(will organize later) my directory

1　as you read through these block of texts, it is important for me to specify that the language in which the content below is written in does not match the manner i normally converse in. i possess a habit of speaking formally outside of regular interactions.

2　with that aside, i am commonly known as xiao. one may address me as mentioned, but i am not against nicknames. i do not wish to associate myself with past names, so kindly avoid referring to me as any of those.

3　while i no longer conform to strict labels, i closely align myself with the identity of a cisgender female. i do not experience attraction based on a certain gender — which i assume corresponds to being pansexual. as for my pronouns, i use she/him pronouns. the former is much preferred. collect my pages for more

4　most would describe me as a very talkative and energetic person. talk to me as you would to a friend, and i shall treat you the same ~ ❤︎

5　i have a tendency to forget even the less mundane things. this extends (but are not limited) to names, events, activities, birthdays, and etc. these are not a measure of how much i care about something. in essence, i am prone to unintentionally dismissing messages and DMs from other people. while you needn't trouble yourself, i highly appreciate reminders!

6　do bear in mind that i have mental conditions that are able to influence the way i talk and handle situations when under its effects. i would prefer to be left alone in those moments, lest you seek an unpleasant encounter with me.

7　i can be very blunt and dismissive at times. please do not take it personally; that is simply how i am as a person. i do not use tone tags, and would prefer none to be used on me. if you have difficulties in identifying my tone or a message of mine seems unclear, please let me know.

8　if you dislike me yet continue to openly express your feelings of contempt rather than steer completely away from interaction, expect said hostility to remain one-sided. although i am much capable of forming a grudge, i am not the type of person to hold it against another for so long either. i usually take the initiative of owning up to mistakes i have made in the past, and i accept any and all accountability for my actions. therefore, reconciliation is always on the table; should you seek a friendly settlement. i consider myself a highly communicative person... so long as you pursue me first.

9　moreover, i have no interest in prying in the affairs of other people. i am in no position to do so, and i would advise you to refrain from involving me in petty drama. i hold little concern for whatever does not directly affect me and those i hold so dearly.

10　as such, my personal life is not something to speculate or meddle in. i find it very intrusive and parasocial. i am more than happy to share information about myself to spaces i feel comfortable in — so there is no need to play detective with me.

11　i have no patience for people who act superior. i do not care about how high you think of yourself, and i don't think i ever will. if anything, i will take it upon myself to mirror your inflated sense of self with the intention of provoking you. as a matter of fact, i find entertainment in doing so.

12　although i would not go as far as to call myself an irritable person, i happen to get very annoyed when interacting with certain people. i hold an immense disdain towards those whose entire being revolves around negativity and being cynical. it is even more bothersome when it is done for the sake of maintaining an "edgy" and "nonchalant" front. i also am not a fond of people who repeat the obvious and are utterly — forgive me for the way i put it — stupid. i find it meaningless to chat with those i deem boring to talk to, and it is much evident in the way i am quick to keep conversations brief with someone akin to that.

13　on the topic of what or who i dislike, i do not have a DNI list. this is due to the fact that i engage freely regardless of one's background. however, do not mistake this as an invitation to befriend me if you are a weirdo. i block with an equal amount of freedom, often without an explanation but accompanied with enough justification reserved for myself.