❛ A diary of the words I may not say aloud,
but hold deeply in my heart for you. ♡ ❜
For my sibling, Luci / Alix. Since 08/08/21.
I may not be capable of standing by your side just yet, but never will I ever allow myself to forget the things you did for me. How happy you make me. You will always be my sibling, my other half of a person. You never fail to make me smile, and you have made me happier than anyone ever did before. You give me a feeling that I will never feel with somebody else, the feeling of having somebody so special to you that you could never see them as anything but perfect. You're angelic, that was always our word.
I will always keep a place in my heart for you, and I know one day I will get to be with you — not through a screen. But standing by your side, and from that day I plan give you the world and more, for as much as I am capable of. Until then, I will wait. And do my best to be your best friend, and your sibling, I will be here for you always. No matter what I have to do or how long I have to wait.
The day you came into my life I never expected you to mean this much to me. I didn't know I was capable of loving a person so much, or finding someone so special you consider them your soulmate. That someone could be so perfect, or so ethereal, that they completely change your view on the world that once seemed so full of cruelty and emptiness. You proved there to be more than that on this planet.
We may have had ups and down, good and bad days — gone months or upto a year without a form of contact. Those things are meaningless to me. Whether I am parted from you for years or more, or the world keeps us apart until the end of time. I would be willing to wait. I would not forget, I would not doubt your place in my heart. Never will that change, no matter what.
I truly could sit for eternity if it meant being by your side, I could sit and listen to you for hours and hours without even considering something like boredom. Every word you say and every conversation we have brings me more joy than I know how to put into words.
As much as I hate to admit, and which I am sure you know, there have been days in my life where I have not wished to or planned not to wake up again. You change that, drastically. With you in my life I see a reason, a hope and a meaning to continue. Something and someone to look forward to spending my life with, someone that makes me happier than I think anyone else is capable of.
You make me want to be better, which is a really important thing to me. Because for such a long time I saw no reason to have hope, have any need to or reason to recover. To even try. To this day I still have doubts of life's worth, but with you here it is easier. Less painful. I will forever be grateful for that.
I do not know how to put into words how much you mean to me. You deserve the world — to be happy, and live in joy. To have the freedom you want, everything you desire and still more. I hope I can give atleast a piece of that to you.
— (4/4/25)
my other half. ⠀ ᚐִִִ
"In the Greek myth, humans were originally created with four arms, four legs, and two faces, but Zeus, fearing their power, split them in two, condemning them to search for their missing halves, which is the origin of the concept of soulmates."
If I had to believe in something, it would be you.
I truly do believe that I was meant to be with you, to have you by my side no matter the distance. To have met you is more of a privellege than I may ever deserve, but one I will be eternally grateful for nonetheless. You are my soulmate, the other half of my soul, and the person I want to spend my life with.
— (9/4/25)