go to sleep ♡ dream of love Dearest Chi &. Co!! My forever loves!! I am prefacing this by saying I am not good at words (or expressing myself generally), but I hope this comes across as sincere and genuine as intended. My perception of time is quite bad, so I'm not sure the exact date we originally met... I'd like to say it was mid to late 2025, but I could be off. Regardless, it really feels like we've known each other longer than that. This much is clear with how we both gaslit ourselves into believing I attended your graduation despite not knowing each other then (best believe I was there in spirit). It's such an odd feeling to truly feel like you've known someone for years when that isn't the case at all. I get weird feelings of deja vu, like I swear I've done and said these exact things with you countless times over. Who knows, maybe we have in a past life! From the bottom of my heart, you are genuinely like a younger sibling I've never had, which is truthfully an extreme comfort to me. Growing up without family or people who love you was tough for me, as I'm sure it is for you. If it were possible I'd truly like to give you a better life, but unfortunately the most I can do is be a humble jester for your enjoyment to ease the burden. Seeing people who insist that they are your friends repeatedly hurt you in various ways is tough!! It upsets me quite a lot, but I'll always try my best to support you and be there for you. Even when these people fail you, I really and truly hope that I can be someone you feel safe enough with to lean back on for support and comfort. I'm very aware I'm not good at expressing empathy or compassion, but I do truly care for you a lot and I hope this is something you can feel from me at the very least. If Chi has 1000 fans, I'm a majority of them. If Chi has 1 fan, I'm the only one. If Chi has no fans, then that is a lie because I will always be your #1 fan forever!!!

I will add more to this later, with much love, Yulian!!