In the end, that's what controls me.

Just a general disclaimer before you get to know me, if you want to–or just to interact, I suppose. Thank you Vivi for the URL ♥︎ this will stay right here .

I consider myself perpetually on an interact with caution status. As I am unmedicated and mentally ill, I experience mood swings or grow sensitive rather sporadically. This doesn't mean I want you to treat me like an active bomb or something, just be aware I may randomly disappear or my tone may come across off at times.

Branching off of that, I do struggle with tone because I'm autistic. I hate tone indicators, do not use them on me, and do not ask me to use them. Simply ask me to clarify my tone, never assume my tone—I really don't understand how I sound sometimes or my mouth just races faster than my brain.

My social battery fluctuates and I suffer from insomnia so don't be surprised if I disappear mid-conversation. I may have been forced into sleep from exhaustion or I simply wanna focus on my game. I may also respond to specific people because I have only the energy for those people, it's not personal. It's hard for me to maintain friendships because I procrastinate even responding to people, interacting makes me anxious.

I will be upfront with the fact that I do have diagnosed DID. I do not disclose who is fronting to people ever really as a safety precaution / it's personal information. However, this will make me act differently when I talk to you if someone else is in front, and I do have amnesia. Please forgive me if I forget anything. I'm often unaware.

I am defensive and overly enthusiastic over my special interests / pairings. In all honesty, they affect my identity rather heavily as I latch onto characters. Expect that to be the one thing that I talk about when I get the chance or for me to be a little "competitive" over it. Rationally, I know I don't have to like it "more" but my brain has a hard time with that.

Maybe that's why I'm controlling.