Small directory.
Introduction
Songs and lyrics
List of things
Messages
Lovemail for my amazing wifehusband
Hello, this is a page dedicated to the most important person in my life, someone I am dedicating my entire love and existence to.
To my dear Eli, my wonderful, handsome and gorgeous boyfriend who I adore!
I will be writing to you both in english and spanish here I think and while words in any language aren't enough to even get close to explain my inmense love for you, I am always happy to at least get some of them off my heart for you. I love you
I'm a bit sad that the old lovemail I wrote was deleted, but I am trying to see the good side of it and notice that this is my chance to start over and tell you everything again and even more!
List of songs
many that remind me of you
and some lyrics from them.
Villainous thing - Shayfer James
Waste no worry for the world
Let it be a tragedy of love and glory
While they wait by gates of pearl
We'll be building palaces in purgatory.
Built to burn - Shayfer James
If you need it, I'll build a cathedral in these hills
I'll write you a sermon where holy communion was whiskey and pills
A jigsaw confession, indecent act of contrition
Whatever the mess, we'll make the best of it
Blood moon love - Shayfer James
Baby, let's get married on Halloween!
You could be my Joker
I'll be your qu-qu-qu-qu-queen!
And If you got a body to bury
I'll bring the shovel and the rope!
Troublemaker - Shayfer James
I’ve got nothing but trouble for you
You’ve got nothing but trouble for me
Kicking bottles and juggling knives
Havin’ the ravenous time of our lives
...
We have been waiting too long
Troublemaker
I’m done with not doing wrong
Troublemaker
Nothing’s alright, might as well make a night of it
We have been waiting too long
Just a couple troublemakers
Filthy habit - Shayfer James
Love is not kind
It's a dirty little trick of the mind
My beautiful weakness
I'm happy you're here
...
Be what I need
Lady, teach a machine how to bleed
Dismantle me, deadly
Make me a storm
Dia tras dia - Andrés Cepeda
Salir al mundo es como caminar en medio de una guerra
Pero, a tu lado, todo es más seguro porque encuentro paz
Le pido al cielo que te proteja
Que siempre estemos igual
Que me ames igual
Yo quiero estar contigo el resto de mi vida
Que podamos estar juntos hasta el final
Poderme despertar con tu sonrisa
Es mi alegría
Día tras día
Eres - Café Tacvba
¿Qué más puedo decirte?
Tal vez puedo mentirte sin razón
Pero lo que hoy siento
Es que sin ti estoy muerto, pues eres
Lo que más quiero en este mundo, eso eres
...
Aquí estoy a tu lado
Y espero aquí sentado hasta el final
No te has imaginado
Lo que por ti he esperado, pues eres
Lo que yo amo en este mundo, eso eres
Cada minuto en lo que pienso, eso eres
Lo que más cuido en este mundo eso eres
November - Psychedelic Porn Crumpets
Genuinely can't think of some lyrics dude the whole song is so beautiful and it reminds me so much of you
Things that are us
I'll add images and more later but
- CLOWNZY that's pretty obvious tho look at the url
Messages for Eli
December 10th, 2023
written at 9:12 am on June 8th, 2025
This was the day we started dating :)
Eli, ever since I met you my life has changed completely for the better, you've brought me emotions I didn't even know I was able to feel or show for someone. You're genuinely the most amazing person I have ever met and as I always tell you, it makes me so upset to see how hard it is for you to believe that you are.
This partis more of a rant but don't you find it funny how I felt about you has changed? It's no secret that I used to think you were a little childish at the start and that I was secretly jealous of you because you seemed liie you were actually enjoying life, but at some point you made me realize so many things like that I was desperately trying to be like an adult even though I wasn't, you made me remember I was a kid too and that I shouldn't be so harsh on myself just because of guilt or whatever I was feeling at the moment and that trying to grow up quicker just to make up for all my trauma wasn't going to fix anything. You may have not realized of this, but I did, and might have told you about it at some point but I can't remember.
I still remember when [REDACTED OH NO A BAD PERSON AND FRIEND] was asking me how I felt about you while I was at my institute, it was very funny to me because I could imagine exactly was was up and why she was asking that LMAOOO, I'm very glad you told me how you felt about me that day, I really can't imagine an universe without you in my life.
We've been dating for a year and a half, isn't that amazing? We're going to graduate, get married, grow old together and have a bunch of animals in our house because we love them. I love you beautiful! I can't wait any longer.
April 16th, 2025
written on April 15th, 2025
for your birthday! an old message, but
that I wanted to put in here regardless.
