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Q. Abel, aren't you a straight guy? Why are all your f/o's male?
A: Good question!


Aatrox & I first met on 12/04/2024 and I found him really ugly so I ghosted him.
We decided to give a relationship a try on 03/09/2024 and impulsively engaged soon after.

Coming into 2025, I began to see another guy - Varus..
I loved him, and he rejected me. That did not stop me.
Two months into our affair I catch my
fiancΓ© cheating on me with the same fucking guy too. Varus.

I think he knew that I also have been cheating on him with his brother-in-arms but decided to not say anything about it.
So, out of mutual respect, I also did not confront him.

Every now and then, my ex-boyfriend, Shen, (source-relationship as a Zed introject) would send me a DM pretending to be nonchalant but I know he wants me back. I act modest but secretly I also miss him and would do anything to have him back but I have to play it cool.
I tell him I am getting married soon, he says okay, we meet up, and the rest is a blur.
It doesn't count as cheating.

I also have another ex-boyfriend, Pyke, who left me after I spent $700 on a Viego chair instead of the Pyke version of it.
Viego was flattered but I dumped him since I was mad I fumbled Pyke. Also, Viego was a little too ill for my liking.

As you can see, my life is pretty difficult.
You can imagine the way I felt when ... I met him.
The star I was missing in life.

Ezreal.
We aren't in a relationship. Not yet at least.
He leaves me on read, ghosts me, changes his number, and tried to file a restraining order against me.
As if that would do anything.
What we have is complicated, and few would understand.

My brother Cain suggests I seek help.

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Pub: 30 Mar 2019 23:55 UTC
Edit: 22 Jun 2025 09:14 UTC
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