot, but its not the end, ill fix it somehow ✘
@ MY WORST~blackbear
" im off a benz, goin round bends, this could be the death of me + You're prayin' I'm the one, but maybe I'm a curse, the more you try to fix me, the more you make it worse, could you love me at my worst? "
✘ self explanatory, no? The more someone wants me, tries to fix me i become worse. I'll always be a curse, no one will love me at my worst, though I crave that ✘