Hello my sweetheart :)
Quería empezar este mensaje diciendote que te amo, que no pasa momento en el que no extraño tus besos y tu bello rostro! Te deseo el mejor cumpleaños del mundo amor, es un día muy especial y espero que hoy puedas descansar lo necesario y disfrutarlo al máximo, te lo mereces. Por más que no lo creas, eres demasiado inteligente y hábil, considero que eres una de las personas más honestas y genuinas que haya conocido en toda mi vida!!
Llevamos 2 años hablándonos y honestamente se siente como si te hubiera conocido toda mi vida, eres una persona en la que puedo confiar sin siquiera dudarlo por un segundo, quiero seguir amandote durante toda mi vida y haciéndote feliz cuando lo necesites, estoy dispuesto a sacrificar todo para demostrarte lo mucho que te amo. Contigo siento una seguridad que nunca había sentido antes, se que puedo confiar en ti y que no debo sentir pena por decirte lo mucho que te smo, petnames o ponerte apodos de cariño, se que estás intentando ser lo mejor de ti y aprecio eso demasiado, estoy dedicado totalmente a tí y a absolutamente nadie más.
Vivir es un regalo, siempre habrán obstáculos en tu camino o cosas que hagan que todo sea difícil y no quiero que aceptes ese tipo de cosas, quiero que luches como siempre haz hecho y que te vuelvas cada vez más fuerte por más complicado que sea, porque se que eres capaz de esto y de más.
Estoy extremadamente orgulloso de ti, cada día me sorprendes más con tus dibujos e ideas para ocs aunque no estés tan seguro de ellos o de que sean buenos, pero te juro que los amo demasiado y que son completamente increíbles, todo lo que haces es genial :3
Quiero que no dejes nunca de soñar y que puedas cumplir todos los sueños que me has compartido, se que lo podrás lograr y voy a estar junto a ti siempre para ayudarte! Eres mi mejor amigo, mi alma gemela, no me veo pasando mi vida entera con alguien más porque eres lo único que quiero y necesito. Te amo <3
De nuevo, te deseo el mejor cumpleaños del mundo, espero que hoy sea un muy buen día y que sea el mejor. Supongo que las cosas que te quiero decir son un poco "cliche" pero siento que necesitas recordarlas siempre, eli, tu haces el mundo más brillante por el simple hecho de estar en el, has tocado mi corazón de tantas maneras y aunque soy ateo, considero el conocerte y tenerte en mi vida una bendición.
Felicidades por sobrevivir un año más aguantando personas tontas y siendo el mejor novio del mundo! Te amo, feliz cumpleaños :3
June 15th, 2025
written at 6:07 pm on June 15th, 2025
Hi Eli it's father's day, you know what that means! Joke. Remember when I told you hours ago that I was going to come back soon because apparently something bad happened? Well my granfather apparently (I still don't know if it was true or not) lost his balance, fell and hit his head which is pretty insane right. I rushed through the streets when I was told that there was an emergency because you know I'm staying at my aunt's for a while and it's pretty close to my grandparents house so I just ran like idk a fucking alien was chasing me while my aunt walked like 5 streets behind and a car almost ran me over. I got to the house safe though but he was fine by then LOL I think he faked it so we would show up for lunch or something. I want to text you very badly because I didn't bring the phone and it's not letting me login LITERALLY anywhere and I have amnesia so I don't remember your phone number :(
I am currently using my aunt's phone to write this, I feel like when I was 10 and used my family's phones to make gacha videos that's funny af! Enough about me.
Eli Arve, I love everything about you very very very much sometimes I wish I could crush you with my hands but if I did that I would cry and die because you'd be dead and I don't want that but you're so cute you give me cuteness agression I need to kill you and bite you and eat you and hug you. I'm really happy everything is turning out great in our relationship because to me that's the only thing that matters now, I can't imagine someone else in my life other than you. You've turned my life around and even though I still struggle sometimes with things you're always so helpful, I'm so lucky to have found someone so patient and sweet as you are! Auaghshh I need go express my love for you but it's so hard I too really want to draw but I brought literally nothing and I can't draw if it isn't on my notebook or with my pen Whybis life so hard auaghshdjejkzmzn ahgghhh :(((
I really need to draw us making out dude I miss you so bad I wanna sob Also my aunt wantes her phone back Wow that makes me sound like imn12 years old OKAY WHATEVER bye I love you very much I'll talk to you soon
June 21st, 2025
written at 10:01 am on June 21st, 2025
I really really miss you, and I love you so much you can't imagine it Eli :(
I really want to do all those things to even make you feel more loved, I want you to be the happiest person in the entire world and I'm compromised to that. I will love you forever and ever, and nothing will change that.