azazel lovemail

i dont know where you are or how youre doing but i miss you more than anything. sometimes i resent you for leaving me, and for leaving everybody else.. but i cant really blame you. i know how hard things can be. i cant blame you for things you cant control, but sometimes its so hard. i loved you so deeply. everybody loved you. emm loved you, athan loved you, james loved you.. my other friends that didnt even know you loved you, just because of how happy you seemed to make me feel whenever i spoke about you to them. you cared for me so sweetly, i thought i was dreaming anytime you reassured and comforted me. you were so soft with me. i hadnt been loved like that in a long time, and i doubt i will ever find somebody to love me like you did ever again. i miss you, soundly. the longing i feel for you must be never-ending. all of us miss you so much. i depended on you. i hope i made you feel loved, too. my heart aches at the thought of you. do you think of me? do you miss me? do you ever want to return? i'll be waiting for you

"us" songs : patient is the night . subwoofer lullaby . bless the telephone